When Life Gives You Lemons

It was a beautiful day out in sunny California. The sun shinned through the car window leaving a tiny glare. It was silent in Jordan's 2014 Mercedes Benz except for the low volumed Motley Crue that floated through the speakers. I looked out the window and noticed that we seemed to be in the middle of nowhere, literally.

"Do you know where you're going?" I questioned as I watched the scenery go by.

"Yes Nate!" He grumbled lowly. I'm guessing that I'm irkng his nerves but then again when do I not irk peoples nerves. "We are going to..." Jordan paused tumbling with some papers "We are going to......um"

I rolled my eyes. Leave it to Fish to not know where we are going. I sigh lightly "We're going to Post Ranch Inn" I let out a chuckle" such a dumbass"

Post Ranch Inn is a resort in See Mar, California . Oliver has planned to bring Brandon here for what he says is their first proper date. But I'm not an idiot, I know the real reason he's bringing him here is so that he can fuck Brandon to the moon and back.

"Well if you where we were going then why did you ask?"

"Because I wanted to see how dumb you really were." I joked earning a glare from the older man. I smirked "You're dumber than what I thought."

"You're stupider than me because isn't even a word." He chorted quite smugly."So whose stupider now?" I stifle a laugh and he shoots me a confused look before returning his gaze back to the road "What?"

"You're an complete idiot that's what. It's stupider that's not a word, dumber is in fact a word." He frowned and I let out a laugh that I tried so hard to supress."It's okay that you're stupid."

"I'm not stupid" He shouts in defense

"Yes, yes you in fact are"

He glares at me "Am not"

I push his head forward so that his eyes were back on the road. "Keep your eyes on the road.I refuse to die in a car with a fish." I look over at Jordan to see a slight smirk on his face. I bit my lip before returning my gaze out the window. " You are the one who didn't even know the name of the place that you're driving too."

"It's a common mishap"He groans "It can happen"

"Yeah it can." I throw him a lopsided grin " Especially to dummies like you."

He smiles at me and shakes his head " You know I can never win with you."

"Yeah..........but you can never lose either."

He smirks "That sounded so sexual."

I shrug y shoulders "Or maybe you just want it to sound sexual."

"Maybe..." He lets out a little laugh "I won't deny that theory."

With those few words I felt my stomach fill with a million butterflies. All of them happily flapping their wings around in my tummy. I could not help but to stare at the boy. I don't know when I started to feel this way around Jordan, it just sort of happened. One day something changed and I began to notice everything about him. Like how his brown hair was always styled perfectly on his head or the way his beautiful deep brown eyes sparkled. He is a gorgeous man and if I didn't notice it before I definitely noticed it now.

"Nate......why are you looking at me like that?"

I blinked my eyes as I snapped out of my thoughts" Like what?"

"You looking at me like...."I looked over at him and was meet by his famous smirk "Like you like what you see."

I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks "You wish..."

He parked the car and turned his body to face me "I think I'm om to you."He leaned forward and my heartbeat increased "I think you want my dick."

I laughed awkwardly "T-that's a-absurd" And I mentally smacked myself for sturttering. "I don't want you."

"I don't think it is." By now he was just inches from my face " I think you...."

"Let's go in." I interrupt him before he made me do something that I would regret. I opened my door and hopped out quickly. I turned around to see Jordan still slitting in the car. "Come on fish. We got things to do."

He rolled his eyes but hastily got out of the car. He reached my side and not once did that smug look leave his face. "I'll never drop this you know that right?"

I let out a groan as I pushed open the door "Yeah, of course you won't fish."

We walked up to the front desk. A lady looking to be in her early thirties was talking on the phone and fidgeting with the computer in front of her. She hung up the phone and her long blonde hair went airborne as she swung around to face us.

"Hello, I'm Cathy. How may I help you gentlemen today!"

Jordan threw the lady a charming smile,one that made my insides melt " I made a reservation for Oliver Sykes."

Cathy typed away at her computer before letting out a dramatic gasp "Oh, the luxury homeymoon sweet I see."
She reached behind her grasping a key and handed it to Jordan "By the way..." Her eyes flicked from met to Jordan then back to me. "You guys are cute together."

