three years later....

dress

dresses for bridesmaids

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As i see all my bridesmaids and Austin's groomsmen pair up, i feel tears drop from my eyes.
Not because i am sad. Well, mostly because my parents and Austin's mom can't make it.

Well, my dad could. But i don't think he would. I think is parole officer will let him if she tags along.

Oh, yes parole officer. My dad has been in jail but got out early on good behavior. Or maybe just because they are running out of room and they needed to let people out.

Ahren gives me a look of ''Are you fucking kidding me'' along with joel, because i asked them to be my bridesmaids and i laugh.

I hear Another You play over the speakers along with my mix of Second And Sebring. I wipe my tears from my eyes and everyone flashed me a smile before walking down the isle.

''Ready Love?" Robert Sr. asked and i nod. I wrap my arm around his and we exit the little room.

I see all of PTV, SWS, BMTH and just like one or two people from SLAVES, Heartist, And The Amity Affliction.

But i keep my eyes on Austin who has the biggest smile ive ever seen. I See also he has tears falling down his face.

Alan reaches over and has a hand on his shoulder, with also the biggest smile on his face.

we reach the end of the isle and his dad leads me up to the alter and gives me a kiss on the cheek. He points to Austin and nods his head, Saying something they both know already.

I take steps up the stairs fast, because i am wearing my black vans. Like my bridesmaids and Austin's groomsmen. Even his dad.

I think it was a required thing.

"Everyone take a seat please.'' Billie Joe Armstrong spoke. Yeah you don't have to be a paster to marry people.

''Okay, now we are all gathered here today for the marriage of Austin Robert Carlile and Annabell Sophia James. Okay now i don't know the rest of this so now i think you have your own vows.'' he said shaking his head and looking up at us.

Literally.

He is 5''7. I am six foot and Austin is six four.

''I really fucking love you.'' Austin and I said in unison. We both laugh and i nod for Austin to go first.
'I love how you whisper when you wake up. I love how you can't stand it when people make fun of us. I love how i can run to you anytime about anything. I love how you make me feel.'' he said.
''I love how your hair always gets in my mouth when we cuddle, and how you stare at me when you think i am sleeping and i love how you trace my tattoos and flick my nose ring. I love you Annabell Sophia James.'' he said and i felt the tears again.

''Austin Robert Carlile, I thought we would never end up together trough out high school. I always thought you would fall for the bunnies and the preps, not someone who was like me. But you did and we did. I probably wouldn't even be alive if it weren't for you that one day. You mean the world and all the stars to me. I love how we can always get through anything and i swear that if we have the same scar...'' i said pulling down my dress in the front to show him where the ink too disappeared.
''It is just down right destiny.'' i said and everyone was crying.

''Okay, we have some tears, bridesmaids are ou guys okay?" Billie asked and they all wiped their eyes and nod.

''Groomsmen?'' Billie asked and they all did the same thing. ''Awww guys.'' i said and alan smiled up at us with red eyes. ''Keep going, don't stop on our account!!" He shouted and we all laughed.

''Okay, now where are the rings?" and Austin's pitbull runs down the isle towards us with them tied to his back.
He runs and jumps on us, licking and nibbling.

I grab the rings and hand Austin mine and Robert grabs the amazing dog.

"OKay, now Austin take this ring and repeat after me. Billie is awesome.'' billie said and Austin said the first word before laughing and saying 'hey!'

"Alright little one, calm down. say, with this ring i be wed.'' billie said and Austin looked at me. He looked into my eyes and let a tear fall.

''With this ring, I be wed.'' he said and i felt my eyes do the same. He slid the ring onto my finger and

'Now, Annabell. With this ring i be wed.'' Billie said softly and i looked into Austin's deep brown orbs and slide the ring on his finger.
''With this ring, i be wed.'' i said and i could feel the tension in the air.

''Austin you may kiss the bride.'' Billie said and Austin put and hand on my back and leaned me back. He attached his lips to mine and i swear it was the most heated kiss ive ever been in.

I hear cheers and whoops and even some sobs.
''I now pronounce you Mr and Mrs. James.' And we are all silent, waiting for him to correct his mistake, holding back laughter.

''OH MY GOLLY GEE i meant Mr. and Mrs. Carlile!!" He said and put his hands to his eyes and rubbed them.

