Friendships Never End

I woke up to hearing the voices inside my head 'You're an ugly worthless slut that goes around kissing guys and having them sleep with you if they want to or not' "Fuck they're back" I thought. I lifted Oli's arm off of me slowly so I didn't wake him, he stirred in his sleep but didn't wake up. I walked downstairs to find out it was 5 'o clock in the morning, I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a monster when somebody wrapped their arms around my waist. "Oli I am sorry I woke you up, if you want you can go back to sleep and I can wake you up for school." "No love, it's okay I was already awake I just kept my eyes close so you would think I was asleep." I smiled and walked upstairs into the bathroom. I opened the mirror and tried to reach the medicine that I am supposed to take when I get the voices back in my head but I couldn't reach it. I am a short person, I am only 5' tall. Oli walked in and grabbed the bottle but wouldn't hand it to me. "What are these for?" he asked concerned, holding the bottle above his head where I couldn't reach. "My medicine now gimme." I answered Jumping up and down trying to grab the bottle. "Shy, my brother is bipolar and depressed and on the same meds as you. This is not a bottle for either of them. Please tell me what they're for." he said, I never knew his brother was bipolar and depressed. "They are for when I get voices inside my head that repeat things people tell me at school. I got them after my third suicide attempt, They stop the voices and I am back to normal. I have to take them with my anti-depressants and bipolar medication. Please give it to me before the voices try to kill me.....again." I said quietly hanging my head. He handed me the bottle and picked me up, he set me on the counter. He set his hands on the counter by both of my thighs and looked me in the eyes. "You may have a mental illness but you shouldn't worry, you have great friends to help you. Your heart is broken but I want to at least try and fix it." He said with hope, I nodded and took all of my meds. Oli had to leave and go home and change and grab his stuff so it was just me. I got changed and grabbed my phone, there was 1 new message from Jake.
J: There are some people that I want you to meet at school today, also we are performing again today so make a set list of 4 songs and a encore song.
I ran to my desk and took out a piece of paper, I wrote down all the songs I wanted to play.
1. Permission by Sixx:A.M
2. Pain by Three Days Grace
3. All Star by Smash Mouth but with a punk twist
4. Come As You Are by Nirvana
Encore. Adam's Song by Blink 182

I put it on a folder I had and took a sharpie and wrote SETS across it. I put it in my backpack and grabbed my phone, I put it in my pocket then I grabbed my stuff and started my walk to school. Half way through the walk Kellin hugged me "I WUV YOU SHY!" I hugged back "I WUV YOU TOO KELWIN!" I yelled back in the same 3 year old voice he used. We pulled back from the hug and started walking to school to see a pouting Mike. "I couldn't find you so I worried and took the shortcut to school." he said looking down. I ran up to him and hugged him "Mike, it's okay. I understand, you worry because you care and that is what makes me smile at the end of the day. Knowing how much all you guys care makes me happy." I said as his hugged me tighter. "HEY LOOK ITS SHY THE SLUT! HUGGING ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR FUCK BUDDIES HUH?!" Tony yelled walking towards us. Soon Oli was standing to Mike's Right and Jake was standing to Mike's left. I was crying into a guys chest, I saw him at the performance yesterday so I didn't care. They were all taller than Tony so you could see his face go pale. "DO you have something to say to our friend Shy, Perry?" Mike growled at him. "Yes I do, Shy is a fucking slut and she needs to-" he was cut of with a punch to the jaw from Oli. "Leave her the fuck alone." he hissed at Tony. I looked at Tony and he looked at me, the grip on the guys arms got tighter around me because he was trying to protect me. Tony walked towards us, "Shy you are a Fat, Ugly, Worthless, slut that nobody cares about. You should slit your wrist and die." Then Mike and Oli came over and pulled him away from us. They all started punching him while the guy carried me to the forest and we sat down on the building while I cried onto his chest. "Shh, everything will be alright. Jake is my friend so I know he will defend anybody he loves. He can pack a punch so you should be fine, that guy will never fuck with you again." he said rubbing circles in my back.

