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For What It's Worth..

-I can be your painkiller.-

“Surprise!” Mia ran and jumped into my arms. My eyes nearly popping out their sockets. “What are you doing here?” I repeated. Giving her a loose hug, because I really didn’t know how to react too this surprise. I looked over and saw the same kind of reaction on Chris’ face as mine.

I don’t know why, but my heart thudded lightly and erratically in my chest as I looked into those bright brown eyes. I gulped. I had to look away, “Mia, what are you doing here?” she slowly let go of me. She looked up at me, grinning like a fool. “Me and Tom came to visit you.” She smiled. I saw Tom get out of the car. “Hey Jenny.”

I waved slowly. I was nearly, almost completely speechless. Oh man. I felt a wall start to crumble in the back of mind, and the feeling of being crowded almost overcame my senses. I blew out a silent breath.

“Well..” I started. “I certainly am surprised.” I managed to get out. Mia turned around and finally noticed Chris standing there awkwardly.

“Is this Chris?”

I nodded, “Yup.” finally managed to say more words. “Chris, this is my best friend Mia from Nova Scotia. Mia, this is Chris Motionless.” introducing them to one another.

Chris held his hand out, “Hello.” He smiled.

Mia, who seemed baffled for once, shook his hand. “Hi.”

I can’t believe it. She is actually speechless. “I told you.” I stuck my tongue out at her. She narrowed her eyes at me. “I better get going.” Chris said.

“Alright. Talk to you later?” I asked, walking over and giving him a hug. I could feel Mias’ stare boring into my back.

“Yep.” I felt his face in my hair. I couldn’t stop the smile on my face. He let me go, saying “It was nice too meet you Mia.” She waved as he got into his car and drove down the street. I waved at him, hoping he could still see me. I saw a hand come out of his window, and he gave a salute.

I could feel some sort of lecture coming from Mia, but I wasn’t going to let it bother me.

“So, lets get you guys inside.” I announced as I walked over too there rental car.



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Once I got them settled into the spare room, Mia and I decided to go for a drive while Tom went to sleep.

It was a nice night out for a drive. I loved that how easily Mia and I settled back into our old vibe. She was going on and telling me that Marilyn and Nix were at a pet daycare for the time that they where here. Also that George, our other best friend sends his best wishes and hopes to hang out soon.

“You really do like him, don’t you?” the question kind of caught me off guard, but I knew who she was talking about. Two times in a day. Go figure.

I decided to be honest with her, since she was the only one I could talk too over this stuff. “Yes.” I said quietly. I could see her look at me in the corner of my eye. “Well, I wouldn’t normally tell you too do this, because I know how shy you are. But I think you should tell him.”

I laughed. “You know, I thought I would be a little more confident since Dylan and I broke up, but its like.” I stopped, and gave it more thought.

“Like what?” Mia asked.

“Well, since I first found Motionless In White, right?” I looked over and she nodded for me to continue. “I’ve always had this crush on Chris, him being sexy as hell. Talented and sweet.”

“And now that I’ve met him in person, and got too actually know him, I think I more than just like him.” I felt my heart flutter when I suddenly pictured his trademark grin.

“I guess what I’m saying is, that maybe my innocent little crush on him is nothing. Like maybe it would mean absolutely nothing to him.”

I saw Mia give me a sad look. “You don’t know that. Besides that when I saw him hug you, you didn’t see the look he had on his face when he hugged you.”

I started to feel a small glimmer of hope. I gave her a look of disbelief. “No, I’m serious, he had this loving and the most caring look when he put his face on your head. He looked so calm and relaxed.” She trailed off. I knew she probably had doubts, that she wanted to scold me in a way. But only because she cared. I hoped she kept them too herself.

But, I guess I was keeping some details from her as well. The numerous times, we seemed to get lost in each others gazes, and the two times he cuddled me. Holding me so close that I could have imagined us together. That for one moment it was real.

I sighed dramatically. “Well, I can dream can’t I?” Mia burst out laughing.

“Jen, you can do whatever you put your mind too. You just forget how awesome you are.” I felt my smile reach for my eyes, and happy tears threaten to spill. “You have got to be the only person I know who never brings me down.”

