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2 - Alan [Part 2]

Everything seemed to be moving in a haze, my perception of time was beginning to get warped.

I still wasn't sure how much time had passed once I felt something tugging on my shoulder. I tried desperately to figure out what it was.

Was I... being dragged?

My eyes fluttered open, revealing a figure trying to pick me up.

"Holy shit. Please don't be dead. Please don't be dead." I heard the figure mutter to himself in a panic.

I wish.

I felt myself being picked up into someone's arms. I kept wondering how the hell they did it. I was basically the equivalent of a whale.

"Oh my god. Alan?!?" I heard them practically yell. I was confused, how did they know me? I tried to get a proper look at their face, but everything was fuzzy. Soon my vision cleared, revealing someone

I would have never expected.

"M-Mister Shay?" I said weakly.

I felt my heart sink, I really didn't want him to see me like this. Why couldn't everything work in my favor for once?

"Holy shit. Um, I-I need to take you to the hospital I need-"

"NO!" I screamed, using the only energy I had left to kick and scream in his arms. There was absolutely no way I was going to the hospital.

"You're not taking me there I won't let you!" I screamed again, trying to break free from his hold. All my kicks and punches did nothing. Was I really that weak?

"Okay! Okay, I promise I won't take you to the hospital calm down, alright? I just need to get you in my car so I can take you to my house. Is that okay?" He said nervously.

I thought about it a second, before nodding. Going to his house wasn't that bad, I trusted Mr. Shay. The thing he didn't know yet was that I was still planning to die.

Mr. Shay carried me slowly to his car, trying not to hurt me before setting me down in one of the back seats. I wondered how he had such a nice car, considering he was on a teachers salary.

I shrugged it off as his car began speeding down the road, presumably towards his house.

I felt all the pain rush back into my body, for some reason I hadn't felt it before. I let out a cry of agony, this was all too much. I thought I heard Mr. Shay ask me if I was okay, but I was in too much pain to answer.

After what seemed like an eternity, the car finally stopped. Mr. Shay got out of the car to open the passenger door, and pretty soon I was being carried in his arms again.

I took a second to study his house, it was way nicer than what I expected from a teacher, that's for sure.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I was set down on something soft. I didn't even feel like I belonged to my own body anymore, my mind was a million miles away. Maybe this was what dying felt like? I hoped.

I heard him talking to someone from across the room, I guessed it was his roommate. I realized this was my only chance, so I took out my blade and began reopening the wounds on my arms. It was probably a stupid idea since Shay and his roommate were in the same room but I was beyond thinking at this point.

"Alan, I need to - What the fuck!" Mr. Shay yelled out in surprise. I felt bad for all the panic I was causing him.

He looked around in a panic, but in mere seconds, to my surprise, his face turned hard and calm.

"Alan.. I need you to put that down or I'll have to take it from you." He said calmly, slowly inching towards me with one of his hands out.

My mind started racing. I knew I couldn't give it to him. I couldn't even think rational thoughts at this moment, all I could think about was death.

Before I had a chance to figure things out, I had something that resembled a psychotic break. I began yelling and crying, the tears were flooding out so fast I could barely see. I swiped my blade towards Mr. Shay, luckily missing him. He stared at me in complete shock and before I knew it I had the blade pressed against my own throat.

"I -I'll do it! I swear to fucking god if you touch me I'll do it! I'm going to die soon anyways this will just speed it up!" I screamed, I was so out of it I wasn't even aware of what I was doing.

The blood seemed to drain out of Mr. Shay's face. I saw him look up in a pleading manner, didn't he realize I wasn't going to negotiate?

I suddenly understood, realizing he wasn't looking at me, but at his roommate who was still standing in the back. Shit. I'd forgotten all about him. I felt bad for dragging so many people into my problems. This was only another reason why I needed to die.

Out of nowhere, I heard a different but strangely familiar voice.

"Alan." They said calmly.

"I need you to put that blade down. For me." I heard the voice getting closer. I moved my head around frantically, trying to find the source of the voice.

My eyes locked on a face I'd never expected.

I dropped the blade immediately, my body was frozen in place.

"Austin?" I whispered.

Notes

If this is confusing to you make sure you read part one because I updated two chapters yay~ comments are appreciated

Comments

please please please update this. its amazing and I need to know what happens

When shall u update ahhhhh im dying

saybre_Williams saybre_Williams
12/22/14

D: Updateeee oh mer gawsh. The cashby begins >:3

Awwww :( poor alan

Lovely. Update?