Would You Still Be There

I just stared at the women who had enterd the room. She was snapping photos of me and Alan with a happy face. She smiled big, and her smile reminded me of Alan.


She introduced herself as "Mrs.Ashby"and said she was just taking photos of Alans future boyfriend. I was confused. I was just about to say hello and tell her my name when Alan threw a pillow at her. I smiled a bit, seeing how embarassed Alan was.


She left the room, but I could hear how she shouted how I could stay for dinner. I was still in some kind of shock. Since my dad is kind of depressed, I haven't seen someone filled with so much life since my own mom was alive.


-"Your mom is fucking awesome!" I snapped out of my cofusion and looked at Alan. "She is like really cool. Most moms are just boring." I mumble, trying to look Alan in the eyes.


-"Ya, she's pretty cool I guess." Alan responds, looking up at me. I see how he also smiles.


-"And just a question.. What was this thing about boyfriend?" I bite my lip and drag a hand through my hair. Just when Alan opens his mouth to talk, I hear a voice.


-"Dinner is served!" Alan quickly gets out of bed and starts walking out. I feel the panick growing inside of me. I couldn't eat. Not now. I was in on a fast. And I am to fat to eat. I don't deserve it.


I follow Alan downstairs, seeing how they have put out a plate for me and the table is full of food. Could I throw it up later? Work it off? It still wouldn't be worth it, and I would still never be able to get down a whole meal in my stomach. I've literally been living on apples. I can't remember the last time I had a proper meal.


Alan sits down, and I sit down next to him. His mom and dad is staring at me with a smile and I look at them.


-"Uh, hi. I'm Austin." I smile. Why did I always have to be so awkward?

-"We know." Alans father smile and start taking some sallad. After he has finished, he pushes the sallad
against me. I just stare at it.


-"Well, go on. Take some sallad." Alans father says with a happy voice. I'm atleast happy that Alan don't have one of those creepy parents who just stare at me without even smiling.


I take a piece of salad, aswell a small tomato. I feel them staring at me, probably cause I'm such a fatty. I send the salad over to Mrs.Ashby, wishing that there was no more food than salad.


-"Tell me about yourself, Austin." Mrs.Ashby says and pushes some potatoes against me. Shit.


-"Uh.." I look up. "I like music, a lot. I draw and stuffs aswell, but yeah. I'm pretty boring." I smile and take half a potato. They keep on staring at me.


Thankfully, Alan starts a conversation. The whole family starts talking, laughing. Just like any happy family. I miss that. Sitting around the table, just.. Talking. With my whole family.


I push around my salad and potato a bit, making it look like I've eaten. I say something sometimes. I felt comfortable being around Alan and his parents. Before I know it, Alan asks if we can leave. His parents nodds.


-"Thank you for the dinner! It was delicious!" I say, even though I haven't even tasted it. Hopefully, no one noticed.


-"You're very welcome." They smile and Alan drag me upstairs.

Notes

yay update lol