Wounds of Regret

~Austin's POV~

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All of the guys were standing at stage right. The warm-up act had just left the stage, and the lights had gone off. The crowd was screaming as usual. I move to stand beside Alan as he slid his hand down into mine. I give Alan’s hand a small squeeze, and hand in hand I pull him out on stage. Alan gives me a questioning look, and eventually I unwillingly let go to take my place on stage.

“Are you guys ready to rock?” I shouted out into the microphone as the lights came back up. The horde of fans roar. Without delay, the guys start the first song off the playlist. I honestly don’t care if the crowd sees me constantly sneaking looks at Alan, I was about to do something that would make everything official to the fans anyway.

As the music continued on, I got lost in thought, mindlessly singing the lyrics that are by now second nature. I think about how long of a journey it’s been since that fateful day I walked in on Alan ready to take his own life . I think about what I’m about to do, I know its the right decision. No other decision I’ve ever made had felt more right than this. I look over at Alan again, thinking about just how close I came to losing him about a year ago. I watch as Alan begins jumping around on the stage, seeming happier than he had ever been. I smile to myself as I casually stroll over to where he is.

The song ends as I place my lips onto Alan’s cheek. He gives me another questioning look. I almost laugh out loud, I can’t wait to see his reaction.

“What’s up?” He asks, as I pull him to the front of the stage.

“You’ll see.” I give him a cheeky smile.

I place a hidden kiss behind his ear, turning to look at the rest of my band. They all know what's about to go down, and I watch as they all nod their heads at me in approval. I smile slightly and turn to face the crowd.

“I have some exciting news for all of you in attendance tonight. There’s something I want to ask my bandmate Alan over here.” A few people scream, but the majority of the crowd waits in anticipation, as if they were hanging on my every word.

“This has not been the easiest thing to bring myself to do, so I hope that all of you will take this news well.. but mostly Alan. Just to warn you, this would be the time to take out your phones.” The mass of people yell in agreement, I see the flash of phones light up across the crowd.

“Alan, get over here” I hold my hand out, grabbing Alan as I ignore his questioning looks. The crowd screams. “I understand that the majority of you ship something you all like to call Cashby.” The fangirls all scream. Alan’s eyes widen, looking at me like I was crazy. I just smile. “And luckily,” I continue, not taking my eyes off Alan “You’ll get to witness something special with your own eyes tonight.”

The crowd continues to yell in anticipation, some of the attendees have figured it out and are just awaiting confirmation. I drop down onto one knee, hearing the roars of the crowd reach an all time high.

“Alan Anthony Ashby. You are the love of my life, always have been always will be. Would you do me the pleasure of being my husband?” I pull out a shiny gold band from my pocket, seeing Alan’s eyes get impossible wide. I see him cover his mouth with his hands, a tear escaping his eye. He nods his head like crazy, the crowd goes wild.

“Fuck yeah.” He whispers, too shocked to say much more. I wrap my arms around my now fiance, placing his hand in mine. “Ladies and gentlemen, please allow me to introduce to you my beautiful fiance!”

The crowd gets even crazier, as someone stars chanting “Let’s see Cashby. Let’s see Cashby.” It quickly catches on with the whole crowd. Me and Alan both turn to look at the rest of the band. Aaron and Phil just smile like idiots while Tino just grins and shrugs his shoulders.

“You know they're not gonna take no for an answer.” I whisper in his ear.

“So? Why not give it to them?” He smirks, still trying to wipe some of the tears off his face.

“I guess why not, then?”

Suddenly I lean down towards Alan. My eyes slide shut as our lips make contact. Drowning out the noises of the crowd, I kiss Alan softly, the smile never leaving my face. The crowd screams as loud as ever, and hundreds of phones flash to capture the moment. After a few minutes I break the kiss, not taking my eyes off Alan. I love him so much.

I watch Alan reach for the mic.. “Well, I guess we should give you guys the rest of the show now.” He laughs. I place a quick kiss on Alan’s cheek as he goes to pick up his guitar.

“I suppose we should. Don’t you guys think so?” I yell out to the crowd. The crowd goes crazy once again as the music for the next song begins.

Notes

Holy crap last chapter! I wanted to say thank you to everyone who commented/rated ect. I couldn't have finished it without you.. I hope you all enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing.. Also I have a few other fics I'm working on if you guys want to check them out! Cheers~