Leaving the cave, going into the unknown

When I woke up the next morning I tried to sit up but slammed my head on the top of the bunk, I defiantly wasn’t used to sleeping in such a small space. I held my head and moaned out in pain, which woke up Alan beside me. He wrapped his arms tightly around me and looked at me to see what all the moving around was about.

“Did you hit your head?” He giggled.

“Maybe.” I said embarrassed while I curled myself further into him, trying to hide from what I had just done.

“Awww sorry, happens to the best of us. At least you didn’t fall out, I did that the first time I slept in a bunk. Did you sleep well though despite everything that happened last night?” Oh yes last night, I had momentarily forgotten all the bad shit that had happened last night.

“I think I slept better so I could delay facing the situation. Can we just stay in here forever?” I looked up to see him looking down at me.

“I’m afraid that we can’t Alex, as much as I want to I have a job to do. I also want to show you around when we get to our next destination, were going to San Diego.” He kissed my head then climbed over me to get out, I followed. It was time for me to get out of this bunk and face the world, plus I really really had to pee. But the second I got out of my bunk I regretted it, because sitting in the lounge was none other than Kate with tears in her eyes. It felt like my heart had stopped, the entire band was in the front lounge including Alan who was looking white as a ghost.

“Hi Alex. Look I’m...” She started to talk but I couldn’t listen.

“No Kate. I don’t want to hear you’re sorry, what you did was unforgivable. You’re my best friend, the person who’s been there for me and I thought you wanted me to be happy. You’ve seen me at my worst and when I got with Alan you saw how better it was making me and how happy I was. I know you were drunk but it was still unforgiveable, I don’t even know what to do anymore I don’t think I can trust you right now.” I said my piece than ran into the bathroom, I locked the door and slumped to the floor. I started to cry; I had just lost my best friend, my rock and the person I had turned to for everything. There was a knock on the door but I didn’t answer it.

“Alex? It’s me Alan can I come in please?” I moved away from the door and let him in; he looked down at me and joined me on the floor. He took me in his arms and just held me; I felt all my worries wash away.

“I know what she did was inexcusable but Kate isn’t just your best friend, she’s your sister. Maybe not biologically but she’s been more of a family member to you. I think in time you guys could get your friendship back but taking a break wouldn’t hurt. You’re here for a week with me and if you want to you can live in my house until I get back so you can have some space. Sound like a plan?” I nodded and got up to tell Kate what was going to happen. She was still sat on the couch when I went out there; the guys weren’t comforting her they didn’t really know what to do in this situation.

“I’m going to stay on tour and when I go home in a week I’m going to stay at Alan’s for a bit. When he’s back we will re evaluate our friendship. Fair?” I didn’t really care if it was fair or not but if she wanted to continue being my friend then this was what is going to happen.

“Ok Alex, whatever you want.” She didn’t try to hug me she just left. I felt better but there was still a lump in my throat.

“Alright now Alex what do you say I kick your but in COD?” Tino said out of nowhere. I just smiled and nodded, I know he was trying to take the awkwardness away and I appreciated that. For the rest of the morning we played video games while we drove to our next stop, it still hurt but I was healing. I just hope we can get over this.

We arrived at the venue and the boys had to go to sound check right away but I wanted to stay in the bus to get ready. After they left I went and had a quick shower and did my hair and makeup. I put on my Of Mice & Men shirt and some shorts, I thought I looked nice I wouldn’t wear one of their shirts every night but it was on top of the clothes pile. I grabbed my phone and left the bus. The lineup was already around the building, fans young and old were lined up waiting to get in to see them play it was crazy. I was craving a Starbucks so I decided to walk around for a bit, I hid my pass and started my walk. I love to walk I could walk forever. I found a Starbucks eventually and ordered my Frappuccino, I saw that there were some Of Mice fans there as well and they were whispering and giggling to themselves. I didn’t’ really think anything of it until I was waiting for my drink and one of them came over to me.

“Hi, I’m sorry to bug you but are you Alex Case?” She said, she was slightly shorter than me and had brown hair and big brown eyes with an Of Mice shirt.

“Yes I am. Do I know you?”

“No but you’re Alan’s girlfriend right?” I’ve never had a fan interaction before but so far so good. I nodded at her question.

“That’s so cool. Could you do me a favor and give this letter to him?” She brought out an envelope with the bands name on it. I smiled at her and nodded, I took the letter and she smiled at me.

“Thank you thank you. Have a great day ok!” She said as she walked back to her friends.

“Have a good time at the concert. Oh I didn’t get your name.”

“It’s Cassy.” She said

“Have a great day Cassy! I’ll make sure he gets it.” I walked out of the Starbucks and started back to the venue. I felt like I was on a high the rest of the way knowing that I made that girl happy, it was such a small act but it meant the world to her. My day went from bad to better in only a couple of minutes.

Notes

Hey i'm back after my couple days off
Played a show last night and met some travelours as i played at a youth hosital from Austrailla. One of my songs that is super quiet is usually lost with people talking but no one talked they just sat and listened and it was super special and an amazing feeling.
I also found out in this time that my best guy friend has a crush on me but i don't like him that way so it's been a really tough couple of days so that's why this chapter is kinda about possible losing a really good friend.
However i did start therepy for my Generalized Anxiety Disorder and it's going great!
And i have a group interview i don't think i'm going to get it but i've never had one before but it'll be a great experience
Hoping everything will come up my way soon and i can find a cute boy to chill with!
Have a great weekend