We have been in Lauderdale for about half an hour now but we needed to rush to sound check because it was already 4:30pm and the show was at 6pm. The girls and I had decided on me wearing nice black sandals with a tiny tiny wedge, black jeans, a white Of Mice And Men singlet with a shiny tight leather jacket. We did my hair in loose curls everywhere and I applied my make up. I looked freaking hot. I hadn’t looked this good in months!
Jen, Amanda and Anouk made all the guys gather outside my door as they gave me an introduction;
“Are you ready?! Are you ready to witness the hottest thing in this world? Here she is!” Amanda yelled out.
They open the doors and Jen dragged me out and placed me in front of the guys, I suddenly felt very shy being under all of their gazes.
“Lauren I’m leaving you.” Alan murmured, quiet enough for me to not hear him but loud enough for Lauren to hear him.
“WHAT?!” Lauren looked at him, standing in the doorway of their room, which we were only centimetres away from. Alan just stared at Lauren.
“You’re leaving me for HER?” Lauren kept squealing, “FINE! WE’RE DONE! DON’T CALL ME OR TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN!!!” Lauren walked into the bedroom and started packing.
“Okay…” Alan said, still staring at me, I couldn’t help but blush. I hoped that they were breaking up for real though, I hated Lauren and loved Alan.
As we all walked off of the tour, we saw Lauren sitting on her luggage as she waited for her taxi to take her to the airport, I had to hide my laughter as our taxi’s arrived. I saw three and assumed that one was for Lauren until Alan spoke to me;
“I got a separate taxi for the both of us, we need to talk.” Was all he said. Alan gave nothing away, I didn’t know if I was in trouble cause he is technically my boss. Or maybe he wants to be with you? Whispered a hopeful voice. But I doubted it, he just got out of a relationship, admittedly a relationship that lasted a couple of days, but still a relationship. And besides, Lauren probably put him off of women so he’s probably coming out of the closet.
Once we were in the taxi Alan wasted no time and started talking;
“Okay so I never got to tell you this cause I needed it to be kept a secret so I could ditch Lauren, but I was going to get rid of her tonight by having a massive fight with the guys, all staged mind you, and profess my love for Lauren and then be like ‘come on Lauren baby, we’re going, they don’t appreciate me’ and then just ditch her once she was on the plane. But Lauren forced me into a relationship with her with threatening suicide and I was drunk and I was like ‘I don’t want to be responsible for someone’s death!’ but then I realized she wasn’t going to kill herself cause she just wanted to date someone famous, hot, amazing, loving-”
“Get back on track here Alan.” I interrupted before he went on about the qualities he thought he had.
“- Okay but I never wanted to be with Lauren, I want to be with you because I love you and words can’t even describe how perfect you are but then I found out from Oli that you were in the room when Lauren and I… yeah… but that was only cause she got me drunk and I was vulnerable cause you weren’t talking to me after we… yeah… and I know I have fucked up any chance to be with you but I just wanted you to know… I love you, have loved since I first laid eyes on you and will continue to love you forever.”
I just stared at Alan, processing all of this. All I could think was that, Alan was going to be mine! Mine! Mine! Mine! Mine! I needed to snap that thought out of my head, I honestly wanted to be with Alan. I smiled at him, that threw him off! Maybe he was expecting me to go absolutely mental at him.
“I love you too” I grinned.
“REALLY?” Alan blushed, “uh, I mean, oh that’s cool” he erupted in laughter as I playfully hit his arm.
I waited for him to ask me to be his girlfriend because I would’ve like that, but he never asked, we just continued to talk.
Maybe we weren’t getting back together?

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