Alan:
I ran to the bathroom and had barely closed the door behind me when I threw up in the toilet. After about a minute, my stomach had completely emptied itself, so I placed my forehead on my arms, my face still above the toilet. I sat there and I cried. I cried until I threw up again, then sat there and cried more.

"Al?" a soft voice called from the other side of the door.

"What?" I moaned.

"You ok?"

"No."

Austin slipped in the bathroom and knelt down next to me. "We need to talk."

I groaned into the toilet. "I'm sick."

"You're drunk and stupid," he sighed.

"It's not fair," I choked out before more tears came.

"Aw c'mon Al, you can't do this to yourself." Austin rubbed my back.

"After everything, I was ok because I figured she didn't want anyone. But now?" I shuddered.

"Come here, little ginger." Austin hugged me tight. "You love her, don't you?"

I nodded. I loved her more than she could even imagine.

"Then stop being a dick to her, and for the love of god, stop drinking." Austin chuckled slightly. "You're a real ass when your drunk."

I stuck my tongue out at him. "Whatever. I'm going to bed."

"I'm going to hide all the alcohol!" Austin called as I went to my bunk.

I rolled my eyes. Just stop drinking. I can do this. Then I can tell her. Fuck, I'm a mess. I had screwed up everything. There was no way Silver would ever forgive me. I still felt tipsy as I closed my eyes. I remembered when we'd first met, and every time I made her smile. I remembered what it felt like to fall for her. I fell so hard, so fast, I wasn't sure what to do with myself. Seeing her with Aaron just brought back all the jealousy and sadness from when she told me she "doesn't do serious" and "everything between us is just casual" when I saw her stepping out of a different bus every morning.

I sighed. I was in for a long night.

Notes

Feel better knowing Alan isn't just a jerk? Lol, and sorry about the other chapters being weird, the site isn't letting me get back on to edit 4 or 5 so there are some issues that I can't fix with them, but they're minor. I hope you guys like this! Feedback is always apperciated, even if it's just to vent your anger at a charecter lol. Enjoy!