She looked at me and smiled. “I don’t know how you put up with me.” I asked.

“Oh, shut up.”

I laughed. “Well, fuck you to.”


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I found myself walking like a zombie towards my bed. I didn't realize how tired I was as soon I got myself ready for bed. It hit me like a brick. When Mia and I finally decided to head back to my place, Mia was already half asleep in the car from all the travelling she did today.

And me? Well, I was already ready to go to bed before Mia appeared out of nowhere. But after a few minutes with her, I perked up enough that we went out for that long ass drive around Scranton. Not that I minded taking her sightseeing, even though it was very close to becoming very late evening.

I crawled into bed, and pulled my quilt around me, settling in for what I hoped for was immediate sleep.

My hopes were dashed as I heard my cellphone ring. I turned around too my nightstand, watching the phone light up and call out loudly for me too answer it. Giving up on thinking that it was a prank call, I picked it up and answered it. Not bothering to check too see who it was that was calling in the first place.

“Jen?” Chris’ low voice came over the phone. Surprised. I looked over at my clock to grasp the time of night it was. Almost one thirty in the morning.

“Yep, what's up?” I asked, shifting myself up into a sitting position with my back leaned up against my headboard.

“Oh, not too much. Sorry for calling you so late. Where you sleeping?” I didn't want too tell him I was just about to fall asleep. Besides, I liked talking to him, no matter what the time. I smiled, even though he couldn't see me.

“No, can’t sleep.” I lied.

“Oh, okay. Yeah, I couldn't sleep either. I was wondering if you minded talking with me until I- well both of us felt tired enough to sleep?” he questioned. I felt a little bad for lying about being tired, but I would gladly let him believe that lie, if it meant I could help him in some way.

“Sure thing.” and we talked about anything that came into our minds. Our favorite movies of the year, and of all time. What music we've listened too when we were younger. The moment was light, and we laughed at each others embarrassing stories and were empathetic to others.

“So,” Chris said while laughing. “You got scared by a tiny toad?” He burst out laughing. “Hey, that church was nothing to sniff at.” Thinking back to the time Mia and I were at an abandoned church in the middle of nowhere.

He was still laughing. “And if you remember at the first of this lovely story, I did not want to go up that abandoned road, because I knew it was fuckin haunted, but no Mia wouldn't have it.” I continued.

“So I said fuck it, we’ll go up that road and you’ll see what I mean. By the time we went through it and when I got home, she was calling me too come over because she was scared out of her wits because she was by herself that night. So being the nice friend I am, I went over to her place.”

“Probably should have left her by herself, as payback.” Chris chuckled. I laughed, “Yeah I probably should have. But it didn't help me being there, she was still hysterical.” I thought back too that night, remembering her freaking out at me over the phone. It was a hard night, because at the same time, Dylan and I had another fight, and I left in a fit of rage and helplessness.

My heart tinged with familiar pain and bitterness, I think Chris sensed the sudden change. “You alright?” He asked.

“Yeah, I’m fine. Just thinking of things I’d rather not think about.” I said quietly.

“Oh.” He paused. “Do you want to talk about it?” I seriously thought about it, but I didn't want to burden him with my past. If anything, it would be awkward as hell.

“No, I’m fine.” My voice reaching a slightly higher octave than I intended, shaking my head even though he couldn't see me.

The mood suddenly changed from a fun and light tone to something deep and intense, it was going to a place I hoped that maybe this conversation wouldn't go. My heartbeat pounded in my ears so loudly I could swear Chris would be able to hear it.

“Is it about your ex?” he said gently. “The one you told us about a week or so ago.”
I nodded, then remembered too speak. “Yeah.” I started, “He’s just not someone I like to talk about.” What are you saying? I thought.

“Its not that I still like him or anything.” Why are you trying to explain this too him. “I really don’t, it’s just.” I took a deep breath. Really, just stop now, you’re making yourself look like a fool. “When I bring back memories of him that are deeply buried in my mind; bring less than pleasant feelings of him. If anything I would love to see him again and beat the shit out of him.” Alright that sounds better...I think.

