Friendships Never End

I walked off the bus and stood with my back against it, I put a cigarette between my lips and lit it. I inhaled then blew out the smoke, It felt nice even though I shouldn't smoke. After I finished I walked on the bus to the lounge where Jake was. "You do you feel?" "Not any better than earlier. I am even more cold." I felt his forehead and he was burning up. "How are you cold? You're burning up. I think you might have the flu." "If it was the flu I would be throwing up." "actually you don't need to throw up to have the flu." I laid down next to him and he cuddled into my side again. "Jake do not tell anyone but tomorrow me and Ben are going to act like we're dating due to the fact 4-5 people on this bus like and me. Also I know some others, I just want you to know so you don't try to hurt him." I said hoping he wouldn't be pissed. "I totally understand Shy, you have seemed so stressed touring with a ton of guys and maybe that would help you." He said smiling. I smiled back when Vic walked in. "Shy, you are a fucking slut. You go around and have guys sleep in your bunk or you are in their bunk, then you go and lay down next to someone and either cuddle up to them or let them cuddle you. You disgust me." He spat at me. I looked down knowing it was true, I got up and walked off the bus with tears running down my face.

I ran to a drug store and bought razors, then I went to a liquor store and bought 5 bottles of Jack Daniel's with my fake ID. I ran onto the bus ignoring everyone and locked my self in the bathroom. I chugged half of the first bottle letting the whiskey burn my throat then I pulled out the razors. I chugged the rest of the bottle and started making the cuts. 1 for being a slut......20 for being ugly.......50 for all the fighting I cause.......150 because I don't deserve to live. After 150 cuts I had drank 3 out of the 5 bottles of whiskey and there was blood on the floor dripping from my forearms, thighs, and stomach. I started to drink the fourth bottle of whiskey when Oli, Chris, Ricky, Kellin, and Mike broke down the door. My eyes were puffy from crying and blood was dripping from the cuts. Oli and Mike started crying and Kellin took them to the front of the bus. Chris was sad but picked up the bottles, Ricky was on the verge of tears. Then I heard a familiar voice Ben, he had come early to surprise. He walked to the bathroom and tears started to fall down his face. "W-why Shy?" he asked almost sobbing. "Because all I am is a ugly, fat, slut, that is a fucking lost cause. Nobody loves me. All i do is start fighting when I do one thing. I FUCK EVERYTHING UP!" I yelled out as I started sobbing. "Guys can you leave us alone, I know how deal with her in this state." it was Jake. He has seen me like this but last time I didn't drink. That was the second time this has happened but he wasn't there the first. "No I do." now it was Mike. I heard Jake mumble something, "Jake, she has drank like this before. T-t-the last time she did this she tried suicide for an escape for the first time." Mike said while he shut the door. He lifted me up onto the counter "Who said that stuff? Who made you want to do this again?" "Vic he called me a slut and that I sleep with guys then cuddle someone or they cuddle me. I know it's true Mike, I am a slut. I am a fat, ugly, slut, that is just a lost cause and a cry for help." I said crying. "Shhhhh. Calm down Shy. You are none of those, no please let me clean you up. And please don't drink like that again." He said with sadness in his voice. I nodded and he wiped off the blood with a wet cloth. Then he put peroxide on them, I hissed out in pain after he finished. "Jesus, you didn't have to hold in all your pain and hiss at the end." he said chuckling "I know but you kind of spilled to much on the cut and it fucking burns you ass." I said playfully punching his arm. "Ow, that not nice Shy." he said like a little kid. "Grow a pair Michael." I said smirking. He just smirked and bandaged my legs, I jumped of the counter when he slapped my ass. I hit him on his arm hard, "Sorry I kind of still have reflexes from the past." I said looking down. He lifted my chin with his finger, "That is the past Shy, Think about now and the future." he said making me smile. I walked out of the bathroom, "Mikey can you pwease get me some pain killers." I said giving Mike puppy eyes. "Nope, get them yourself lazy ass." he said smirking. My legs hurt like hell but somehow I made it to the kitchen, I grabbed the pills downing them with monster I may have I may not have stolen from Tony's hand. I handed him back his monster and went back to the lounge to see Vic with his head in his hands. I turned around and was about to walk out when Mike grabbed my hand."Shy, you two need to talk this out." He said. "I don't have time, I need to go talk to people that are worried shitless mainly our doctor Kelly and our merch guy Jackson." I ran off the bus straight to the one that held all of our techs, merch people, and our doctor. I knocked on the door and some guy answered, "Hi, I'm Casey PTV's drum tech." he said extending his hand I took it slowly remembering my old friend. "What's wrong?" "Ask Mike about a girl named Casey Mason and you'll understand" I said as he walked off of the bus to the PTV one. I walked on to be engulfed in a hug by Jackson. Then one from Kelly. "Shy, you know you could've hurt yourself drinking all that whiskey with the medication you take for being bipolar." she said informing just like the doctor did 6 years ago. "I know Kells I know." I said walking off to the MIW bus. I knocked on the door and Ricky hugged me tightly, "RICKY SHE STILL NEEDS TO BREATHE!" Chris yelled trying to pry Ricky off of me, "NO I CAN'T IF I DO THIS MIGHT HAPPEN AGAIN!" he yelled as I could feel his tears drip onto my neck. "WELL I WANT TO HUG HER!" Chris yelled biting Ricky who yelped and let go of me. "You guys are so weird." I said shaking my head laughing while Chris hugged me. "Says the one who bit me and Jake last month." He said smirking. "Well you guys took my precious phone." I said biting him in the arm. "OW! Jesus Christ you have a strong bite." He said rubbing his arm. "Well I have to go talk to more peoples so Bye." I said walking of the bus and running to the BMTH bus. I walked on "HONEY I'M HOME!" I yelled as Oli ran up t me and tackled me to the floor hugging me. "OLI GET OFF OF HER OR YOU WILL HURT HER!" some guyed yelled getting Oli off of me and helping me up. "My name is Matt N. Nice to meet the girl Oli talked about for 5 years straight annoying the sit out of us." He said hugging me. "SHUT UP MATT!" Oli yelled smacking him in the back of the head. "Oli Jordan kind of already told me you always would talk about me but no worries." I said smiling he smiled back. "Did you ever talk about me?" He questioned with hope in his voice. "Oh no, I didn't just talk about you. I talked about you, I got a tattoo with the nirvana logo and your name, and I wrote some songs about you too." I said. "LEMME SEE THE TATTOO!" he gushed

Notes

There will be more later maybe.