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If I Could Turn Back Time

Trouble

Aurora's POV:

Trent's wet tongue lashed across my own as he swirled it pleasurably inside my mouth. His firm hands raked up the inside of my shirt tickling my back. His rough touch made me yearn for him more, I pulled myself closer over the car seat my leg twisting itself with his. I could feel the beads of sweat pouring down my forehead along with Trent's sweat dripping on the sleeve of my tartan dress. I was becoming used to the constant kissing and touching to say at the least it was..nice. Trent's car was parked by the curb outside my house but I couldn't bring myself to step out of it as it continued to heat up.

"I don't think it'd look the best if the windows started fogging up in here," Trent chuckled as he eventually broke the kiss making me whimper at the loss of his affection. He leaned in closer, his hot, raspy breath matching my own as it hit my face, as I waited for another kiss he pushed up higher rubbing our noses together teasing me, leaving me wanting more of his tasty lips.

"Tease," I sooked making him laugh once more.

"Get inside Mike and your Mum are probably watching and that's weird," I giggled at the thought and exactly how weird it was and it was enough to make me push open the door.

"Have you got band practice today?" I asked as I leaned over the back seat grabbing my backpack from the night before. I jumped out the car and slung it on my back and leaned in the door frame of the car still waiting upon an answer.

"I'll text you when the guys leave," that was enough to answer my question. I shot him a smile and leaned back as I closed the door to his shiny black car.

"I'll be waiting," I called as I made my way up the driveway. When I turned back to wave him off he was already gone speeding up the street.

While I wondered slowly up towards the house my mind wondered to last night, after meeting Austin most of it was a blur, I fell asleep in the car and I remember Trent carrying me inside the house. Gosh Mum would KILL me if she found out I slept in his bed and not Sab's. It's not the only thing she'd kill me for last night. If she ever found out I met Austin, boy, I wouldn't even know what would happen to me.

"I'd be dead meat," I mumbled to myself as I pushed open the front door.

"Oh you bet you're dead meat," the echo of Mum's chilling voice had me jumping out of my shoes. My heart rate started to elevate when it ran through my head, she knows about Austin. When I looked over to the lounge sure enough Mum was sitting there hands in her lap, back straight, one leg over the other, with her hair pushed back. This was serious, I was in trouble, I was just hoping she knew I slept in Trent's bed and not that I went to the concert. Okay what's the plan? Play it dumb, always.

"Sorry I'm home later this morning than I said I would be, I slept in," I twiddled my thumbs hoping to look as innocent as I could.

"Oh yeah and whose bed did you sleep in?" she lifted herself from the couch and cornered me so that I couldn't leave the foyer. Well at least she didn't know about Austin my heart rate lowered slightly, I was still in trouble there was no doubt about it.

"Trent's but I," she cut me off when she raised her hand meaning she'd heard enough. She walked away pacing back and forth in the lounge room. I was so worried about her tomato red face exploding that I didn't notice Mike sitting right next to where she was moments before. I waved an awkward 'hi' but he didn't even smile back he just gave me that disappointed Dad look that was enough to make any kid feel guilty.

"No buts," she huffed as she turned to face me once more, "That was the only rule Aurora and you had to break it. Why do you insist on being so ignorant? You're pushing me to my very limit young lady," she was waving her pointed finger at me and all over the rest of the room as she ranted. She was so angry I thought she was about to catch fire, heaven knows what my punishment would be this time.

"Mum nothing happened, how did you even know?" I pleaded trying to calm her down. Mike's eyes didn't leave my Mother once as he watched her handle her rage.

"Did you not think I wouldn't call their parents? I don't fucking care about what didn't happen, it could happen and it's going to and I want to prevent that. That's it you're banned from going to Sabrina's house ever again," that was it, that was the moment she took my entire life from me. I gasped for air as I choked back the tears but failed. The waterfall had already started pouring down my cheeks.

She just ruined everything. Forget trying to keep my own blood related Father away from me, forget embarrassing me that one time at my twelfth birthday party when she gave me a wedgie in front of all my friends as I blew out the candles, this was the worst thing she has ever done to me. She just took away the only two people who I actually give one fuck about away from me. What I supposed to talk to Sab in class and NEVER see Trent because, oh yeah, he finished school two years ago. My life is over, it's non existent.

"I hate you!" I meant it, I really meant it. I stomped my feet and threw my backpack at the wall making the picture of Mum and I fall to the floor and smash into smithereens. Mike jumped from his seat as if he was about to scold me but instead turned to my Mum instead surprising me.

"Leilani you don't need to swear at her," this was the only time I'd ever seen him stand up for me. He looked over at me and smiled slightly but as comforting as it was it was doing nothing for how I felt right now.

"What else am I going to do nothing else I'm saying seems to get through her thick skull?" she insulted me as if I wasn't standing right there.

"You do know you're talking about me as if I'm not standing right here right?" I got nothing back she just stood there crying crocodile tears to Mike. I couldn't deal with this bullshit anymore, I turned on my heels, glass crunching under the soles of my boots as I stormed out of the foyer and headed for my bedroom.