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We are sitting at the reception and everyone is about to give their speeches. Well, it is basically open mic.

''Who is first?" I called out and Ahren and Joel from the amity aflliction step up with three long pages of paper. I met them on warped and went on a world tour with them, and well because Austin's band went too. They are great guys and i bet that those three pages are filled with drunk stories and crazy events.

''erm, hello lovely and loveman.'' Ahren said and we all laugh. ''Sorry, mate this one is for your lady.'' Jeol said and again, we laughed.

''When i first met you, i was at a lost for words for someone to hold as much beauty as you do.'' Ahren said. ''But then we saw you were with Austin and we ran away.'' Joel added.
''We decided it would best to be friends. Best friends.'' Ahren said.
''Soo, we thought you could film us for our video Greens Avenue.'' Joel said.

"When we were asked to be your bridesmaids, we were stoked because we thought we got to wear dresses and heels.'' Ahren laughed.
''well he was, me not so much.'' Joel added.

'' I also want to add a thank you because you had helped me through through my depression and anxiety and i really fucking love you for that. I mean i love you like a sister and yeah... anyway
we wrote a song for you and it's called open letter. We love you and if Austin gives you hell, call us. we will dress up like cats and torture him in his sleep.'' Joel said, grabbing a chair and setting up the Mic stand. The rest of the band joins up.



''This is my open letter,
This is something to remember.
I won't be buried before my time,
I'm not searching for forever,
I've got my eyes opened wide,'' and i felt the tears sting my eyes once again.

''I've been searching under rubble from the past,
Just looking for a reason to make your life last.
No need to look skyward for you to find hope,
No need for redemption to be saved from the rope,'' I knew they knew about my past and they helped me through it. The after math of my father.

''Fuck, no!

Well, I'm not searching the sky for a reason to live
'Cause I found beauty right here and the passion to give,
So let me give you my heart, let me give you my tears,
Let me give you my life, let me give you my fears.'' i started to full out bawl from the lyrics.

''Just so you can hold on and sing while I do, sing these words out so loud,
Like I sing them for you.
This is your open letter, something to remember,
We can still keep on fighting even though life is not forever.'' I looked at Austin who was crying also and he grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

''Well, I'm not searching the sky for a reason to live
'Cause I found beauty right here and the passion to give,
So let me give you my heart, let me give you my tears,
Let me give you my life, let me give you my fears.

This is my open letter, this is something to remember.
This is my open letter, I'm not searching for forever.

Well, I'm not searching the sky for a reason to live
'Cause I found beauty right here and the passion to give,
So let me give you my heart, let me give you my tears,
Let me give you my life, let me give you my fears.

One more time!

I'm not searching the sky for a reason to live
'Cause I found beauty right here and the passion to give,
So let me give you my heart, let me give you my tears,
Let me give you my life, let me give you my fears.'' they finished and i got up, and went to hug them.

''I love you guys, thank you so much.'' i said and kissed them all on the cheek. Austin remained sitting and smiled at us.

''Okay guys, now it's are turn!!" Vic said shooing them away. ''This is the song for you to, get your asses and up and dance.'' he said and Starving For Friends took the stage.

''This is SLAVES.'' Vic said and they played it while i danced with Austin.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he grabbed my waist. ''Hey guess what.'' he whispered in my ear while Vic sang his part. ''What baby?" i replied.

''I can't wait for our honeymoon.'' he said seductivly and i felt my whole spine shiver from his words.

''I can't either.'' i said and smiled at him.

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15 years later.


''Mom?" A little voice said and i open my eyes. I see Sophia crouching beside the couch where i must have fallen asleep doing designer work.
''hey soph, whats up?" i said groggily.

''Have you ever been bullied?" She asked and my head shoots up at the question. ''Yeah, are you getting bullied?" I Asked seriously and she nodded.

''Mom i don't know what to do.'' my 14 year old girl cried in my arms. ''And robbie too.'' she said and my other son stepped in the room with Austin behind him, and a hand on his shoulder. His eyes aren't smiling and happy like they used to be.

I hug her tighter and pick up the tall lanky girl in my arms. unfortunaltly they both have traces of Mar-fan's so they are really tall and lanky.

