A Sequel to an Alan Ashby Fanfiction
Chapter Thirty-Five
Two weeks later
The first two weeks of officially being Alan’s girlfriend had been perfect! It was well worth the wait. It just seemed like we were meant for each other. I had been very happy with myself for ignoring all the awful comments from some of Alan’s fans, but now that the girls had flown back to California, I found that the hateful comments were getting to me more than ever.
I’ve found myself questioning if I really am good enough for Alan. And when I start questioning, the voices will always make their appearance.
No, you’re not good enough! Look at you!
Once Alan finds out how fucked up you are, he’s gonna get rid of you.
Maybe just kill yourself, then you’ll both be happy!
And blah blah blah. The voices sang their usual song but it was getting harder and harder to ignore them. I threw my hands over my head and sighed. I was going to get through this. Alan is the best thing to ever happen to me and I had to just keep on thinking that I was good enough. I can’t let the haters and the voices win this time.
“OI VIC!” I heard Alan run into our room. “How are you still sleeping?? Come on! We have one day off in Phoenix and the guys and I are taking you out!”
In the background I heard one of the guys yell out;
“We’re taking you on a date!”
I laughed and reluctantly got out of bed.
“Alan where are we going?” I yawned.
“Carnival!” He grinned excitedly.
I rummaged through my clothes and decided on my denim shorts and a white tank top with a light beige cardigan and white ballet flats.
I grabbed my make up case and started applying some light make up and mascara. If this was a normal boyfriend who I was going out with I wouldn’t bother with make up but Alan wasn’t a normal boyfriend, if we were out, fans would come up and ask for a photo with me! So I just decided that I should always be make up ready when I’m out because I would really hate for an ugly photo of me to go onto the internet.
Once I had finished my hair and makeup, which I had just made it look sexy and natural, I ran out to the living room to see the boys.
“Finally! She emerges!” Tino joked. I shook my head and laughed as I grabbed my bag and phone and we all headed outside to our taxi.
The first two weeks of officially being Alan’s girlfriend had been perfect! It was well worth the wait. It just seemed like we were meant for each other. I had been very happy with myself for ignoring all the awful comments from some of Alan’s fans, but now that the girls had flown back to California, I found that the hateful comments were getting to me more than ever.
I’ve found myself questioning if I really am good enough for Alan. And when I start questioning, the voices will always make their appearance.
No, you’re not good enough! Look at you!
Once Alan finds out how fucked up you are, he’s gonna get rid of you.
Maybe just kill yourself, then you’ll both be happy!
And blah blah blah. The voices sang their usual song but it was getting harder and harder to ignore them. I threw my hands over my head and sighed. I was going to get through this. Alan is the best thing to ever happen to me and I had to just keep on thinking that I was good enough. I can’t let the haters and the voices win this time.
“OI VIC!” I heard Alan run into our room. “How are you still sleeping?? Come on! We have one day off in Phoenix and the guys and I are taking you out!”
In the background I heard one of the guys yell out;
“We’re taking you on a date!”
I laughed and reluctantly got out of bed.
“Alan where are we going?” I yawned.
“Carnival!” He grinned excitedly.
I rummaged through my clothes and decided on my denim shorts and a white tank top with a light beige cardigan and white ballet flats.
I grabbed my make up case and started applying some light make up and mascara. If this was a normal boyfriend who I was going out with I wouldn’t bother with make up but Alan wasn’t a normal boyfriend, if we were out, fans would come up and ask for a photo with me! So I just decided that I should always be make up ready when I’m out because I would really hate for an ugly photo of me to go onto the internet.
Once I had finished my hair and makeup, which I had just made it look sexy and natural, I ran out to the living room to see the boys.
“Finally! She emerges!” Tino joked. I shook my head and laughed as I grabbed my bag and phone and we all headed outside to our taxi.
Notes
Sorry for the long wait! I just didnt know what to write about now that Alan and Victoria are finally together but i have an idea of what i want to do with the story now!
Duh! cx
9/14/14