I look fine but I'm Broken..

What Mr. Long said hurt but I really don't care I'm tierd of people I just want to go home I'm tierd of the looks I get I'm tierd of hiding my pain. I'm thinking about it but the only people who keep me from doing it are right beside me, should I tell them? No, Aislyn they'll think your crazy and just a stupid immature silly brat just like you are. Nobody cares about you, in fact people would like it better if you just fall off the face of the earth noone cares what your going through the only reason your therapist cares is because he's getting paid. The only reason RILEY cares is because she feels guilt for getting Elizabeth in a bad spot. Judith just cares because she feels like she has to because you helped her out. Kayleen only talks to you because she's Judith's sister and knows that I'm fucked up. Tad knows how it feels so that's why he dosen't bully you. I need to do it. "I need to go home." I begged the tears to go away and not fall, but of course they did. "Hey Aislyn are you okay, come here sweetie talk to me." Alan called to my suprise I practically threw myself into his embrace, sobing into his shoulder. I looked like a fool with my eyes watering like rain falling from an angry cloud. And yes that metaphor describes me completly. I'm an angry cloud letting water fall out of my eyes like it's nothing. "Shhh your okay. Tell me what's wrong. I'm here." Alan softly whispered. "You-your onl-only here till I-I tell yo-you then you-you'll ru-run." I sobbed. He just rocked us back and forth. "Come on I'll drive you home. Then you can tell me when your ready." We slowly walked outside to Austin's car. Once we were in the car with Austin I told them my andress and pulled out my phone and decided to text Matt and tell him I went home early due to personal issues.
Me: I going home, it's personal
My phone buzzed in my hand a text, probaly from Matt, then another buzz.
Matt: That's right bitch, go home and cut.
I decided to ignore him and looked at the other text.
Cole: I'll be at your house in 30 minutes.
Why is he texting me? I don't care I just want to be home, well at least the hell hole I call home.

Notes

Will she give up and do it or will she stay strong. I'm not the person to tell you what you should or shouldn't do but promise me one thing. Please don't cut to deep. If you need to talk to someone message me and talk to me I'm always listening. Don't give up please. Everyday is an ongoing battle believe me I know I try not to slip up. I know it is right now I'm 21 hours clean.