Did she really just say that? My face started to heat up and I knew I must look like a tomato by now. I let my eyes wonder to the ground in a desperate attempt to hide my flushed face. Jordan's hand wrapped around my torso and he pulled me towards him placing a kiss on my forehead. And if my stomach wasn't queasy before it was now.

"Thank you." Jordan replied

"No problemo!" She nodded at him and then me "Enjoy your stay!"

Jordan flashed her a smile before turning around. He led me out the back door and as soon as we were out of view I punched him in the gut.

"Hey, what was that for?"

I punched him again "For being a douche bag." I pushed him causing the boy to stumble backwards "Why did you kiss me? I didn't want you fish lips on me."

Jordan laughed and my stomach flopped around. A sexy smirk desended on his face. "I think you do want these fish lips on you." I tried to retaliate with my fist but he pinned my arms to the wall behind me. My eyes went wide suprised by the sudden contact. Of course that only caused his grin to get bigger. "Do I make you nervous Nathaniel?"

I gulped "N-no!"

"I don't know.......sounds like I do." I mentally kicked myself for having this horrible stutter. His face inched closer to mine. "I make you nervous."

"You don't make me nervous!" I managed to gasp without a stutter. "Now move."

"Okay."

Then the bastard moved closer to me, now we were barely an inch apart. His lips dangled just above my own. My body started to heat at the contact of his chest with my own. My eyes fluttered closed and I savoured the feeling of his hot breath tickling my skin. My body was tingling now and as soon as I felt like I was going to explode he pulled away.

"Come on.........we got things to do loverboy."

I rolled my eyes at him "You're such a dickface."

"I'm gonna take that as a compliment." He looked at me with that all to popular grin of his "But you know you love me."

I let out a deep grunt in return. I'm sure that if I would have have opened my mouth to speak i would have regreted the words that came out. I'm sure it would have been the honest to God truth and I just can't have him knowing how I truly feel. Oh God, now I'm starting to sound like Brandon.

"And how are you starting to sound like Brandon?" He questioned as he stuck the key into the lock. He turned and looked at me with raised eyebrows "You starting to crush like Brandon aye?"

"Just open the damn dern door Fish!" I demand

He threw his hands up in defeat and turned around. He swung the door open and stepped inside, i followed close behind and let out a gasp at what I saw.

It was even more gorgeous on the inside than the outside. There was a large king sized bed dressed in deep blue colors. A huge leather sofa stood post in the corner of the room.A brick masoned fireplace was postioned in the middle of the right wall. Granite hot tub on the fat side of the room decorated in a eloquent design. But by far the best thing was the oceanfront view. The room cascaded over the ocean allowing just enough salt water air to linger into the room.

"This is beautiful."

"Very...." He agrees. He walks up beside me gazing out the open window also "Oliver has a very romantic side to him."

I gave him a sly smile " Maybe you should take a few pointers from your friend."

"I don't need any pointers for you information." He mumbled while rolling his eyes

"Oh, you don't?" I questioned with evident sarcasm dripping from my voice. ."So where is your girlfriend then?"He scoffed and I laughed "Yeah, you're right girls are eww..........boyfriend then?" He gave me a dumbfounded look opening and closing his mouth repeatedly. I let out a tiny chuckle. " Fish out of water huh?"

From the corner of my eyes I saw him smile and just the sight of it made my heart swell.I grabbed the bag of rose pedals and started to form a heart shave on the bed. A small smile formed across my face, it's really sweet what Oliver's doing for Brandon. I'm happy Brandon has found someone to treat him right. Unlike me he deserves someone who.....

"What about you?" He questioned interrupting my trend of thought.

I turned to him with a raised eyebrow "What about me?" I asked though I had a feeling where this was going.

"I mean you're picking on me about my love life." He took a step towards me and we locked eyes " What about you? What's going on in Nathan's world"

"Nothing'"

"Nothing at all, that's hard to believe." I nodded and a smug smile crept on his face "Oh come on Nate, you have to have some kind of love in your life."

I closed my eyes at the thought "No........I don't believe in love."

Jordan's eyes went wide "How is that possible?"

"It just does not exist."

"So what about what's going on with Oliver and Brandon?" I started back fixing the roses as he talked "You don't believe that what they have is love?"

"Yes, I believe that what they have is love."

He gave me what I believe was the most confused face ever made. " You're making no sense at all."

