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Would You Still Be There

4 - Austin

The short time I had already spent with Alan had made me happier than I've been since.. Since my mom. It was something about him that made me happy. He made my heart beat faster, and he was just stunning.

I was on my way to my math class when I heard something. I snapped out of my thoughts.

-"Aww, is Ashley gonna cry?" A dark voice said. I couldn't help but look what it was.

I walked around the corner seeing how some guys was beating the living shit out of some kid. I walked around them and felt how my heart stopped when I saw the face of the kid on the ground. Alan.
It was something in me who just got pissed. No one would ever hurt Alan. Not when I was around.

-"What the fuck to you think you're doing?!" I said as I pulled away one of the kids who seemed the largest. He turned around, looking at me with hate in his eyes. I didn't even take a step back.

-"Hey, new kid, don't fucking mess with me. I'm in the middle of something!" He goes back to kicking Alan. I feel my heart beating faster. I needed to get them away from Alan. Now. I think he had already passed out.

-"Get off!" I shouted as I literally threw away the big kid from Alan. His side hit the locker and I saw how the other kids kicking Alan stopped. They started surronding me in a circle.

-"I said, don't mess with me." His voice was filled with so much anger and hate.

-"Well, if you don't want to have anything to do with me, I suggest you leave Alan the fuck alone." I answerd. He laughed.

-"You think you're stronger than me?" Before I even could react he had thrown himself over me. I felt his heavy body hit me, and I was on my way to land on the floor. Directly when I hit it I rolled to the side, watching how the big kids body hitting the stone floor. He screamed out, but was quickly back on his feet. I felt someone trying to grab my back. I turned around and simply punched him in the face. He took a few steps away, and the other kids as well. Everybody exept the big one. He just stood there staring at me. He started moving closer and tried punching me in the face. I moved to the side and grabbed his face, knocking him out. His friends grabbed his body and started running away from there.
I looked down at the fragile Alan. He was bleeding from serveral places in his face, aswell on his body.

-"Austin?" Alan whisperd. I hushed him.

-"Don't move. I don't want you to hurt yourself." I mumble.

-"Wh-where did Derek go?"

-"Don't worry, I took care of him. He won't be bothering you anymore." I said trying to keep emotions out of my face. Hopefully, Alan wouldn't find out about this. "Come on, let's get you to the nurse." I said, helping him up. We started walking up the stairs in silent, and soon we arrived at the nurses office. I knocked at the door and saw how the nurses face changed from being happy to terrified.

-"What has happend?!" She said loudly as she helped Alan in.

-"Derek happend." I mumble, sitting down in a chair as she placed Alan on a bed.

-"I have to look at your wounds, so I'll have to ask you to take of your shirt. I need to look at your ribs and arms." Alan seemed to hesitate. I didn't get why.

-"Can't you like.. Start with my face?" He asked. The nurse just nodded and started taking out supplies.

She put some ice at his eye and at the top of his head. I sat there in the corner, thinking about how easily I had beat them up. It was like I had gotten some kind of adrenaline attack when I saw them kick Alan. Like I needed to help him. Why couldn't I defend myself in that way? Maybe if I just threw my fat body at them they'd go away. I look down at my legs and right away I feel so disgusted. Sure, I had lost weight since my eatingdisorder had gotten worse. I was down to like 40 kilos now, which was underweight. Okay, 50 was underweight for my height and age. People should apparanetaly weight around 60-79 kilos in this height. I didn't get it. I was a whale, how didn't I weigh like three ton?

I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Alan again. The nurse was still looking at his face. I looked at Alans face. He was seriously beautiful. I couldn't help but stare at him. The structures in his face, his nose, his lips..

Why was I thinking this way? Seriously, it needed to stop. I wasn't gay.. Right?

The nurse finished his face.

-"I just need to get some more pads, I'll be right back." She mumbled and walked out. Right away I stood up and walked over to Alan.

-"Hey, how are you?" I ask and look at his now clean face.