Another You

I step back a little, to the edge of the bed. I didn't mean to let that slip. We had a photo shoot, lunch, a party, sex and now secrets are spilling out.

All because I wasn't clear.

"I'm sorry." I said and I got up, ignoring the pain in my stomach, grabbing or looking for a shirt. "Here." Austin spoke kindly and picked up, handing me his shirt.
"Thanks." I whispered and walked out the door into the hallway. "Talk to me please." He sincerely said. It made my heart flutter when he talked with that tone. So demanding yet so not.
"I've never told anyone okay? I'm sorry." I said and walked into my room.
"I know, it's never easy to admit, that you've faltered and fallen, that you can't do this on your own." He coaxed me, using one of my favorite songs.

R.I.P Foghorn by the Amity Affliction.

I had a little smile, barely showing.

"Not fair." I said and he smiled. "It's your ringtone, but baby. Please talk to me." He pleaded and I took his hand, leading him to the bedroom.

I felt let butterflies swarming and my stomach flipped when he called me baby.
"I was 12." I said sadly and sat on the bed. It was sinking in my weight. Making me feel a little, insecure.

"It was my first full week in a hospital. My eating disorder had gotten really bad, and I couldn't take care of my self and neither could my family." I said and he got comfortable, seeing as this was kind of a long story.
"it was a couple of months before my parents died, a month after my birthday. One hell of a birthday present huh?" I laughed a little bit. He smiled a tad, but encouraged me to go forth.

"Dr.Fray. That was his name. He called me in for therapy my second day, and we talked." I said. I took a deep breath. "He was taking notes and I was talking about my body. How I disliked it, how I hated every little hair. I noticed he was shifting a little bit, looking at my body. He ended up sitting across from me and pushing my shirt off my shoulders. Then he started..." I started but I looked down at my hands, just like back then.
"you can stop." He said and he pulled me close. I just breathed heavily into his shoulder. "I'm sorry for pushing you to talk. It wasn't fair of me besides being curious and I wanted to help you." He said and I nodded. I just breathed heavily more and more, a few tears escaped.
"I-i" I started to say but nothing but hiccups and chokes came out.

"shhh." He said and picked me up, carrying me towards the bathroom. He sat me on the toilet, starting the tub water up. After turning the knobs hot and cold to the right, running the water.

My heart was hurting and so was my body. My head, my stomach, my chest.

Everything was in pain, but not a lot. Just the combo of everything made it worst.

Austin checked the temperature and made sure it was warm enough, and cold enough. As he agreed with himself that it was okay, walking over to me. He reached at the top of my.. His shirt.. and paused before touching me entirely.
He locks eyes with me, asking for permission. I nod and wipe my eyes, slowly, my arms kind of sore, as he un buttons the black little pebbles on his shirt and slides it off my shoulders, giving me pecks on them.
He picks me up after stripping me baby style and puts me in the tub, stripping down himself.

He's getting in with me.

but he leaves his boxers on.

I let a sly smile find its way on my lips.

He respects me.

He he turns off the water at right height and puts some bubbles in it. I smile and laugh a little splashing around a bit.
Austin smiles as he watches me. He puts a washrag in the water and scrubs the crusty blood off my thighs after having me sit back.

he scrubs my arms after my legs, getting a couple of moans for me. "You didn't have to do this." I said and he laughed, striping from his boxers and hopping in.

"I wanted too." He spoke and I hope he realized he jumped in blood and bubbled water. "Turn around." He said and I spin around, getting in between his legs. His hands cover my shoulders and across my chest, pulling me close, making me feel warm.

He kisses my temple and just holds me. "We have to shower after this." I spoke softly and he giggled a little bit. He bit my earlobe and I felt his hot breath on my skin.
"Or we can sleep or do a little something more if you feel like it." I said and he rang his fingers through my hair, soothing my frantic.
"sure." I said and I felt excited.. Nights like last night are the ones I want to have more often. And with Austin I'll get as many as I can.

He's loving, he's caring. He Has a great personality. He takes care of me when I can't even function and he keeps me going.

even before I met him.

"Are you positive?" He asked, concerned how my well being is. It made my heart flutter.

I turned around and kissed his lips, seducing him. I Put my hand on his jaw line and pulled him closer, biting his lip.

"Okay babe." He said and started moving his hand down to my lower regions. he rubs my clit a little bit and the slips his finger in, making me moan in fits on pleasure. He kisses my lips, making a smirk upon his own.

he picks me up and carries me to the shower. "Why not both?" he questions with a stupid quirky grin in his face and I reach down and start to pump him, getting him more than halfway hard. He groans at the contact and set me down and starts the shower, leaving us to huddle for a quick second for warmth that the freezing water didn't. But once it started heating up, so did Austin.

He pushed me against the wall and for today, I gave him my dominance for the bedroom.

It was his turn.



And he proved it to me that day.

That what we had was real, that I wasn't some, success one night stand that he probably didn't want anyway. That Austin cared about everyone and was there.


That was also the day that I had realized, a week into our relationship that hadn't been developed a lot, I fell in love with Austin Carlile

Notes

Long? Or nah???