"No, this stops here guys. we are going into your school and doing something.'' Austin said and then, Alan, Joel, and Ahren barged through the door with smiles that faltered when they saw the scene before.

''OH NO OUR KIDS ARE CRYING WHO DID THIS WE WILL BEAT THEM UP!!" Ahren screamed, causing us to laugh.

Austin mouthed bullied to them and their eyes went wide. ''Okay, now we are going to sit down and talk to our kids and see what is going on.'' joel said and hopped over the couch and took Sophie from me.

''Shhhhhhhh.'' he whispered in her ear and she instantly calmed down. I think there is something going on with her and Joel but if she likes him, i have nothing against it.

''Now kids, tell us what happened yeah?" I asked and Sophia nodded first.

''So there is this girl, Kristin. She keeps taking my clothes in the locker room and soaking them with water. I have to wear my gym clothes home. It started out with the little things like little comments here and there about my appearance. Then she started attacking dad's band and I--'' she said, but was choking up. Joel whispered something in her ear.

She nodded and stood up. ''I am sorry but i know i shouldn't have resorted to it.'' Sophie said and she pulled up the shorts she was wearing and i saw a bunch of little scratches that faded into deeper cuts. I got up and hugged her.

My baby is hurting herself and i can't even notice. ''Baby, it is okay. I went through the same thing you did but we will discuss this as a family okay?'' i said and she looked revealed. She climbed back onto Joel's lap.

He soothed her hair down while she clutched to his shirt.

''She won't leave me alone. i couldn't help it i am so sorry mom and ad. I am a failure.'' she said and i lost it.

''No you aren't. No Don't even fucking believe her because she is a failure. She makes people feel so low that they have to hurt themsleves okay? You are a winner because syou get up out of bed each morning. '' i said and she nodded.

''Now robbie, what's bothering you.'' i said to my son who is clutching onto Austin who is fighting his tears.

''A dude named Danny. He does the same thing but shoves me down and it's worse. So much worse.
'' he said and i have never seen my son cry like this. He was always the strong one.

''Okay, the guys will take care of you while we go out and deal with this okay?" Austin said and handed robbie to Ahren who is crying himself.

''Yeah, i got this.'' alan said in tears and I take the keys and Austin's hand and lead him outside.

Once we get outside we both break down.

I hold onto him and he does the same for me. I cry and Austin picks me up. ''Nothing will hurt this family anymore okay? I will make sure.'' Austin said and he took me to the car and put me in the passenger seat.

As we drive to the school i cling to Austin's hand for life.

We arrive at the school and walk in. ''Hello, how can i help you.'' A very rude office attendant said glaring at us.

''we need to speak to the principle.'' I snapped back and Austin put a hand on my back, trying to calm me down.

''Okay, ill have him right out.'' she said and walked back into the office and brought a man in a nice suit, who looked friendly eneough.

''Oh you are Robbie and Sophia's parents.'' he said and we nodded. "Come on back.'' he said and by now i was fucking fuming.

"I seance tension what has happened?" he asked and i looked at Austin. ''Our children are being bullied and we want something done about it.'' I sapped and Austin looked at me like i am fucking mental. ''Hey calm down.''' he whispered.

''okay by whom?" He asked and Austin spoke their names.

''How has the acts been inflicted?" He said and i took a deep breath.

''Well with Sophie, Kristin would take her clothes in gym and soak them in water. Then it was the snide comments and bringing her down. With Robbie it was the same thing but more physical. he has bruises on his chest and stomach. I want something done or ii am taking my kids out of school.'' i said and he just wrote all of this down.

''You see this is a no bully zone. once we hear something like this going on, i will act instantly. Would you guys mind coming in tomorrow morning around 11:00?" He asked and we shook our heads.

''Okay, ill see you then. thank you for telling me.'' he said and we walked away.

I got a text from alan that said 'went to zoo then movies. Kids are going to stay at our place with the bands. Have some time alone ;)' he said and i showed Austin.

''sweet.'' he said and winked.

Notes

All done. i know this is a shitty ending but sorry guys!!

BY THE WAY IF YOU LISTEN TO HE AMITY AFFLICTION I LOVE EM AND HAHA BUT ID YOU DONT I NEED YOU GUYS TO DO THAT. IT IS LIKE OF MICE AND MEN AND UGH SO GOOD!!