Lost Forever // Lost Together

Beneath The Skin
Title Cred: Memphis May Fire
I listened to the faint sound of beeping in background.
I thought ‘
“ Mr. and Mrs. Sullivan. Your daughter lost a lot of blood. But you should glad you found when you did Mrs. Sullivan or you daughter would be gone by now.’ I heard the hard sobs of a woman then, my mom. ‘ I would like to keep her in for some time if that is okay with both of you.”
“Yes. I don’t want her to come back until she’s ready. I don’t want to have to find her like that ever again.” I could hear her holding in the tears.
It grew quiet again the only sound being heard was the beeps of the heart monitor.
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*One Week Later*
“Why?”
“Why what ?” I asked looking at my hands that laid in my lap. I stared at the bandages around my wrist.
“Why did you did you try to take your life?” Dr.Gacy asked looking across the larger desk that sat between us.
“Because I am a waste of space. Everyone at my school knows it, My family knows it. I’m just a fuck up. I can’t do anything right. I know that no one will ever love me.What’s the point? I just saving sometime and getting the job done earlier.” I looked in her eyes for the first time in the hour I had been there.
“Hm. Do you remember me asking you about one of your favorite things to do growing up ? And you told me that playing music and singing was your favorite.”
I looked at her confused. “Yeah. What does that have to do with anything?”
I looked out the window behind Dr. Gacy. I watched the bird that sat on the tree branch. He took off into the wind flying away leaving me behind.
I thought to myself wanting to leave.
“ Well I came up with this Idea. I decided to run it by your parents.We thought it would be a great help to your recovery. I have signed you up for some music classes.”
“How? We hardly have a enough money to keep the roof over our head.” I looked at her stunned. I haven’t taken classes since elementary school back when we could actually afford stuff like that.
Dr.Gacy Stood up and came around the desk and sat on the corner of it. “ Iam going to be paying for you classes. When I look at you, Tiffany, I see me. I was in the same place as you at 16. I thought I was worthless because of the people around told me I was. I did the same thing you. I try to take my life. It wasn’t till later on with the help of people in my hospital and my family that I realized who I was and who I wanted to be. I just want you be able to happy again.” She held my hand in hers looking down on me as I began to cry.
“But what if I they are right? I don’t think I can deal with that again.” I wiped a tear from my eye.
“Forget about those girls. They are only right if you give their words power. And that’s what They want you to do but you can’t let that happen. Okay?” Dr. Gacy rubbed my hand in hers. ‘We’ll end early today. How that sound?’ I nodded my head. ‘ I see you later tomorrow after your first music class. Your parents are gonna pick you up. Now go get some rest.” Dr. Gacy stood me up and walked me to the office door.
“Thank You.” was all I could get out of mouth as I turned around to walk out the door with one of the nurse in the hospital back to my room.
I walked into my room and sat down on my bed not want to actually sleep but with nothing better to do. I looked over at my nightstand. There was the picture I had take with my family two years ago before everything fell apart, when I was actually happy. I started the big smiles on our faces as we all stood from of beautiful sunset at Tybee Island in Savannah, Georgia. My brothers, David, Chris and Johnny, holding my me horizontal in their arms. My mom and dad stood next David holding on to each other lovingly staring straight into the camera. Memory from that day came rushing back to me. I pick up the picture and looked down at all the happiness I had. I curled up into the fetal position and held the picture tight to my chest. I knew I wanted to be that person again. I just didn’t know how to get there. I started crying again I laid there like that until I drifted off to a deep sleep.
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*Four Months Later*
“Today is the day Tiffany. How do you feel?” I smiled at Dr. Gacy from across the desk. I would be leaving today a brand new woman.
“I feel like a million bucks. And I have you to thank for that.” I reached over at placed my hand on hers. “
“No, you don’t.” She looked at my with a serious face.
“Yeah, I do. I wouldn’t have made it if it was for you. I would have tried and completed the job.” She whined at my words.
“In reality, Tiffany , It was all you. You did it. You made yourself get up everyday. You were the one that stood up to your demons. It was you that fought back tears everyday telling me what they did to you. I had nothing to do with journey you have taken. I was just along for the ride.” Dr.Gacy smiled looking at me. I knew what she was trying to me. That it was my choice to keep trying and to keep fighting.
She stood up and I followed her lead followed her out of her office door. I looked around the hospital as we walked out in silence .
“ I’m so sad that you're leaving but I am so glad you can finally be at home with your family again.” Dr.Gacy had a sad look in her eyes.
“Don’t think you can get rid of me that easily. I’ll back to tomorrow to perform for the other patients.” I chuckled, Dr.Gacy wrapped her arm around my shoulder. When we reached the front desk, We walked over to it picking up a couple other things from there. I said good bye once more to Dr.Gacy and the other nurses. I walked into the lobby and there was my family standing waiting for me. I ran up and hugged them.
“Ready to go home, sis? “ Johnny asked after I had hugged everyone.
“Hell Yeah!” I said with a laugh. I walked that day with my family a stronger and better Tiffany Sullivan.

Notes

Hey guys so This is my first fanfic. Let me know what you think!! I may keep going with this if everyone likes it. I'll post another chapter tomorrow!! Keep you Eyes peeled!!
~Shanelle