For What It's Worth..

It’s been about a week since I moved into Chris’ spare bedroom. I kept insisting that I shouldn't stay any longer than necessary. Chris just kept saying he didn't mind at all, to quote “Stay as long you like.” He even got me a key.

I looked at the spare key he gave me. I was sitting on the couch, wearing my old baggy Metallica shirt and a pair of mens swim shorts. What I wasn't counting on in Scranton, was that it was actually pretty hot here in the summer. I haven’t talked to my family and friends in a while. I should call them or Skype them later.

Still looking at the key, a certain reality sank in. I was in Chris Motionless’ house. I never thought in a million years I would be even able to meet Chris Motionless, him being one of the people I admire, for being unapologetically himself. The key reflected a stream of light coming from the window at the front of the house. Making the flames on it more realistic. “Huh.” I muttered out loud.

“What?” Balz was sitting on the computer in the corner of the living room.

“Boobs.” Too say we haven’t been getting to know each other since moving in here, was an understatement. Balz nodded. “Boobs.” and went back to typing.

The first day or so living here was actually pretty awkward.The guys had been used to living together for a long time, but with the way they acted around me they made sure to stay out of my way at times, told me they were just trying to give me some space. I didn't mind, it was better at first, we were testing each other out in secret on how we were going to live with each other for awhile.The first night we spent together was a train-wreck, because with all the good intention Chris had in letting me and his friends stay here, he forgot momentarily that they were just getting back from a long tour; ultimately realizing that we had no food in the fridge. Scratch that, they had no ‘salvageable’ food. And not enough money to buy everyone at the house food.

I asked if they would mind takeout for the night, and I could buy some groceries tomorrow.They agreed with some hesitation.


I laughed at the memory. That’s where Chris and Ricky were; getting some groceries with the money they've been waiting for most of the week from the sales of their merch. “I’m going to go chill outside for awhile. Yell if you need anything.” I looked over at Balz, who saluted to tell me he heard me.

I went out to the kitchen, out through the sliding back door and settled in the oval shaped lawn chair. I inhaled the wonderful smell of summer. This place is amazing. I've been thinking and saying that since I got here. But I already knew the big part of the reason why it’s so amazing was that Chris was letting me crash at his place. That and it was nice to have a roommate of sorts.

I started to nod off to sleep, and before I knew it I started to dream.

I was in an unfamiliar room, laying in an unfamiliar bed. I looked over and saw an almost completely naked Chris. He smiled at me, I could feel heat from my face all the way to my core. He was absolutely beautiful, his upper body was completely covered in tattoos. I never saw someone so completely gorgeous before.

My eyes looked down and I saw that I had my black lace bra on and underwear to match. Before even realizing I had no control, I was standing up and walking towards him. I pushed his hair out of his face, reached behind his neck and pulled him in for a kiss. Closing my eyes, I melded our lips together, he reached behind me and unclasped my bra. I let my arms dangle for a few seconds letting it fall to the floor. Our kisses becoming more passionate, our tongues melting against each-other; I traced my hand down his chest to his boxers, feeling his hardened member against my palm, gripping it lightly. He groaned softly, pushing himself closer, telling me to grip harder.

He moved away from my lips, and started down my cheek towards the spot where my neck and shoulder met and started sucking on it. My sweet spot. I couldn't stop the moan that escaped my lips. I could feel his jewelry on his lips, somewhat cool on my skin only seemed to increase the vibrating sensation I felt when he started biting there. Knowing somehow that he was going to leave a lovebite there. I felt a rush of heat rush through my abdomen, knowing I was extremely wet with need.

“I want you,” I whispered into his ear “Right now.” kissing his ear lightly. He kissed his way down further, catching my hardened nipple in his mouth, moving his tongue around it making me shiver with lust; I gasped loudly, gripping his head I pulled him closer. I felt his hands come around my waist and grabbed my ass, picking me up in one swift motion. Our bodies pressed together, he carried me back over to the bed.