"She's so defiant lately and now with that happened last night, I can't do it anymore Mike. I was never cut out to be a good mother," she was playing the guilt trip card but it wasn't going to work this time. Her words didn't even stop me in my tracks they just made me angrier so when I made it to my room I slammed the door shut making the walls shake. That'll teach her. As I staunched around my room I couldn't help but listen to the back and forth arguing between her and Mike.

"God Leilani what has gotten into you? You've never done this 'I'm a bad Mum' bullshit," and that's exactly what it was, bullshit, so much so that even Mike called her up on it and he usually is on her side.

"What has gotten into me? Are you serious right now? How about what has gotten into her?" What has gotten into me is she kidding herself? I'm exactly the same as I was a week ago! I could hear Mum start to fire back with a "but" but Mike cut her off defending me once again.

"She's a teenager Leilani! That's what young girls do with their boyfriends. You should be thankful that she hasn't ended up in jail like you did at her age!" exactly! Someone had to say it.

"She's nothing like me and I'm so grateful for that but if she keeps hanging around Trent she'll go down that path. He's exactly like Austin he's in a band and he's a ladies man he'll get what he wants and leave and for fuck sake I'm not letting her get knocked up at sixteen Mike!" I had to physically restrain myself from running out there and opening up fire on her when she hissed those words. I'm nothing like her, I'm not a murdered or a slut, at least I can get my boyfriend to stick around.

"You blame everything that you're scared of in life on Austin you need to give it up! You were too scared to marry me when I asked you because you thought I'd run away like him, you're scared that Aurora's going to die because of Austin because he's sick she's sick, you're scared Aurora's going to get pregnant because of Austin, you're scared that Austin's not that bad guy you thought he was and you're putting all of this on her. Don't you see how it's affecting her? Stop being so scared!" There was so many questions I could ask after Mike's explosion, like Mike proposed to my Mum and Mum actually not hating Austin. It all left me confused.

"Mike.." Mum blubbered out between her tears. I couldn't tell that she was crying before until she tried to talk. It made my heart twinge I felt bad now, I know she's sitting there regretting everything that she did and didn't do in her life now. I wanted to hug her but I wanted to win, I still hated her for ruining my life.

"Save it," that was Mike giving up he didn't want to hear it anymore. I didn't know if he just couldn't be bothered to keep fighting or if he was actually hurt by what was being said between them, it was hard to tell his rough tone never really faltered.

"If.. If I could go back to the day you proposed to me Mike, I would have said yes, I should have," Mum was crying harder now and I could hear her footsteps as she tried to get closer but he must have backed away because she whimpered but he just huffed out a sadistic laugh.

"You always hoped he'd come running back to you and it'd be his ring on your finger not mine but that's fine I accepted that, I moved on. I have Alysha, I'm happy but you have no one because you're too busy living life in a dark corner. Remember when you told Austin he was going to die alone? You were wrong, it's you," that was cold. I couldn't believe Mum had said that to Austin but better yet I couldn't believe Mike was saying it to my Mum right now. The worst part is is that he might just be right. She's always pushing everyone away, she's never had a date beside Mike and that's well and truly over and lets face it we don't know how long I'll be around with my wonky heart and all.

"I have Aurora, she's all I need," I could tell she meant it, just the same way I meant it when I said I hated her.

"Come on Lani, she's sick. Stop lying to yourself she's not getting better and none of us know how much time she has left. What happens when she's gone?" his voice cracked on the word 'sick', my Mum's tears erupted and so did my own. No one talks about me dying it's just an unspoken thing, we know it's going to happen one day but no one dwells on it so this was hard to listen to. I can almost imagine that Mum has her hand over her heart as she backs into the couch to sit down while Mike rubs her back as she gathers her breath. It'd be nice to have someone comforting me right now as I tried to accept the terms of my illness.

"I'm not stupid Mike! You think I don't know that every single day I'm getting closer to losing her, that's why I'm trying to stop bad things happening to her," there was a pause between each word as she tried to choke back the waterfall of tears.

"Oh stop babying her, you said it yourself, everyday she's getting closer to dying so let her live her life to the fullest don't let her go without experiencing love and adventure and happiness," as hard as this all was, Mike was right. Hallelujah, finally, a moment in time that I agreed with Mike.

Mum didn't respond after that I think she might have realised too that Mike was right. I couldn't make out the muttering between them after that. Moments later I heard a door shut quietly and footsteps making their way down the hallway meaning someone was coming to check on me and with how heavily the feet planted themselves down on the wooden floorboards I'm guessing it's Mike. I ran across the room from where I was eavesdropping by the door and flopped on the bed and put my headphones in. Surely enough a second later there was three consecutive knocks at my door.

"Come in," I mumbled facing away from the door. Mike didn't say anything he just sat next to me on the bed making the mattress sink to one side. He placed a hand on the back of calf and sighed. I rolled over and lifted myself up so I sat beside him and rested my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arm around me. I know Mike and I don't usually get along but he was the closest I had to a Dad in a situation like this, this hug just felt right.

