I Only Do This For You To See

"Alan I should have known." Aaron stated, shaking his head.

"Look man, I'm sorry. I saw her in the park and I kinda just started talking to her. No harm no foul? Right?" Alan said, raising his arms in defense.




But yet here I was confused. How did everyone know each other? Why was everyone in this loop, and I was just merely an outsider looking in.




I began contemplating what really just happened. I mean the adrenaline from out running the cops was exciting, but was it smart? Probably not. I was so stupid. It's not that I'm scared of the consequences of them finding us. What I'm really upset about is, I slept with this kid. Why would I do that? I hardly know him. I found out his name then thought it was okay to just fuck him. She in all actuality That was a dumb thing to do.




"Jade, what were you guys doing?" Dotty asked me, worried. I saw red and blue lights flashing outside, and chuckled to myself.


"Well if I'm correct the cops caught up to us, and they're about to knock in 3... 2..." And as if on cue, the police officers knocked on their door.

"Alan. Come with me. Dotty, Aaron if they ask we are not here. And you do not know us." I stated grabbing his hand and hurrying down to my room.





I let go of his hand and shoved him into my room while I listened from the door. A conversation that consisted of "did you see these two kids?" Blah blah blah. I laughed and shut the door. Turning around and bumping right into Alan.




"Woah there tiger. Standing a little close." I laughed, easing by him.

"Sorry." He states quietly.

"Everything okay?" I question, turning back and looking at him.

"I just don't know. I'm sorry if I'm weirding you out. I don't mean too, I'm just not in the right place right now." He states rubbing his jawline.

"You wanna talk about it?" I question after a few moments of silence.

"You really wanna know about my fucked up life?" He asks harshly.

"Well I can already tell you suffer from the same things that I do. Depression, and I saw your scars in the park." I state, and he nervously pulls on his sleeves.

"You don't need to hide that. You are a fighter. Those are simply battle scars, embrace them. Wear them like it's your favorite shirt." I tell him, but yet I myself have problems with showing my own scars.

"I just don't feel good enough." He says lowly.

"Alan?" I speak.

"Yes jade?" He says back.

"Remember how you said you wanted to make me feel beautiful?" I ask, and he nods.

"Well you're beautiful, and I'll do everything I can to show you that. If you're going to take the time to try and help a perfectly unknown stranger, I should do the same."

Notes

Please enjoy the update! I know it's been a while. And I know it's kind of short, but I'm not sure where I want the story to go.

But!

If any of you are ashamed of your scars.... Please don't be you are all so beautiful. Even if I have never met you, you are truly beautiful. Your scars are what separate you from the rest, they make you unique. And you should wear them proudly. It took me a very long time to do that, but I feel better about myself now that I do embrace them. And if you ever need to talk I'm always here,please message me.


I love you guys so much.


Stephanie <3