He gently laid me down, moving his mouth over to my other breast and sucked on it hungrily. I moved my hands to lay my sides, gripping the silk sheets under me. I felt Chris’ hand on my waist, and felt it trail along my stomach, and under my panties, he took two fingers, opening my wet folds and rubbing up to my clit and down again. I was becoming wetter by the second. I could feel my heart pounding, and I thought I would scream if he didn't stop tormenting me.

When he continued his onslaught, he took me by surprise by slipping his two fingers inside me; causing me to buck my hips up violently and my inner walls clench around his fingers. I hissed a breath out between clenched teeth, I let out a loud moan. I looked down at him, seeing him smile evilly. He pushed my legs apart so he could tower over me putting his left hand on the bed beside me for balance.

He took his fingers out and slide them up towards my clit,and played with it. He moved down to my face and captured my lips in a steamy kiss. I could feel him move slightly on top of me. His finger slipped out of underwear and moved to the outside, where he pulled them to one side. I could feel his hardened cock near my entrance, tempting me, tormenting me. I opened my mouth and whined. He cock slid up and down my wet cunt, teasing me. He watched my every move, watched how he made me get turned on by everything he did. He stopped and started to push himself into me; but then the dream suddenly changed.

I was in a whole other scene. I had clothes on, and all off a sudden I felt an immense pain in my shoulder. I looked over to my left and saw a knife sticking out. I felt my heart catch in my throat, my breath coming out in short gasps. Someone came over and pulled the knife out, I looked up, but it was too dark to see anything. Then I felt more pain, as the knife came down again, and slid over my arm. It caught itself in my muscle, and that triggered my body to tense up around the blade. Causing a really uncomfortable cool metal feeling in my arm, as it was ripped out again. I clenched my teeth, trying to block the pain away. I could hear the blade swish as it came down again,-

I woke up, gasping for air I thought I could never get enough of. I grabbed my arms and shoulder where the knife had been, still feeling the after effects.

“Hey, are you alright? You were shaking a lot.” Ricky was leaning over me. His hand reached for my forehead. “You're sweating a lot too. Did you have a bad dream?”

“A goddamn nightmare.” I breathed out, calming myself down. I heard the back door open, and recognized Chris’ footfalls. “There you are, I was wondering where you went.”

“I told Josh I was going to be outside.” I looked up at him. “Oh, he was past out on the Lazyboy.” I shook my head. Figures.

“She was kind of asleep to.” Ricky pointed out. I rubbed my arm where the dream blade had cut. “She had a nightmare.” He continued. Chris narrowed his eyes. “Are you okay?” He kneeled down beside me, he took my hand. It was warm. “Your hand is freezing.” he put his other hand on it and rubbed it.

I raised my eyebrow. “Seriously? Even though it’s so warm out today.” I mused. “That must have been one of hell of a nightmare to give you cold sweats.”

“I’m fine.” I pulled my hand out of Chris’ hands. “Really.” I tried to smile reassuringly. “If you say so.” One side of his mouth turned down in a half frown. “Anyway, we’re ordering pizza, wings and mozza sticks. Since Ricky and Josh are leaving tomorrow morning. Finally.” He stood up and nudged Ricky, grinning from ear to ear, obviously joking around with his friend. Ricky laughed. “Yeah, sorry about the delay man.”

“No problem, it was pretty fun this past week.”

“Alright, Jen are you going to stay after we eat. Ryan and Ghost and Ghosts girlfriend are coming over after for drinks, and some wings.” Chris looked at me expectantly. I shrugged. “Maybe.”

“Just maybe?” I nodded. Just then I heard my phone coming from my room. Motionless in White’s America Celldweller remix. Loud and obnoxiously enough for everyone to hear outside. I didn't even glance at the guys, cause they knew exactly what was probably going through my head. And I knew what was going to come out of there mouths, if I didn't start walking to my room.

“I better go answer that.” I could hear them holding back laughter. I quickly power walked into the kitchen and back into the living room towards the back; I opened the door to my room, grabbed and answered my phone.

“Hello?”

“Hey foo.” It was my sister, what timing. “Hey sis, what’s up?” I walked back out too the living room.

“I haven’t heard from you in awhile, I was wondering what you were up to.” I paused my step, looking at Balz, who had indeed fell asleep on the Lazyboy. Opportunity was smiling upon me. I bent over him, taking my four fingers and jabbed him hard in the side.