Chris was quiet, then spoke up. “I understand. There are things in my past to, that I would rather keep forgotten.”

“We all come with our own horrendous past, and I mean that in moderation. It’s not all ‘horrendous’.”

“True, it makes us who we are today, if anything lessons learned.” I could picture his trademark grin.

I looked at the clock, it was coming around to two forty in the morning.

“So, um, I was talking to Ghost and Ricky earlier.” I could hear him trying to find the right words, while I was inwardly panicking. What had they said? Or what had Ricky told him?

“Are you moving?” he managed out. That took me by surprise. “Yes, I’m going to be moving, but I’ll be staying longer than I thought because my friend came to visit.” and because I don’t want to leave you, I almost blurted out.

“Oh.” He didn't say anything for a minute, and I could swear he sounded disappointed. Letting my imagination dig further, he sounded a little sad. I frowned, I didn't mean to make him sad by any means. Or maybe he was thinking of his past, since we were just recently talking about it, but I never thought that someone could put so much emotion into one word.

I shooed those thoughts away, thinking I was full of crap. Chris spoke again. “So, you getting tired yet.” he laughed kindheartedly. I didn't want too look at the clock, but I felt myself getting more and more tired.

“I’m still awake.” I laughed with him. “How you feeling?” I asked him. “Actually I think I’m starting to get tired.”

“Well that's good, I’m glad I was able to help make you tired.”

“Well, I shall bid you good night.” He let out a breathy laugh.

“Good night Chris.”

“Good night, Jenny. Hope you have a good sleep.” I knew I would fall asleep as soon as I got off the phone. It was three in the morning now, sleep was way overdue. I settled back down into bed, laying my head on the pillow.

“You to, Chris, talk to you tomorrow?” I asked.

“Try and stop me.” I beamed at his words.

“Anyways, talk to you later.” I said, getting ready to hang up.

“Alright, goodbye Jen.” He paused and I was starting to pull away and hang up, but the next words caught me off guard.

“I love you.” and he hung up. I laid there, dumbfounded by his words. But before I could put any rational thought too it, sleep overtook me like a warm comforting blanket.


I woke up, what felt like an eternity later, feeling refreshed and well rested. My mind groggy, trying to figure out how to function again. I crawled out of bed, walked to the bathroom, and used the facilities. I splashed cold water on my face, my eyes widened exponentially and I gasped lightly, feeling more awake.

I walked out of the bathroom, trying wake my brain up. I looked over at the spare room. Remembering that my best friend and her fiance was here now. I looked at the clock in my kitchen, and saw that it was twelve thirty in the afternoon.

“Hmm.” I grumbled. I put on some tea, and grabbed an Oikos yogurt out of the fridge. I sat down at my island, waiting for the water to boil for my tea.

My thoughts were all over the place, it started running through the conversation I had with Chris last night. Well pieces of it anyway. I remembered some stories he told me that I never heard before, or thoughts on things that I never thought about. But there was one part of the conversation that had me reeling too remember, because I knew it was important too me.

Then it hit me.

“I love you.” The words rung in my head like silver bells. Why did he say that? In what way did he mean it? I was so confused. It made my head spin in circles around those three words.

Maybe I shouldn’t read into it too much, but it felt like I earned something important. I sighed in frustration. The kettle clicked off, signalling that it was done. I got up and poured myself some tea. I heard movement coming from the other room, signalling the other two were awake.

Well, I guess my day had to start somewhere.


Notes

Ah, finally have chapter 12 out. Chris' birthday is coming up soon in the story. Things should get a little interesting.

Well, I'll try to make it interesting ahah.

Enjoy. :)


Comments

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Oh Chris! so much happened! poor thing


BUT CONGRATULATIONS ON THE BABY! THAT'S SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!! MAY YOUR CHILD BE AWESOME AND BORN HEALTHY! ^.^

CONGRATS ON YOUR BABY!!!!!!!
And they'll get through it, they have each other I know they can

@blackops-motionless
Please Update sooon!!

@blackops-motionless
^-^ (: update soon!