Was this all fate , or just a terrible nightmare?

It's been a week and I've been freaking out ! I've basically been avoiding Chris and not being as affectionate. How could I tell him ? Every time I try he has a show to do or he's to tired to function from doing a show.
Taylor has been constantly at the hospital but she told me Oliver is awake and she's in his bus. I don't even know if I should tell her. I'm so glad the nurse whispered it to me ..
I'm going insane just thinking about it growing inside me.
"Hey ?! Earth to Alice?!" Ricky exclaimed snapping his fingers in my face and I snapped out my thoughts .
"What?" I questioned looking at him suddenly annoyed.
He seemed taken back at my tone but continues to talk .
"You've been on this couch for an hour straight staring at nothing and mumbling to yourself?! The hell is wrong?!" He exclaimed laughing. I gave a soft fake smile and flicked him off .
He rose his hands up in defense but continued to wait on a reply. His piercing blue eyes looked deep into me.
I groaned loudly and got up and grabbed his wrist and pulled him to the bunks. I'm glad all the guys went out for food because this would have been taken wrong.
He looked confused as he sat down on a bunk looking up at me as I paced back and forth.
"So .. something happened last week ... and I haven't told anyone and I'm freaking the fuck out!" I exclaimed laughing nervously. I paced faster back and forth and I felt him grab my wrist to hold me in place.
I breathed loudly and looked down at him and bit my lip nervously.
"Ricky ... I'm pregnant" I whispered and he gasped loudly and stood up . He was slightly taller than me and he pulled me into a hug before exhaling loudly and pulling away.
"Fuck Alice I thought you were about to say that you were dying or some shit. " he confessed and I gasped in shock.
"really?! I'm freaking out, you dick!" I growled playfully and punched his shoulder. He laughed loudly and pushed me softly back.
"Listen. .. just tell him ! I mean What's the worse that can happen?? Plus you have all these people to support you if you choose to keep or not keep the little sledgehammer " he cooed laughing and I smiled wide.
"You're such a Douchedick. You know that?" I exclaimed laughing and he grinned wide.
"Well, it is my speciality!" He screamed hugging me tight.
"Ahh , crushing me here horror!!" I pouted and he pulled away and ruffled up my hair making it a puffy cotton ball mess . I gasped loudly and growled lowly.
"Oh .. You're gonna get it Richard! NO ONE TOUCHES THE HAIR!" I screamed and his face turned to terror.
"Oh shit .." he mumbled and started running . I quickly ran after him and tackled him and we ended up play fighting on the couch.
I pushed him and we rolled over and I ended up straddling his hips while I tickled him .
"FUCK ! ALICE ! GET THE FUCK OFF ! HAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA" he laughed gripping my hips and trying to pull me off but I locked my legs around his hips .
"WHAT THE FUCK??" Chris screamed behind us making us both jump up. We turned around to see all the guys with food and drinks.
But what mostly scared me was Chris' face . In the month in a half I've known him I've NEVER seen him so pissed off.
We both moved from eachother and I tried to walk up to chris but I could see his fists ball up and I inched away from him .
"Baby .. listen it's not what you think .." I pleaded and he gave me a death glare as all the guys came in and put up the food .
"What exactly is it then?!" He growled and I could see ricky cringe at his tone.
"We were just playing ! CALM DOWN!" I screamed and he dropped the food and stomped toward me. Flashes of my dad beating me flooded my mind and I flinched and cowarded to the floor.
I was waiting on the pain of the abuse to come, but it never did. I hesitantly looked up to see his expression soften and he looked sad.
"Fuck .. Alice I'm sorry. . I didn't. . I mean. . You know I'd never hit you baby . " he pleaded as he pulled me up and pulled me into his chest. I couldn't stop shaking. .
The imagine of my dad kept flashing in my mind and I pulled away from Chris.
I ran outside and faced the bitter cold of the night. I slammed the door shut and paced back and forth trying to push the images of my dad out my head. I couldn't calm down , my heart was racing so I did the only thing that eased me.
I pulled out a cigarette and flamed the tip inhaling deeply. The familiar burning in my throat returned as I blew out a cloud of smoke before taking another deep drag.
After more puffs I crushed the cigarette under my combat boots and shoved the pack back in the back pocket of my shredded skinny jeans and black v neck.
I immediately felt guilty and I held my stomach ... I started to cry and I dropped to my knees.
I ran off to the Bring me the horizon bus and ripped the door open .
I saw Matts and lee and Jordan but no Oliver.
"Where's Oliver?... Where's Taylor??" I questioned them as they all watched tv. They all pointed to the bunks and I ran off still gripping my stomach.
I ripped open the curtain to see Taylor sleeping on Oliver's bare chest. I shook them both away and I pulled Taylor out the bunk and she stumbled to keep up with me as I pulled her out the bus.
"The hell alice??" She screamed hugging herself against the bitter cold.
She noticed my tears and her expression softened.
"What happened??" She questioned. .. pulling me into a hug.
"Me and Chris got in a fight .... I thought he'd hit me so I ran. " I mumbled and she pulled away from me and balled her fists.
"That son of a Bitch! " She screamed and I was taken back by her new badass personality but I tried to keep composure.
"The reason we had a fight because ricky was trying to lighten the mood because I was sad ... I was sad because I told him I was pregnant. ... " I mumbled and her mouth dropped open .
There was a long silence and she gently pressed her hand to my stomach. .
"I'm going to be a aunt??!" She said excitingly and I smiled wide but then something came into my mind. Something that I pushed far into the back of my mind since they day we headed here . I pulled away from her and tears spilled over my cheeks .
She seemed confused.
"What's wrong?" She questioned.
"T-Taylor... my .... my dad raped me that night we left for warped tour .... What if .. What if it's his baby???!!!! " I screamed and I gripped my stomach and before I knew it , Chris came out the darkness with wide eyes.

"WHAT?!" He screamed out shocked.

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