" Maybe I didn't explain it well enough. I believe that people can have true love." I let out a sad sigh " I just don't believe that I can find true love myself."

"Nathan..." He grabbed my shoulder and turned me so that I was facing him. He looked into my eye searching through them. I was at the verge of tears and I'm sure he could see that. He frowned "Something happened didn't it.....something bad."

Then it happened, I cracked. I dropped to the floor as the tears came falling llike a waterfall. All the pain that i had experienced came crashing back to me. All the harsh words, all the punches, all the kicks. Each and every time I was used against my will. All of it came pounding down on my emotions and it was just to much to handle.

"Hey! Hey! It's okay sweetie." Jordan cooed into my ear. He pulled me towards his chest and I collapsed into his embrace. "It's okay now......everything's okay now."

He rocked me back and forth whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I sobbed into his chest gripping his shirt tightly for dear life. This is what I needed, to just sit and cry my broken heart out and I'm grateful Jordan let me do just that.

I wipped the tears fro,m my eyes " W-we have to f-finish the r-room."

"I'll do it love" He whispered. He placed a gentle, relaxing kiss on my temple. "Just sit right here relax."

I did exactly as I was told.I sat quietly and watched as he finished shaping the roses on the bed into a perfectly shaped heart. He then trailed a path of pedals from the bed to the door and in no time he was done and sitting beside me again.

He opened his arms wide and I gladly fell into his strong sturdy arms. We sat in silence om the balcony but it was a comfortable one. The only sound that could was the waves lapping against the shoreline. The silence was broken by Jordan.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I nibbled on my bottom lip unsure if I wanted to tell him or not. He placed another kiss on my head. " You don't have to tell me.....but helps to talk about things versus keeping them bottled up inside."

I sighed because I knew that he was right "I was in a lot of bad relationships.......three actually" I closed my eyes as the memories came flooding back. "All of them abusive. They would beat and abuse me with words. They spat slur after slur after slur at me. But my last one was by far the worst" I covered my mouth with my hand as a sob came tumbling out. "H-he raped m-me e-every d-day."

"You don't have to keep talking." He mumbled into my hair. "I understand if you want to stop"

"No! No! I can talk!" I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand. "That's why I'm so happy Brandon found Oli. Someone who will treat him right. I deserved the shit I went through but he doesn't."

"Nate don't say something like that." He stated sternly. I looked up and was met by his watering eyes "You're an amazing person with an amazing personality.I don't know why anyone would want to hurt somebody as beautiful as you." I smiled a little at the fact that he had called me beautiful but i didn't interrupt him. "You're sweet and a complete jerk at times but it makes me lobe you even more. Those guys who Mistreated you are obviously insane because I would be honored to be with you."

I allowed what he just said to sink in. He thinks I'm beautiful, he loves me and would be honored to be with me. I turned to look at him, my eyes flicked to his lips and I noticed that he had done the same.

I did what my mind had told me to do, i leaned in and connected our lips. Suprisingly he kissed me back. Our lips moved in unision, almost as if they were one. I straddled him and his arms wrapped around my waist pulling me closer. His tongue rolled across my bottom lip and i gladly allowed him in. My hands meandered through his hair before slotting perfectly around his neck. The kiss was amazing and i never wanted it to end yet he pulled away much to my displeasure.

"We should get going. Oliver will be here soon with Brandon."

I nodded and was about to stand when Jordan stood up himself, bringing me up with him. I wrapped my legs around his lean torso and rested my head on his shoulder.

I don't believe in love, at least that I couldn't obtain it. I was always told that I'm not worthy of it. Either because I was gay or because I was just worthless. I could not count how many times the person I gave my all to had told me I didn't deserve their love. That i was incapable finding love and the sad thing is that I believed them.

But right now, laying in Jordan's arms, all those feelings of self-hatred are staring to evaporate. They're being replaced by a new feeling, a foreign feeling. A feeling that makes butterflies errupt in my stomach and flutter a hundred miles a minute. A feeling that makes my skin heat to a temperature that would give the sun a run for his money. A feeling that makes my heart swell to a point that i think it's going to pop out my chest.

Could I actually be falling in love

In love with a Fish

Notes

Sorry it tool so long and sorry for the grammar errors. Hope you enjoy and I hope you likes the new pov