I turned around quickly, while he yelped and fell out of the chair. “I’m doing pretty good, I’m in Scranton now. How’s Kyle?” “He’s good, so what are you up to in Scranton.”

I mosied into the kitchen, and saw the guys putting away their groceries. “Do you guys have any cold drinks in the fridge?” Chris pointed to the bag on the counter. “I got you a Full Throttle.”

“Aw, you didn't have to.” He smirked at me. I grabbed the can and walked out too the front step, noticing that it was almost sunset. A beautiful array of pinks, purples and oranges spread across the sky like a beautiful water painting.

“Who was that?” My sister asked. Ricky appeared beside me, mouthing ‘Who's that?’

I mouthed back. ‘My sister.’ He nodded. I answered Anna, “That was Chris.” “Chris Motionless.”

“Why does that sound familiar.” She sounded suspicious. I replied. “Motionless in White.” She started screaming and babbling at the phone. I held it away from ear until she was done. “I don’t believe it.”

“Believe it.” She started rambling on and on again. By then Chris had joined me and Ricky on the step. I opened my drink and took a long swig, letting the taste of caffeine tingle my tongue. I turned too Chris. “Remind me not to have any alcohol directly after I finish this.” He nodded. One thing I wasn't going to do was fuck up my insides.

“Prove it.”

“How am I going to do that?” “Go on video chat, I have something to show you anyway.”

“Alright, I’ll let you go until then.” She hung up. I sighed getting up. “What was that about?” “That would my sister, would you guys mind coming on Skype with me too prove I’m not lying that you are who I say you are.”

Chris shrugged, Ricky got up and joined me too the living room. I went and dug through my bag for my laptop. Faintly I heard Balz questioning him if he was the one jabbed him in the side. I snorted, slapping my hand over my mouth I walked back into the living room and sat on the couch beside Ricky.

I quickly signed onto Skype, and two seconds later my sister was calling me. Answering, I saw her and Kyle sitting at their computer at home.

“So, you were going to prove something to me?” She crossed her arms. Ricky leaned in and waved. “Hey.”

“Who's that?” She raised her eyebrow.

“I’m disappointed in you.” I clicked my tongue. “This is Ricky, the lead guitarist in Motionless in White. Look it up, you twit.”

“Is this enough proof for you? Because I don’t want to drag Chris here if he doesn't want to. Ricky is one of his best friends.”

“Okay, okay.” She giggled lightly. “Anyway, you were going to show me something?” I raised an eyebrow.

“Yep. Nova come here sweetie.” My heart stopped for a second. “Vee’s there?” I saw Nova’s face pop up on the screen. I smiled so hard my cheeks hurt, my heart felt like it was being choked off.

“Hey, Vee. I missed you so much.”

“Hi, Auntie Jen.” I couldn't stop smiling, I felt tears threatening my eyes.

“Are you living with Mommy now?” I asked.
She smiled a toothy smile, and nodded. I put my hand up too my mouth, to stop the sobs of happiness from coming. “Oh my god, Anna. You won?”

“Yep, I got full custody of her.” She was laughing happily at my tears that escaped. “ Anyways, I’ll call you later okay. We got to eat some supper. I thought you should be the first to know besides Kyle.” I smiled, feeling the tears slip down my cheek. “Alright, talk to you later. Bye.”

“Bye bye auntie.” Nova waved at the camera. “Bye sweetie.” I closed the laptop, and put my hands in my face, trying to compose myself. I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders. Balz had come over and was trying to comfort me. He pulled me over into a hug, rubbing my shoulders soothingly.

“Thanks Josh.”

“No problem.” I peeled myself away from Josh’s hug, just needing to be alone for a while. I heard Chris come in from outside.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” Ricky asked. I nodded and walked into my room, shutting the door quietly behind me. Thoughts from the past came flooding back, and I burst into full out sobs. I fell into my bed, trying to calm myself down.

This is embarrassing beyond belief.

Notes

This does have some smut in it. I would normally be embarrassed but I'm actually not. Say whatever you want to say about it, I'm not going to get offended.