Was this all fate , or just a terrible nightmare?

Everyone has been freaking train wrecks since the day Chris got shot. The band is Falling apart , Alice does nothing but cry and sulk around the house in Chris' clothes and everyone else is trying to block out their emotions. I'm not one for the whole crying stuff , but I sure did miss Chris. He's like our brother , It's been as of today three months since he's been in that coma. He hasn't changed and we're all losing hope that he won't wake up. Alice and Taylor have been at his bed side every chance they get and I sometimes wonder how long will be drag this on ? We all deep down know that Chris will not wake up. But that tiny slither of hope keeps us going. Kuza has been stepping in for Chris' singing , wise as we played shows. Good thing our fans like Kuza , If they didn't they'd probably tear him apart. We've got some hard core metal ass fans ! As I ponder my thoughts I rest my back on the cold brick wall just outside the hospital. I hold the cigarette between my fingers and raise it to my lips deeply inhaling the familiar thick smoke. That burning sensation in my lungs returns and I feel myself calm down from all the stress. I take a couple more puffs before I realize Ricky was beside me enjoying a cigarette as well. We sat in a comfortable silence with only the wind blowing and the sounds of us blowing out the smoke filled the silence. I looked over Ricky. All black clothing with mostly all his hair in his beanie. His guyliner smudged around his eyes. "Why are you out here Ry?" He questioned sounding concerned and I huffed loudly in annoyance. "Alice doesn't want me up there because I told her that Chris isn't coming back. It's been three months. . He's not going to get better. When will she see that???" I questioned slightly annoyed taking another deep drag of my Cigarette finally hitting the end and dropping it to the ground just to crush it under my foot . He bit down on his lip ring hard as he thought of what to say. "I know what you mean. .. but I mean we all know Chris , he'd never want to stay in a vegetable state. He'd want us to ... ya know. ." He rambled before I silenced him with a hand in the air. "Yea. . I know but Only Balz has that right. Do you think we should talk to him ? " I questioned as he took another long drag and drop the cigarette on the ground and crushing it under his foot. "Yea.. I don't know how Alice is going to take this. .. Should we tell her ?" He asked and I shook my head frantically. "She's already pregnant and pissed ... I'm not trying to get ripped apart. But I think this is best for Chris to be free. I just have a feeling that he'd hate to continously be in this state. " I mumbled and he nodded in agreement. We both walked back to the room too see Balz talking to Chris. We walked in and Knocked slightly on the door and Balz quickly wiped away his tears and sniffled loudly and looked up at us with puffy red eyes. He was never the one to cry but Chris was like his brother , I know it hurts to see him like this. We sat beside him as ricky gave me a comforting pat on the back. "You okay Balz?" He questioned sounding concerned and he softly nodded still sniffling. I could see tears falling down his cheeks even though he hid his face from us. "I .. I just hate seeing him like this. I know he'd hate to stay in this state. He's always been filled with so much life and he's suffering so much right now..." he whimpered pouting his head and crying louder. We comforted him amd ricky looked at me and gave me that 'say it' nod and I breathed loudly in acceptance. "Balz.. Have you thought of setting him free? I mean we all know Chris and he'd never want this ongoing state. " I whispered and he quickly turned around and looked at us . "Yes... I've thought of it . Do .... do you guys think I should do it ?" He questioned sounding broken. My heart stopped a little. .. his voice was so broken and off and I looked at Ricky then him again. We both nodded and I looked at Chris. His feeding tube shoved down his throat , needles in his arms and he was abnormally skinny , his hair was fully brown , he'd never have makeup on anymore and the only thing we've ever heard is the continous slow heart beat of Chris' heart monitor. "Yes Balz ... I think it's time . We all love Chris but .... It's time to let him go . " I whispered and he quickly changed emotions and whimpered slightly before looking back at Chris. As if on cue the doctor came in and examined and filled Chris' medicine bags . We all stiffened when Balz spoke up. "Doctor . Roberts .... I'd like to sign the papers to ..... Pull the plug. " he confessed to the Doctor and the doctor turned to him and gave him a saddened expression. "Are you sure about this Mr. Joshua ? Once the plug is removed there is no turning back. ... " he confessed and we all looked at eachother. "What's his chance of waking up ?" He questioned sounding concerned. The doctor looked at Chris then swallowed nervously. "Well ... He's technically brain dead ... his chance is slim to none. " he confessed sounding sad and I heard Balz gasp. He hung his head low and pouted slightly as Ricky tugged his piercing between his teeth. "I think. .. we need to decide this as a band. " he mumbled Averting our gaze and the doctor nodded and left the room . Balz texted Devin and Brandon and 10 minutes later they came in with saddened expressions. We all sat down awkwardly waiting on each other to speak. We all occasionally glanced at Chris then at eachother. "I know why we're here .... I think you guys are right ." Devin whispered and we all looked at him surprised. He was always the most stern one in the group and