~Scarlet's POV~
We were in Dallas Texas today. It wasn't supposed to rain today, thank god! One of my favorite bands of all time was playing In Fear and Faith. I had listened to them from the begining. And the guys were amazing! Super sweet, it's so cool when you get to meet your favorite band and become friends with them. I slipped on a pair of high waisted black shorts with a purple tank top with my bikini top under it and black Vans. I put on some eyeliner and put my hair up in a messy bun. It was really hot today, 103 degrees outside. I was supposed to sell merch for Bring Me and Mice today.
I went to my booth that was already set up. The merch was hanging up, some on the wall, some on the table, some in boxes. "Can I have that one?" A girl no older than 12 asked. Pointing to the shirt that says 'Fuck Your Faith' I laughed, "What's your religion?" "I'm Baptist" "No you cannot have this shirt because you are telling Christians to fuck their faith. You are telling yourself to Fuck Your Faith." "So!" "I need your parents permission."
She stormed off. She was not getting that shirt. She's 12. Absolutely not. When I was 12 if I wore that I would get the shit beat out of me. Literally. But she did come back, with a parent. I made them show me her I.D. I'm ridiculous. Haha. "She wanted this one." I said holding it up. "Oh no no! Absolutely not! You are NOT getting that one!" The mother yelled. She pouted, I laughed, the mom glared at me and walked out. I'm pretty sure that they left the venue. Awe, she didn't even get to see Bring Me. How pathetic.
"Raven!!" I shouted as she walked over to my booth.
"Hey beautiful." She smirked. "In Fear in Faith is about to be on."
"Ravvveeennnn!!" I smiled. I needed her to watch my booth.
"Go." She laughed.
I dashed over to the stage and stood in the back. They played Soul Survior, You Had Your Chance, Heavy Lies the Crown and I Know You Know. All four of which I loved. I jammed out back stage, singing and doing little dances. This was fucking awesome. After all this time I got to see one of my favorite bands live. Is this heaven? When they got off stage I congratulated them and told them that they did great.
I got back to my booth and Raven was chilling out there. She was in a black bikini top with a pair of short with platform boots. How could she pull this off?! Ugh. She stayed with me as we waited for Bring Me to play. Mice was doing a signing here in 30 minutes or so, I had to help with that. And then an hour later or so Bring Me was playing. I set up for their signing putting posters and CD's out. I put $120 in the box and took four shirts. Every concert I hand out 6 signed shirts. It's just really cool to do. Free merch! Yay!
They came early, but there was already a line a mile long outside of the booth. They signed the six shirts I had paid for and then started signing posters. They were given the sweetest things. Bracelets, homedesigned shirts, underwear, a necklace, and a few other things. I handed out shirts to the first two, the middle two, and then the last two for waiting so long.
The last girl handed Austin a piece of paper. As he read it he began crying. He hugged her tightly. "Can I get a picture?" She said smiling. Her smile so weak. Her eyes were dull, filled with pain. "Of course." Austin smiled. They took a picture and I smiled. "Come here." I said motioning her over. "Y-yes? W-who are y-you?" she stuttered.
"I'm Austin's girlfriend," I smiled, "Here. Take this. Stay strong lovely. You're beautiful." I handed her a piece of paper with my number on it, "Whenever no one's there for you, I am. Give me a call whenever, I'm always here."
She started crying and gave me a big hug. I hugged her back. She left and I asked Austin to hand me the note. It was talking about her she was abused by her uncle who she was currently living with. And that she had been self harming for 5 years. She was 16. At the bottom was two blades taped to the piece of paper. "My last two blades." Was written by it.
I cried reading it. Austin hugged me and left. Bring Me was playing soon, but I had merch duty. I didn't mind. After the were done the venue was over. It was dark and had cooled down, a lot. I just wanted to go to bed.
~3 Months later~
~Last day of Warped~
~Scarlet's POV~
Breaking Benjamin blared through my headphones as I sat on the bus. Today was the last day and everyone was having a party tonight. We were in New York City. I REALLY wanted to go shopping. The fashion capital of the world. And I have a chance to go shopping. Of course I'm going to!! "Raven we need to go shopping." I said looking over at her. "You read my mind girl."
I got dressed in my most 'model like' outfit. A black crop top that fit my slim body with a red skirt and black pumps. Then I thought /Don't try to be who you aren't\ I growled at my thought and changed into one of Ravens black lace dresses and paired it with black heels. She had been letting me use her clothes, I discovered that I looked good in them.
I was thinking of dying my hair (again) yes I know, but I was going to do a pastel blue. But then I get worried that it'll look bad. So I haven't yet. She was in a pair of platorm boots with thigh high lace stockings, a black pair of shorts, and a black tube top with a choker. Only she could pull that off. Ugh I hated her for that. She picked up a pair of circle lense glasses and we left. I looked like a fucking potato compaired to her. She got so many nice compliments. I tried so hard not to just cry.
We went shopping and she helped me pick out clothes like hers. I found so many. I was going to be like that. I was going to be that skinny, and that pretty. I had too. No no I can't. I need to return this. It's not who I am. It's not me. I should be me. "I have to go return these." I said to Raven, looking down at my feet. "Why?! You look great." "I'm trying to be someone I'm not." I sighed and walked back to the stores I had bought them from. I went back around and bought stuff I liked, shorts, skinny jeans, Vans, Converse, and some normal plain shirts. I was so boring. Raven left hours ago. She said that she had to go watch Oli play.
I took a 30 minute walk back to the busses when I had finished shopping. The grundgy city air was the only thing I could smell. Once I got back to the busses the sun was setting. I threw my bags into the bus and went to go walk around. I didn't like this. Myself. I didn't deserve Austin under any circumstances. I was so fucking boring.
I walked around chatting with people, half of them had no fucking idea who I was. No one realized I was Austin's girlfriend. And it was nice. I was treated like a normal human. Yay. I friends with this one chick, she seemed pretty cool. I gave her my number. She said she had been following Warped for the last three months. That was kind of cool. She must've seen me, but I guess not, I didn't see her.
I walked towards the bus, when I got inside Austin was in there, but the rest of the band wasn't. He said they had went and gotten something to eat. I insisted he go, but he refused. I finally let it go and climbed into my bunk. I sat there just trying not to cry. Too fat. Too ugly. Too stupid.
"Something bothering you?" Austin asked peaking in.
"Am I boring?" I asked.
"Uh, no. Why?"
"Just curious."
I turned away from him and sighlently sobbed to myself. I hated that I wasn't interesting or that I dressed like every teenybopper there was. UGH. Fuck this. Fuck it all. I heard the door shut, Austin had left. Thank god. I walked into the bathroom and took out my depression pills. Maybe that'll help. I looked down at the pills. I had two. I looked in the bottle. It was almost empty, maybe 15 left. I dumped them out of the bottle and into my hand "It's time. Hell is a beautiful place." I sighed. I took a glass of water and was about to take them when I heard the door open, "Scarlet, I brought us some Chinese." Austin said knocking on the door.
"Please, just go Austin. Please. I don't want you to see this."
Tears were flowing from my face, my heart ached, my head was spinning. 'Should I do it?' 'Is it worth it?' 'Is it really worth it?'

Notes

I'M SO SORRY THIS CHAPTER IS SO SHORT. MY LAPTOP DIED AND IT DELETED ALL MY SHIT. AND IT SUCKS, AND I'M TRYING TO RECOVER IT ;-; I HAD A LOT FOR THIS CHAPTER ;--;

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I cried writing the end of this chapter. Is that bad?

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So I deleted my other story, I plan to finish this one and work on another <3
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