I calmed down when a kid with red hair climbed up onto the building and sat down in front of me. "Are you okay? He didn't hurt did he?" he asked concerned. "Not physically but he hurt me verbally and mentally. I had to take medication before for voices inside my head that made me commit suicide but my friend saved me, they came back after all the things he said to me yesterday. He has been calling me ugly, fat, worthless, slut, and whore." I said looking down. He lifted my chin with his finger. "Well now he won't be able to say those things for at least 4 hours. Jake and those other guys knocked him out, leaving him with a probably fractured nose and some broken ribs. He was taken to the nurse but they don't care about fighting at our school so he will stay there till he wakes up." he said while both guys group hugged me. "By the way my name is Kyle." the one with red hair said. "And the guy that let you cry into his chest is Max." "Thanks guys." I said smiling for real. "No problem but we kind of need to set up for the show since you kind of cried for 2 hours." Max said. "FUCK, I didn't notice the time, thank god Mrs.Wolf loves me so I assumed you told her I won't be at school today." I said pointing towards Kyle. He nodded "She said not to believe a thing Tony said because it is not true and she hopes you can get back on track, and to take all the time you need." he said, I got up and hugged him, "Thanks Kyle, Now let us go to my house." they looked at me confused. "I have my guitars, a drum set, a bass, and a microphone. My mom makes a lot of money but is also always on business trips. She let's me buy whatever I need and when she gets back tomorrow she is calling a contractor to turn our basement into a studio." I said as their jaws dropped. I closed both of their moths with my fingers. "Keep your mouth open too long and you will start catching flies." I said smirking and walking down the staircase that I never noticed. We walked to my place and got a giant cart.

We put everything we needed on it and I grabbed the SETS folder. Apparently if I ever paid attention there was a concrete path to the building and also a ramp that went up the side of the building. We set everything up when Jake finally arrived his nose was bleeding and so was his lip. "Come on, we need to go clean you up before the show." I said grabbing his hand. We walked to my house and went straight to the bathroom and he jumped up on the counter, I grabbed a thing to stop nose bleeds and put it in the side of his nose that was bleeding. I grabbed a cloth and ran it under cold water and wiped his lip of and anywhere else that had blood on it. "Mike and Oli are coming over to get cleaned up too." he said. I grabbed all the supplies I knew they would need when they walked in, Jake jumped off the counter and Mike took Jake's place. He had a black eye and a busted lip. I wiped his lip off with the cloth, I grabbed one of the ice packs I had prepared and put up to his eye. At first he winced but then he stopped. Next was Oli, he had a cut on his cheek, "Jake accidentally cut me with his studded bracelet." he said. "I am sorry man, I should have taken it off but I was to concentrated on kicking his ass." "It's fine. We all got what we wanted and that was Tony got his ass kicked." Oli said smiling. I wiped off the blood then put some Hydrogen Peroxide on it, he winced but didn't cause a scene. I put a bandage over it, "Alright you guys are all fixed, now me and Jake have to perform and you guys can watch." I said grabbing Jake's hand and running to the building and running up the stair to the roof. I picked up my guitar, Jake grabbed his drum sticks, Kyle picked up the bass, and Max grabbed the other guitar. We all did a sound check type thing and then all of these people arrived. Jake, Max, and Kyle walked up to me, "What should we be called?" Kyle asked knowing we needed a name. "The Fearless Kids because we have no fears." I answered and they all nodded and went back to the places. I ran down the stairs and tapped a girls shoulder, "Can you please start a chant going with the name The Fearless Kids." I asked quickly she nodded and started chanting and everyone joined in as I ran back up the stairs. "HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU GUYS!" I shouted in the mic and everybody went crazy. "The first song we are going to play is Permission by Sixx:A.M. I hope you guys like it." Most of them cheered because they knew the song. We started playing then I started singing.

I apologize
That your memory serves you more than I can now
You'll have to make sense of my life somehow
Yeah, somehow

Well, I close my eyes
Remove each piece of armor one by one
Inhale this moment deep into my lungs
Make amends for all I've done

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal

Well how long have I
Been sitting here, I must have drifted off
I cannot finish any of my thoughts
Forgive me for my wayward shot

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal

I wake up in the morning, and it comes back to you
I breathe in I breathe out, it comes back to you
I stare up at the ceiling, and it comes back to you
I step out my front door, and it comes back to you
The end of my driveway, it comes back to you
Brakelights on the highway, it comes back to you
I could die in Los Angeles.
It would come back to you.

