Backseat Serenade

The kick off BBQ was in full swing. People were drinking and talking, even the little group that formed around me which included the guys of Of Mice & Men, Pierce the Veil, Oli Sykes and my whole band.

“So once Aaron went into a port-a-potty and this dude comes around with a forklift and picks it up. I of course don’t say anything and just stand there laughing.” Austin said animatedly and everyone laughs, except for Aaron of course.

“Last time I decide to go into a port-a-potty around that asshole.” Aaron grumbled and took a sip from his drink.

“Speaking of port-a-potty experiences…” Jackson chimed in and I knew what he was going to talk about especially since he grinned at me. “We were at a party and they had the port-a-potty near a ditch. Anyways Riley gets absolutely trashed and wanders into it. Well while she’s in there Harlem and I turn it so it’s facing the ditch. She comes out yelling and swearing at us for moving it while she was in there and ends up falling into the ditch.” Of course everyone laughs at that.

“Once when Tony was drunk he put on a ski mask and went into a liquor store to buy more booze. I thought he was going to be arrested for sure.” Vic responded.

“I took Jackson to a bar one night and ended up losing him somehow because he was trashed. I find him a couple hours later passed out on top of someone’s car. He had been kicked out of the bar because he decided to sleep on the bar.” I chimed in. “He’s a nightmare to deal with when drunk. He’s literally like a toddler.”

“On one of my birthday’s I went to a frat house with Riley to celebrate.” Sierra started and I clearly remembered this story. “And I was messing around while going down the stairs, slipped and slid down a whole set of stairs. One of the most embarrassing moments of my life. Her boyfriend at the time didn’t help the cause really because he yelled ‘are you still alive’ causing everyone to look at me.”

“You laughed it off.” I added, “And the sad part is you weren’t even that drunk.”

“Yeah but it sure hurt like hell the next day. I had the biggest brush burn on my arm and the biggest bruise on my ass.”

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“I’m-I’m already gone, I’m already something to someone that I don’t know, When Will I know, I will make my rounds on every side of town, That I’ve been through, That I know, To find a reason to come back home.” I sang softly as I looked up at the sky.I stepped away from the party for a bit of a break. Too many people, too loud and I was too drunk to deal with it. “With everything that sets me back, I push back harder to clear the way, There’s not a thing that I regret, Can’t live my life in yesterday…life in yesterday.” I look back at the party and see Austin watching me. I look down at the ground and blush a bit.

“Is that one of your songs?” Austin asks taking a few steps towards me.

I shook my head, “No it’s a song by A Day to Remember called I’m Already Gone.”

Austin smiled at me causing it to feel like there were butterflies in my stomach and my heart to speed up. “Want to go to the bus?”

I took a deep breath trying to slow down my heart rate. “Sure.” I answered in a small voice. Why the hell was I reacting this way? He’s just a guy. A very hot guy that was interested in me. And it wasn’t like he just wanted me for sex; he sounded like he actually wanted a relationship.

“So what would you like to do when we get on the bus? Watch a movie, play games…” Austin asked breaking me out of my thoughts.

“Talk.I want to talk.” I responded. “I believe it’s time for me to be famous, And out of place, I believe it’s time for me to move forward…” I sang softly and Austin looked amused. “You wrote that song for someone specific. Who?”

Austin’s smile fell a bit. “You can Google that answer.”

“Google isn’t always reliable. I’d rather hear what you have to say about it.” I replied.

“It’s for my mom.” He said rubbing one of the tattoos on his arm. “She died when I was seventeen.”

“I would ask you how but it seems that you don’t really want to talk about it at the moment.” I responded.

He shook his head, “Not really but I will anyways. She had Marfan’s.It’s a genetic thing, I also have it. It affects the connective tissue in your body it causes your limbs to be disproportional and it even affects the connective tissue involved with your heart. She had an aortic aneurism.” That’s horrible and he had it also? What does that mean for the future?

“You’re not going to die on me are you?” I asked lightly even though I was nervous to hear his answer.

Austin shook his head. “I don’t think so. I pretty much have it under control. As long as I don’t drink too much, do drugs or overdo it I should be fine.” Should be? I was going to have to do some research when I wasn’t around him. “We didn’t know my mom had it so at least I know.”

“So according to your sister you had a boyfriend who was in a fraternity?” Austin said questioningly. “I don’t see you as a girl that goes after a frat boy.”

I shrugged my shoulders, “We were high school sweet hearts. He cheated on me and he’s dead now.” I answered brusquely.

“Dead now?” Austin looked surprised like I was responsible for it.

I sighed and brushed my hair back from my face. “It kind of sounded like I killed him for cheating on me, eh.” I said with a smirk. “I didn’t kill him. He cheated on me with this stupid sorority girl, so stereotypical. Anyways after a heavy night of drinking they went to bed. He choked on his own vomit and the dumb bitch did nothing to help him. Talk about karma.”

Austin looked at me and then looked at the ground. “Your sister made it sound like he was one of many.” Austin noted.

“Jealous, huh?” I replied.

“I don’t get jealous.” Austin answered.