we all nodded . "Balz .... we know Chris is suffering .. dude . Put him out his misery. " I begged wiping away tears I didn't know I had. He stiffened and bit down on his lip nervously. As if on cue the doctor came in ... "What's your Decision ? .. Looks as though you've already made up your mind. The lease for his breathing respirator ends today , you can either Renew it or End it today. .." he uttered awkwardly waiting on our answer. Balz got up and rested a hand on Chris' shoulder and lightly squeezed silently looking up at the doctor. "Pull the plug. .. " he whispered and we all got up and rested our hands on one of Chris' limbs. "You'll always be our Front man Motionless " Ricky uttered apologetically inching away as the doctor inched his hand around the plug of Chris' respirator. " You were like a brother ... no fuck that ,... you are my brother" Balz whimpered lowly . "Best guy I've ever known. . " Brandon whispered and hung his head low. "You were always the tall ass kid in this group of freaks .. I hope you Rock out in the clouds with Mitch and Paul Grey " I whispered and everyone strained out a chuckle. Devin remained quiet as The doctor began tugging on the plug. Just as the plug was removed Devin lunged at little towards Chris and opened his mouth as if he was about to say something. As I rested my palm on Chris' leg , I could feel it stiffen and become cold. I looked up at his eyes .. Yet no movement was made. . Then that's when I heard it ... the continous flatline of his heart beat . We all didn't let go of Chris .. in our minds he was still here . I started to reminisce all the things this whole band went through and all the gigs and shows we've played. I could remember when we first did the Video of 'Devil's Night' and Chris was so excited. He kept messing up his makeup and sweat kept making his black hair cling to his face . Or the whole rain scene and he head banged too hard and he slipped in a puddle and ended up knocking Ricky over. I laughed at our memories before a scream pulled me out. We all shot our gaze to the door to see Alice and Taylor. I Almost forgot that Taylor took her to the mall to have a 'Girls day ' to ease all the tension that's been going on . She rushed to Chris, pushing past all of us during the rampage. She screamed loudly with tears streaming down her face. She hugged tightly on to Chris and sobbed into his shoulder. She turned to look at us with an evil eye. "WHAT THE FUCK! WHO DID THIS ?!" She screamed and us throwing her hands up dramatically . Balz went to speak when she slapped him hard across the face . Balz looked stunned as did we , Alice glared at us again and we all took a step back watching Balz clench his jaw. "You ... You took him away. Why ! He would have gotten out of the coma.... WHY ! JUST TELL ME WHY?!" She screamed pointing at Balz. He looked up at her with an expression filled with sadness and mourning but also anger. He grabbed her shoulders as he glare directly into her eyes . "YOU THINK I FUCKING WANTED THIS ?! YOU THINK I FUCKING WANTED TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND BE IN A COMA ?! YOU THINK I ENJOYED HEARING HIM FLAT LINE ?! NO ! I DIDN'T ... YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT HOW I FEEL BECAUSE YOU'RE TOO STUCK UP YOUR OWN ASS TO SEE THAT , WE'RE ALL HURTING. YOU PUSHED US AWAY AND SHUT EVERYONE OUT ! WE NEEDED EACHOTHER BUT YOU DIDN'T CARE ! YOU'RE A SELFISH BITCH BUT WE ALL LOVE YOU . NOW SHUT THE HELL UP AND STOP BLAMING US !!!" He growled and the whole room silenced. The doctor quickly left and everyone sat down , we all mirroed eachother's shocked expressions but Alice looked hurt and scared . She stood up again but this time her voice was cold as ice. "You want to know why I hate you ...?, want to know why I shut everyone out ??? Want to why I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS ??!! IT'S BECAUSE I'M THE REASON FOR THIS ! I'M THE REASON HE'S DEAD ... I'M THE REASON MOTIONLESS IN WHITE IS FALLING APART ! I'M THE ONE WHO RUINED YOU GUYS LIFE ... I FUCKING HATE MYSELF SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T BLINK WITH OUT SEEING CHRIS' BLOOD ON MY HANDS ! I CAN'T SEE A BRIGHT FUTURE WITH MY SON BECAUSE I KNOW CHRIS WON'T BE IN IT .... MY SON WON'T HAVE A FATHER JOSHUA .... SO I'M SOOOO FUCKING SORRY IF I HURT YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS BUT IN ALL HONESTY . ...... FUCK YOU !" She screamed slipping out his grasp and pushing him hard. She started to punch him in the chest and he gripped her wrists harshly. She fought against his grip and we all got up and tried to pull them apart. There was a loud popping noise and suddenly everything stopped. I could feel the liquid seep through the fabric of my vans and we all looked down. "Oh ... Fuck ... ALICE!" Taylor screamed looking down. We all followed her gaze to see that clear liquid was running down her pale thin legs . Her black floral dress was wet at the tips and we all gasped in shock. "The baby. .." she mumbled hanging her head low and we all backed up. Before we could register she gripped her belly and screamed in agony as a contraction ripped though her body.

Notes

Dun dun DDDUUUNNNN ! The end ♥♥ I know that I forgot to say that this was the last chapter but I really hope you guys enjoyed this story. .. I don't know when I'll post a sequel but just that if and when I do post one I hope you guys enjoy it. Well I guess all I can say is YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! I love every single one of you .. all the comments and subscriptions and ratings really made my days. Just know that I love you all.. feel free to check out my other stories!