All of my devils, they are free at last, oh
And all my secrets are revealed, yeah
And your permission is all that I,
I need to feel
All of my devils, they are free at last, oh
And all my secrets are revealed, yes they are
And your permission is all that I need.

The went crazy after we finished, we all smiled. "I sang that song in memory of my friend Casey Mason who died of an drug Overdose last year so I am glad that you guys loved it." I said into the mic, I scanned the crowd and saw my mom and friends standing at the back of the crowd. I smiled and we started the next song.

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you'll understand

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know)
I know that you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

The crowd went crazy and some even cheered due to the fact I put feelings into this song. I was happy and we took a quick break so some people could get autographs. We allowed 5 people up to get 1 thing signed. We picked 3 girls and 2 guys. We signed 2 shirts, 1 guitar, and 2 backpacks. They went back into the crowd and we started our next song.

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me,
I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed.
She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her thumb,
In the shape of an "L" on her forehead.

Well, the years start coming and they don't stop coming,
Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running.
Didn't make sense not to live for fun,
Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb.

So much to do, so much to see,
So what's wrong with taking the back streets?
You'll never know if you don't go,
You'll never shine if you don't glow.

Hey now, you're an All Star, get your game on, go play,
Hey now, you're a Rock Star, get the show on, get paid.
And all that glitters is gold,
Only shooting stars break the mold.

It's a cool place and they say it gets colder,
You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older.
But the media men beg to differ,
Judging by the hole in the satellite picture.

The ice we skate is getting pretty thin,
The water's getting warm so you might as well swim.
My world's on fire, how about yours?
That's the way I like it and I'll never get bored.

Hey now, you're an All Star, get your game on, go play,
Hey now, you're a Rock Star, get the show on, get paid.
And all that glitters is gold,
Only shooting stars break the mold.

Now you're a Rock Star!

Hey now, you're an All Star, get your game on, go play,
Hey now, you're a Rock Star, get the show on, get paid.
And all that glitters is gold,
Only shooting stars...

Somebody once asked could I spare some change for gas,
"I need to get myself away from this place."
I said "Yep, what a concept,
I could use a little fuel myself.
And we could all use a little change."

Well, the years start coming and they don't stop coming,
Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running.
Didn't make sense not to live for fun,
Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb.

So much to do, so much to see,
So what's wrong with taking the back streets?
You'll never know if you don't go,
You'll never shine if you don't glow.

Hey now, you're an All Star, get your game on, go play,
Hey now, you're a Rock Star, get the show on, get paid.
And all that glitters is gold,
Only shooting stars break the mold.

And all that glitters is gold,
Only shooting stars break the mold.

Everybody loved it, "I am glad you guys love us, this has been my dream ever since I was 10." I said into the mic smiling. Then we started playing Come As You Are.

Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy.
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late.
Take a rest, as a friend, as an old memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria

Come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend, as an old memoria
Memoria
Memoria
Memoria

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun

Memoria
Memoria
Memoria

Memoria - and I don't have a gun

And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I Don't have a gun
No I Don't have a gun
No I Don't have a gun
No I Don't have a gun

Memoria
Memoria

Everybody cheered and started cheering encore so we played Adam's Song by Blink 182.

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone

They all cheered, we all got up and bowed and they went wild. we grabbed all of our stuff and headed to my house. We placed it all in the basement, "Guys that was awesome, think we should really start writing music." Kyle said. I shook my head and laughed "You guys, we don't need to write music, I've written enough for 3 albums at the least." I said and they all cheered. "YES NOW WE DON"T HAVE TO SPEND TIME BEING BORED WRITING MUSIC! THANK YOU SHY!" they all yelled and I laughed. My mom walked downstairs and I hugged her, "Honey you did an awesome performance. What do you say about me buying you and your band mates a house with a studio built in it?" she asked already knowing the answer "YES!" we all yelled in unison. She laughed "By the way mom this is Jake, Kyle and Max." I said pointing towards each of them. She smiled, "You boys take care of my daughter in LA we don't need her trying to chase a person again and end up falling and twisting her ankle again like that time you chased Mike when you were 13." "MOM SHUT UP!" I squealed as all my friends laughed at the embarrassing memory.

Notes

Just to let you know, Jake cerulli is the one that I will be talking about for the rest of the story. If there is anything to do with heartbreak before his name that means it is Jake Schmitt but otherwise it is Jake Cerulli.