“Nope, there’s only really been him. Except for maybe some boys before him but those aren’t exactly real boyfriends. How about you? Any girlfriends…boyfriends?” I joked. “Because I’ve heard about the whole Cashby situation.”

“Nothing’s happened between me and Ashby.” Austin said with a chuckle. “I had a wife, she cheated on me, and we got divorced. Then numerous girlfriends none that really matter. They went out with me and then found the ‘loves of their lives’. I kind of feel like my life is that one Dane Cook movie ‘Good Luck Chuck’.”

“So you’re telling me that if I go out with you, I’ll find my one true love.” I said with a smirk.

“With the way my luck has been, yes.” Austin answered.

“Do I have to sleep with you for it to work? Or will it work without all the messy stuff?” I joked with him.

Austin grinned, “The messy stuff is what makes it fun.”

We were at the bus now and he opened the door for me. The bus was nice, a little messy at the moment but that was to be expected with all the guys on it. What really caught my eye was a poster of Justin Beiber that was hanging on one of the cupboards.

“One of your future husbands I assume.” I said pointing out the poster.

“It’s an inside joke.” Austin answered, tearing it down from the cupboard.

“Oh, I see.” I glanced around.

“You know we’ve only really been speaking about the past.” Austin noted leaning against the counter of their small kitchen.

“And?” I faced him, crossing my arms across my chest. “The past makes up who you are.”

“And the future is who you want to be.” Austin responded.

“That’s deep.” I smirked and sat down on a couch across from where he was standing. “What do you want to know Mr. Carlile?”

“Where do you see yourself in ten years?”

He couldn’t actually be serious.I barely knew what I was doing in a day let alone ten years. “I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I don’t think that far into the future, I’d rather be in the now. I don’t know what I’m doing tomorrow let alone that far into the future.”

“That doesn’t really answer the question.” He looked a bit frustrated like that wasn’t the answer he was expecting.

“It doesn’t answer the question in the way you want it answered.” I replied. “I don’t know if I’m going to be touring with the band. I don’t even know if we’ll make it. We’re just starting out.I don’t know if I’ll be married, have kids, a normal life. I’m not even sure I want to settle for a normal life.”

“How many kids do you want?” He asked and it kind of sounded like this was some sort of test. Like if I didn’t say the right number he would lose interest in me or something.

“Two and I want boys. I want to name them Caine and Abel because it’s one of my favorite stories in the bible.” I responded.

“Didn’t Caine kill Abel because he was jealous or something?” Austin asked not looking very amused.

I nodded, “Yes. It shows how dark the bible can be.”

“You would really name your kids Caine and Abel?”

I nodded slower this time. “Yes I would really name my kids Caine and Abel.”

“I pity the guy who procreates with you.” Austin shook his head and smirked.

“What if that guy is you? You’re the one saying that I’ll fall in love with you by the end of Warped Tour. What if you’re my future? My ten years?” I replied.

“We sure as hell wouldn’t make both Caine and Abel first names. One would have to be a middle name or something. I would want many kids, not just two, and some dogs. We’ll have a nice house also.” He responded.

“Seems like you have our whole future planned out there. Can I at least plan the wedding?” I joked.

Austin shrugged and sat down next to me. “As long as it’s not too big. You’re already talking about a wedding. Do you think that you will actually fall for me?”

I shook my head, “Not a chance, just entertaining the idea.”

“Would you entertain the idea of having sex with me?” He asked taking me by surprise. How extremely forward!

“That was very forward.” I noted out loud.

“I’m not asking you to have sex with me now. I’m asking if you would even think of sex in the future.” He stated.

“I guess.” I replied not knowing where he was going with this whole line of thought.

“Then how come you don’t think that you could love me?” He questioned.

“Because I’m a heartless bitch.” I replied simply.

“I don’t believe it.” Austin shrugged.

The bus door opened up and the rest of Austin’s band started climbing up the stairs or at least tried to.

“Who’s this?” Alan asked squinting at me as he nearly tripped over the top step. “Riley is that you?! I have to tell you you’re sister is pretty awesome. Don’t worry she’s not here we made sure she made it on her bus. She’s really awesome.” He gushed.

“I should be going.” I answered standing up.

“Why not stay with me for the night? No sex, just sleep.” Austin said getting up. I could feel his bandmates eyes on us.

“What is she going to say?” Tino whispered but I just ignored it.

“You haven’t even kissed me yet and you want me to sleep with you?” I asked.

“Do you want me to kiss you?” Austin smirked.

“Not particularly. I just met you a couple of days ago.” I responded standing my ground.I just met him and he already wants me to sleep in the same bed as him. That’s just too fast for my liking.

“How am I supposed to make you fall for me if you’re unwilling to cooperate?” He asked looking slightly annoyed that I wasn’t exactly doing as he wanted. I’m guessing that most girls just did as he wanted with no other word.

“With patience and luck.” I said as I started to back away from him. “So, hopefully I'm going to see you tomorrow?”

Austin nodded, “Yep see you tomorrow.”

I walked off of the bus and toward my own bus. I was proud of myself; I didn’t fall for his charm and I was going to be spending the night in my bed rather than his.

Notes

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