Forever Eternal

“FUCK!” I yelled as I kicked the side of my bus.

“Dude, calm down! Breaking your foot isn’t going to do anyone any good,” Jack said.

“This is all of my fault! How could I have been so stupid?” I cried, burying my face in my hands.

“Alex, she’ll be okay. That girls got a lot of spunk, she won’t go that easily,” Rian soothed, patting me on the back.

“Don’t blame yourself. How could you have known?” Zack said.

I glance wearily at Jack, wondering if I should divulge Kay’s secret to anyone else. Jack nodded and I let out a shaky breath.

“I sort of knew. I saw her cutting yesterday…”

“Shit…” Rian gasped.

I looked at the ground, feeling slightly more ashamed. Blabbermouth Alex can’t seem to keep his mouth shut.

“Where’s Kay?! Where is she?!” someone was yelling.

The guys and I turned our heads and witnesses Brian stumbling over his own feet with tears rolling down his cheeks.

“Alex!” he exclaimed as his eyes connected with mine.

He came running towards me and the guys.

“Do you know what happened to Kay? Cleo told me that she got sent to the hospital. No one’s telling me the specifics. What happened?” his voice cracked.

“She…she…uh…well, she tried to commit suicide,” I mumbled.

“What?” he croaked.

I looked into his eyes and I felt guiltier than I’ve ever felt in my entire life. I was the reason his sister tried to kill herself, the sister that in his eyes was perfect and innocent.

“Why? Why would she do that?” he asked.

I averted my eyes and looked at the guys.

“What aren’t you telling me, Alex?” Brian asked.

“I…Jesus…Kay and I slept together last night…”

“YOU WHAT?” he roared.

His eyes were blazing and his face had turned an awful shade of pink.

“I’m sorry. It was an accident we got drunk-“

“YOU FUCKED MY SISTER WHILE YOU’RE WITH LISA! YOU SON OF A BITCH!” he screamed.

I suddenly felt Brian’s fist connect with my face. I didn’t even bother to fight back as he continued to pound on me. I felt blood trickling down my face and I tasted something metallic-like in my mouth. My right eye started to swell a bit and I collapsed onto the ground.

Brian was finally torn off of me by Rian and Zack.

“You fucking disgust me,” Brian spat.

He turned on his heels and stormed off, most likely to head to the hospital.

“Alex, I think you might need to get yourself checked out,” Zack said, offering his hand to help me up.

“It’s not that bad,” I mumbled.

“Dude, you look like shit and you have a nasty cut on your head,” he said.

“I’ll be fine,” I defended.

“If you don’t go to the hospital willingly, then we’ll drag you there,” Jack told me.

“Fuck…Alright I’ll go,” I surrendered.

“This feels like shit,” I hissed as the doctor finally got my cut all stitched up.

“It’s not supposed to feel good,” the doctor retorted, “but, you’ll be fine. Just sign the papers on the counter and you’ll be free to go.”

She got up and left the room. Jack handed me the papers and I quickly signed my signature a few times.

“Alright. Let’s go,” I said.

“Don’t you want to go and check up on Kay?” Rian asked.

“I don’t think that’ll be a good idea. She wouldn’t want me to see here anyways, plus Brian would kill me.”

“Brian had to leave a little bit ago. He had to get back to Warped in time for his set. You have at least forty-five minutes before he gets back,” Zack said.

“Alright, but we won’t stay long.”

The guys and I walked down a few hallways, passing too many people who were either sick or dying.

We found Kay’s room and the guys stopped a few feet behind me.

“Aren’t you coming in too?” I asked.

“We thought it would be best if just you went in. We’ll see you back at the venue, okay?” Rian said.

“Sure, I guess. I’ll see you later then,” I sighed.

The guys all gave me a reassuring smile and left me.

I slowly opened the door to Kay’s room and I nearly puked.

Kay was laid out peacefully on the bed, her blonde and blue hair curling perfectly on the pillow. Her lips were a pasty sort of pink and her skin was pale. Her chest lightly rose and fell, being the only sign that there was still life in her. Even though her heart was still beating, she looked so…dead.

“What are you doing here?”

I nearly jumped out of my skin at Cleo’s outburst.

“I…I just wanted to see her.”

“Well, she hasn’t been waking up. The doctors say she’s in a coma. They have her stabilized, but they don’t know if or when she’s going to wake up. I…I just can’t believe this is happening,” she croaked.

“I can’t either…Is…is it okay if I have a moment alone with her?”

“Yeah…I needed to go get some coffee anyways,” she whispered before leaving the room.

“Hey, Kay,” I said as I sat down in the chair next to her hospital bed, “You probably can’t hear me right now, and I don’t know if you’ll ever hear me again…but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am. I never meant for you to get hurt. This is all my fault. I just hope to god that you wake up because I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if you left.”

I leaned in and pressed my lips to her dry, cracked ones.

My phone went off with a Skype alert and I jerked away from Kay. I unlocked my phone and answered the Skype call.

“Hey baby! Oh my god…what happened?” Lisa gasped.

“I got into a bit of a fight.”

“Who did this to you?”

“Brian.”

“Dales? But he’s always so nice…Alex, what did you do?”

“I’m so sorry you have to find out this way, Lisa,” I sighed.

“What did you do?” she asked again, but this time tears were evident in her eyes.

“I got drunk and slept with his sister.”

“How could you do this to me! Again! I thought you loved me!”

“Lisa, I did love you. This has nothing to do with you, and everything to do with me. I tried to fix things-“

“Oh, and how did that go for you?” she snapped.

“Well, you’re pissed at me, I got beaten up, oh yeah, and Brian’s sister tried committing suicide. How do you think things went for me?” I snapped back.

“What?”

“I told her that you and I were together and she got pissed at me, rightfully so, and then she tried to kill herself. Now she’s in the hospital and no one has any clue if she’s going to wake up.”

“Oh my god… That explains why Brian went so hard on you…”

“Listen, I know you’re pissed off at me, and you should be. I cheated on you so I think it’s safe to assume you want to break up…”

I waited for Lisa to speak, but she didn’t.

“So, I think it’s best if we stopped seeing each other.”

“Alright. I…I hope Kay will be okay…And Alex?”

“Yeah?”

“Just out of curiosity, do you love her?”

“I-I…I think so.”

“Well, if she does wake up, I hope you two can work things out.”

“Thank you Lisa.”

She gave me a sad smile before ending the call.

I sighed as I stuffed my phone back into the front pocket of my jeans. I looked up and was met with Kay’s piercing blue eyes.

“You’re awake!” I gasped.

She nodded slowly and uncertainly.

“H-How much of the conversation did you hear?” I asked, nervously.

“All of it.”

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