Leaving the cave, going into the unknown

I was swamped at work with a tone of orders for new designs for different bands that had seen the plugs I made for Of Mice & Men, as well as our fall line of jewelry that was coming out soon. I had no time for anyone including myself, my life was wake up go to work come home and sleep.

I felt bad because Alan is constantly texting me to see when I’m free next, he understands thought that I’m busy. We haven’t gotten to see each other since Sunday and it’s now Friday. I’ve never been so happy for it to be the end of the week.

I got up and started my morning routine then headed off to a long day of work. The second I sat down at my desk I got to work, I only had 3 designs left and they were all due at the end of the day. I put on some music and started to draw, I was on fire today so by lunch I only had one left. I took a huge breath and relaxed for a moment before taking out my lunch bag that I realized I had left with all my food on the kitchen counter because I was in too big of a rush to get to work. Realizing that I was going to have to go and get food I grabbed my car keys and headed to the door only to bump into someone and fall back into my chair. I looked up to see Alan holding bags of chipotle with a look of worry as laughter came from his mouth.

“Shit sorry, I thought I’d surprise you with lunch cause you’ve had such a busy week.” He was really into to surprises I was starting to learn

“Alan! Thanks I forgot my lunch today too. Come and sit down. Sorry I haven’t had anytime this week to hang out I’m just, well let’s just say I’m at my wits end. Don’t get my wrong I love my job and I love that more people are interested in my designs but I am so tired.” I said as I put my head in my hands before looking at Alan and all the food he brought.

“Well take a break and eat something.” He handed me a bag and I dove in, I skipped breakfast because I had over slept slightly. I finished my burrito and looked up to see Alan wasn’t even halfway done.

“Sorry you had to see that I was just so hungry.” I say while putting my head down. It mustn’t have been a nice site to see me scarf down that burrito.

“No problem. I think you forget that I usually live in a tiny bus with like 8 guys. Trust me I’ve seen a lot worse.” That was something Alan was great at. He always made me feel like every flaw I had was no big deal.

“Well as much as I loved this little lunch date and I really appreciate you bringing me food, I really want to get back to work. I only have one more design and it’s not that complicated cause I saved the easiest for last, then I get to go home.”

“No problem I get it, what time do you think you’ll be home?” It was a pretty strange question but if I had learned anything from the short time I have known Alan it’s that if he asks you a question eventually he’ll convince you to give him an answer so I just gave up and told him I’d probably be home at 3. He nodded to that, gave me a kiss on the cheek and ran out the door before I could say anything. I wasn’t going to worry about it; I had far too much work to do.
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True to my word I arrived home at 3 and dragged myself into the house. I was than greeted by Alan, who handed me a rather large glass of wine and before I could speak he dragged me into the dinning room where I saw a steak was waiting for me. He held my chair for me than sat down at his own next to me. I didn’t even speak I just smiled and started to eat, I think Alan understood my appreciation because he just started to eat as well. He got that I was far too tired to speak right now, so I ate my steak and drank my wine in piece with him beside me.

After we had finished I looked at him and got up to put the dishes in the sink. I put them in the dishwasher and just rested my hands on the counter for a second. I felt two arms wrap around my waste and pull me in, I fell back onto the warm chest and we just stood there while he would occasionally plant kisses on my head and shoulders. I’ve never felt so safe and relaxed before with another person, it was weird and strange and a part of me felt like I was moving to fast emotionally with him. All these thoughts raced through my brain but I didn’t care, I wanted Alan emotionally and physically, I wanted it all. Soon I felt my eyes close from exhaustion and Alan pick me up so I tucked my head into his neck. We started to move and I soon felt myself being placed down on a bed. I looked at him hovering over me so I smiled and kissed him lightly.

“If I’m gonna go to bed I really need to get changed.” I said in a whisper because I was even too tired to have a real reply.

“I could help with that.” He wiggled his eyebrows and did his infamous smirk.

“Actually could you? I don’t think I could even get up.” He seemed taken back by this, he knew that it wasn’t sexual but I’ve always just laughed off his even slightly sexual jokes.

“Ya I could do that where are your pj’s?”

“In the second draw. Just grab a big shirt I’ll sleep in one of those.” Alan walked over to my dresser and grabbed the shirt that he had given me the night of the concert. It was rather large so I decided to use it as a nightshirt. I should have known he would pick that one.

He started with my shirt and pulled it up slowly as to not startle me, and I presume to savor the moment for him as well. He removed my shirt and just stared down at me in a way no guy has even looked at me before. It’s like he was trying to memorize ever mark and curve of my body. I wasn’t skinny by any sense but I felt comfortable with him that he wouldn’t judge or laugh at me due to my curves, I definitely didn’t expect this reaction from him or anyone from that matter. He looked at me like I was perfect in every way and there were no flaws on my body what so ever. Looking at all my tattoos he traced a couple that were on my chest and the one on my ribs. He looked into my eyes with a slight smile and put the nightshirt on me. Than under my shirt he removed my bra, I was surprised I thought he’d totally strip me down but he respected my privacy and helped me do everything under my shirt.

Next he lifted up my shirt slightly so he could undo my pants. He slowly started to pull them down to reveal my rather lacy underwear that I had to wear with those pants so there would be no panty lines. He put them on the ground and pulled down my shirt, than prepared the bed by turning it down. I was picked up again and placed down under the covers, than tucked in. He kissed my head, smiled and turned to leave, but I didn’t want him to leave. I wanted his smell in my nose until I fell asleep and to see his beautiful eyes when I woke up.

“Wait.” I breathed out. “Stay?” His head snapped back and he started to undress. I just watched him as he stripped slowly, this time for my benefit. He removed his shirt to show off all of his beautiful body art, I could imagine lying on him and tracing all of the artwork.

“I usually sleep in my boxers is that ok?”

“Ya, I sleep in my underwear why shouldn’t you.” I said with a smirk and to that he blushed and took off his jeans. He was now just in his boxers and I mentally thought he should always be in that attire. He was hot and cute all at the same time and I wanted him but I was far too tired for anything right now.

He climbed into bed and pulled me into his arms so I rested my head on his chest. He was warm and cozy and I never wanted to leave, I could stay here forever and be happy. He kissed my head and rubbed my back as I felt myself slowly start to fall asleep until I heard him say.

“One day Alex I’m going to make love to you so gently and deeply that you’ll never forget that moment until you die. You’re so beautiful and I wish you could let everyone see your beauty and all that you offer the world. I’m falling in love with you Alex Case.”

I smiled and fell asleep to the thought of how crazy that sounded from someone that I had only met 2 weeks ago but than again, stranger things had happened.

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