I Can Save You

'' are you sure? it got really bad.'' i comment to mike. he pulls me close and starts to kiss me. 'yeah babe, i need to know about your past.' he replies in my head.
'okay just don't ever leave me for what you are going to find out okay. i love you and i cant lose you mikey.' i said back and he kisses me,with a passion unknown to man.

''okay, its really brutal.' i say and he merely nods. i give him one more kiss and i walk into the closet and pull out my old yellow box that contains all of my past journals.

''this was when i first started to develope Anorexia and my self harm i was 12.'' i say and toss it on the bed where he is sitting criss cross.

he opens to the first page and reads m entree. when i was a kid, i would take a picture of my body and the scale at the end of every week to show my ''progress.'' he flips to the next page and he opens his mouth a little. i walk over and lay on the bed next to him so i can see.

it was my thighs bleeding like no other.

he flips through all of the entrees and that was only 70 days. i still have about 4 more. he tosses the book to the side. well if you count the wall the side.

''they fucking did that to you baby.'' he said in tears. i don't think ive seen mike cry since ive known him.

''no babe, i did it to myself.'' i reply sadly and avert my eyes to the ground. ''no, they made you do that to yourself. you are so beautiful and smart and funny. i love you.'' he says and he puts his hand behind my neck and pulls me to him. as soon as im in range, his lips attack mine.

''makeup sex?'' i ask




''makeup sex.'' he agrees while wiping the remaining tears that have fallen.

Notes

DO YOU GUYS REALLY LIKE THIS BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IM ONLY DOING THIS FOR MYSELF