[Alan's POV]

I woke up feeling something heavy on my thigh. I can't move. Then later I realized I was sleeping with somebody else. I can feel her soft body inside my arms. She's too close that I could even felt her heartbeat. And that familiar sweet scents of her was irresistable. I couldn't help myself but snipping her over and over again.

I love being with her, especially at this moment. I won't get tired looking at her every morning. And I think I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with her... no one else but her.

She may not be a perfect woman, but for me she is more than enough to complete my life. I know that there's something in her has changed. But I loke the Sam that she is now. Though sometime she yells at me, it doesn't matter as long as we're both happy being together. She always makes me smile and never failed to amuse me. Although there were times that she was cold and distant, but then out of the blue, she will be all sweet to me. She could be moody at times but I don't care anymore.

But beyond her imperfections, nothing has changed. My feeling's still the same, maybe more. She may not say it verbally but I can feel that she really loves me.

I was in that thought when she suddenly moved.

"Sam.." I tried to wake her up. "Aren't you going to work?"

But no answer from her. "Sam..." I whispered on her ear and then she giggled. "Get up. You'll be late."

She buried her face on my chest and she said, "I'll just rest today, here with you."

I chuckled. "You don't have to skip work to look out for me." No answer. "Sam?" I can hear the light breathing from her and I assume that she fell asleep again.

I took her hand and kissed it. "Sam, will you marry me?" Suddenly I said to her. I know she won't be able to answer as she was sleeping. She wouldn't hear me of course. But I swear, after I got my eyesight again, I will make sure that she will marry me. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep again.


[Phoenix POV]

When I opened my eyes, it was his handsome face that struck me. I can't help but smile. If I will see his face this close every mornings of my life, I'll be contented. If you're wondering where is Lara? Well, she finally went back to Australia right after the incident with Alan. She finally realized that she won't be able to handle the pain of seeing him suffering. She said she will hand him over to me for a while but it won't mean that she already gave up. 'That witch!'

I looked at his face again. "I want to kiss you, Alan." I can't help but mutter.

"I won't say no to that." I was startled when he suddenly spoke. It means he's already awake?

"Good morning sleepy head." He was smiling sheepishly at me.

But when Alan opened his eyes, his smile suddenly left his lips. His eyebrows burrowed making an almost one line.

"Who are you?!" he stood up and yelled.

My jaw dropped, my eyes went big. 'Shit! What's happening?'

"I said who are you?" He yelled at me. "What the hell are you doing in my room and who told you to come in?!"

"I-its me Samantha."

"Are you fucking kidding me?!" I can see his face getting red.

"N-no." my voice cracked. I wanted to cry at that very moment.

He's looking furiously at me. "We both know you're not Samantha!"

My tears finally escaped.

"Y-you can s-see m-me?" I nervously asked him. I can see the madness in his eyes.

"Isn't it obvious?"

I closed my eyes. Wishing this would go away. Hoping that he was only making fun of me. I opened my eyes and he was still looking at me.

"Baby..."

"Don't you ever call me that? You're not my girlfriend!"

I couldn't explain the pain that I felt inside. I wasn't prepared for this. I wanted to disappear.
Then Nana and Austin came rushing in.

"What's happening here?" It was Austin. "Are you guys fighting again?"

"What the hell is that woman doing in my room Austin? Don't tell me this is again one of your stupid games!" He snapped at Austin.

"W-what?!" Austin looked at me.

"He can see me. His eyesight are back" I almost whispered to him.

I can see the surprise on their eyes.

"Austin! get that woman away from me! NOW!" Alan yelled at Austin and pointed at me.

Emotions started to get in and I wanted to cry. This is too much from what I'm expecting. And it hurts so bad.

"Nana, where is Samantha?" he asked Nana. "I wanted to talk to her."

Nana didn't know what to tell him. She is helplessly looking at me but I looked away.

Austin grabbed me away from Alan and hugged me tight. As if he was protecting me from him. With what he did, all the pain crushed my heart and I cried so hard.

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I immediately opened my eyes. My heart was beating so fast that I could hardly breathe. I realized that I'm still in bed.

Then my eyes searched for Alan. He is sleeping peacefully.

It was just a dream.

It felt real.

I can't help but cry. I'm afraid of losing him. I've never been this scared my whole life.

I stood up and carefully went off the bed. Trying not to wake him up.

"Sam?"

I almost jumped in surprise when I heard his voice.

"Sam?" he called again. I fought the urge to look back. I went straight out of his room.
I was looking down and suddenly bumped to a tall guy.

'Shit!'

"Looks like you're still dreaming girlfriend?" he grinned at me.

I immediately wiped the tears on my eyes. "Why the hell are you roaming around?" I scoffed at him.

He laughed and messed my hair.

"Yeah right!" I smack his hands.

He was about to say something but I went inside my room. I hate what I'm feeling right now. I want Alan to be mine but I know I can't...ever. He's Sam's and he loves her. I'm just a voice...nothing else.

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I just finished taking a shower when I heard my cellphone rang. I decided to calm myself and took a warm shower. I need to keep it together until after Alan's operation.

I saw Lorie's name on the screen.

"Hello?"

"Hi Phoenix. It's me." Lorie went back to London after making sure that Alan is ok after his headache incident the other day.

"Thank you for taking care of my son. Because of you, he will finally be able to see again."

I shyly smiled even if she can't see me. "It was his decision to undergo the operation. I just did everything you asked me."

I can hear she laughed. "But you're the reason why he decided to do it. She no longer grumpy. Austin and Nana told me that he is laughing like his old self."

I didn't answer.

"Guess what Phoenix?"

"What?"

"The surgery will be on Saturday. The doctors told me that Alan's body response to the medications are great."

I don't know what to say. Saturday? It's tuesday today. It means I only have 4 days left to be with him. 4 days pretending to be Sam.

"T-that is a...good news!" I tried to sound excited.

"Yeah!" I can imagine her smiling.

But why am I feeling this pain? Why am I feeling sad? I should be happy for so many damn reasons! I can finally go back to my old self. No more pretending. I should be happy for Alan, he can go back doing the things that he loves. His band and music. He can go back to Sam...the real Sam.

Notes

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