I look fine but I'm Broken..

I looked a my thigh and ran my fingers over my scars, I've been 2 months clean, Heaven knows how hard it is to not cut but its getting hard not to. I walked over to my bathroom mirror and opened the cabinet and took my pills. I closed the cabinet and looked in the mirror and I don't like the person who looks back. I grab my foundation out of my make up bag and evenly coat my face so you can't see my black eye. I don't know how im gonna hide this busted lip. I grab my eye liner and do a thick wing on each eye and then grab my eye shadow and did a quick smokey eye before applying red lip stick. I curled my hair then voila! http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=130145283 -Knock! Knock! Knock!- "Aislyn! Hurry up we don't have all day and you don't look pretty so I don't know why you try!" Matt yelled towards me. "I'm putting my shoes on!" I screamed back not realising I'm going to get hit. I opened up the door and grabbed my bag. -Slap!- " Don't you dare yell at me you pathetic waste of space no wonder why the only person that likes you is that fag, Tad. The only reason he likes you is because you look like a man. I'm suprised you actually beat that chick, she could definatly take you-" I cried holding my still stinging face. "Your just mad I have someone that actually loves me besides that slut your dating who's secretly fucking the whole entire football team while you sit on the sidelines jerking off because she's to good to let you fuck her-" I whisper so I wont get slapped again. "What was that you little bitch-" He says while holding me against the wall chokeing me "Your'e just a slut who will let anyone fuck you as long as they give you drugs. The at the end of the day you come home and cut you little emo bitch." Just as I'm about to pass out from lack of oxygen he lets go and I slam on the floor refusing to let tears fall because of him. Matt Is my brother and we used to be close until my dad died and I got sexual with his bestfriend. "Now, pick your self up and hurry we have to get to school and I'm not being late because of you." I pull myself off of the floor and look in the floor my cheek is a little red and my throat is also, but other than that I look normal. I got my shoes and bag and walked down the stairs to his truck and climbed in.. Great a day in a new Hell Hole!! -Sarcasm-

Notes

This chapter was kinda hard to write because I kept getting pissed and crying and interrupted..Ugh! The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Face Down