"I'm sorry if you had to listen to any of that it was pretty horrific," his apology was sincere as he rubbed his calloused hand up and down my back. I wouldn't tell him but that small action was working wonders for me right now, it calmed me instantly.

"I didn't I was listening to music," I hated lying to him right now but if I didn't there was a lot of talking I wasn't too keen on going through right now.

"What have you got playing?" he was genuinely interested, music was the only thing we had in common and we could talk for hours on end about it.

"Of Mice and Men.. Sabrina loves them and I figured the was no harm in giving them a chance," I awkwardly laughed, it's probably not what he wanted to hear but when their album cover was lit up on my screen with 'Bones Exposed' playing I couldn't exactly lie.

"I know you met him last night," immediately I started cackling, not just laughing but hysterically, evilly laughing. Mike must have thought I was insane by the look on his face but I couldn't stop. The thought of getting caught out was so scary that all I could do right now was laugh at the thought of doom.

"Good joke, I was at Sabrina's," I managed to push out after finally controlling my witch like laughter. All I could keep thinking was this is it, this is the end, I'm busted, I'm dead. I will never step foot outside of this house again. God what if he's already told Mum.

"I'm not angry," what?

"You're not?" he's not? He shook his head answering my question.

"You deserved to meet him, he's your father. He's wanted to be part of your life for a very long time and even though you don't talk to us about it we know you've always longed to meet him," he empathized with me.

"How did you know?" if he knew somehow Mum would know for sure.

"That you wanted to meet him or that you did meet him?" he asked.

"That I did," I answered waiting nervously for a reply.

"I saw a photo on Instagram of you with your Uncle Oliver in the crowd and then I saw Oliver walk you to their bus after the show. I swear I was so angry at first I could have beat his lily white ass to a pulp but then I thought about you and how happy you would have been no matter what happened you would have had some closure," he was right, all this time closure is what I needed I just never saw it like that.

"I'm sorry for lying," I was, "but I'm not sorry I did it, he loves me Mike and I.. I love him, he was great. It was the best thing I've ever done for myself," he nodded in agreement as he pulled me into a massive bear hug.

"I'm sorry for not taking you to see him a long time ago there was so many chances," I shook my head so he knew he didn't have to be sorry and he didn't argue back he just accepted it.

"I invited someone over they should be here soon," he changed the subject as he pulled away from the hug and got up to leave the room. Before he could reach the door frame I asked who it might be.

"Is it Trent? Or Sabrina?" he shook his head sadly.

"So I'm actually not allowed to see them anymore," I tried not to tear up again as I stared down at the cold ground, my feet dangling just above.

"No," my heart stopped beating once again but then he continued, "you're Mum overreacted of course you can see them whenever you want but it's not them today," relief washed over me.

"Who then?" I was nervous, I had absolutely no idea who it could be. I'd had enough surprises these past couple of weeks I wasn't sure I could handle more.

"You'll see," he grinned widely, it was almost creepy. He looked like he'd just conjured up the most cruel plan and was waiting for the bomb to go off. Before I could ask once more he walked off back down the hall and opened the door to where my Mum had been hiding, probably crying.

I was about to lay back down of the bed and put in my headphones when I heard a knock on the front door just outside the window of my bedroom. When Mike said 'soon' he wasn't kidding. I was about to take a peak out the window to see who it was when the knock came again, they were clearly eager to see me or Mike, I wasn't sure, so I stood up and straightened out my dress before rounding the corner to the front door.

"Who is it Rory?" Mum called from the study. I didn't answer back because I hadn't even made it to the door yet but when I did I wasn't sure I wanted to tell Mum who it was.

"I wasn't expecting you.." I trailed off before I heard Mum's footsteps closing in on me at the doorway.

Notes

So so so, sorry for such a long wait guys! I've literally been writing this chapter for a week. It's not my favourite chapter but it's building up to something massssssive in the next chapter which will come heaps quicker because I know exactly what I want to happen! Anyway, leaving it on a cliffhanger there, who do you think it is? Dun dun dun.....

Aurora's Outfit


Comments

I haven't been on this website for ages but now I'm so happy to see that you posted new chapters (I don't know when though haha). I love your story as always !

Howdrhey Howdrhey
1/5/16

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@SomeWeirdUnicorn

Hey guys! Thank you for your lovely comments. Sorry I'm such a shit person and haven't been updating or replying but I've been having the WORST writer's block and have had no motivation to write but I've recently had a flood of ideas come to me so expect new chapters coming sometime this week! I promise!!!

an0theryou an0theryou
7/13/15

Hey you :) Well I've started reading your fanfictions a couple of days ago and I have to say that you're an incredibly talented writer. I love your stories and I really really really hope to see an update on this story soon because it kinda caught me. I'm so into it that it feels like I'm actually living it!
Greets

Update please!!!! :)

@an0theryou
I don't mind when writers such as you take a long time, I mean we do have lives ahaha nah I don't think anything will take me away from reading on, this is by far my favourite fan fiction! Can't wait for the new chapter/s.