The Monster That Is Me

Austin:

I ran my hand along her sides, how on earth is her skin so damn soft. I watch her chest rise and fall. I watch her eyes flutter in a dreamless state. I watch everything, I watch everything intensively. I do this every night, it’s became a ritual of mine now.

My hand meandered its way up to her long silky hair. I let my hand run its length down her long, currently straightened silky locks. I’ve always had a bad habit of playing in her hair but since she straightened it just two days ago. Let’s just say that I can get enough of it.

“I catch you doing this a lot.” I looked up to see Phil leaning against the doorframe. “Watching her sleep.”

A smile graced across my face “What can I say? I only sleep about an hour each day so it gives me time to get....” I looked down at the slumbering girl “Lost in her beauty.”

“She is beautiful.” Phil agreed walking into my room and sitting on the bed. I raised an eyebrow at him causing the boy to roll his eyes. “Don’t worry she’s not my type.....” Again, I cocked an eyebrow at Phil. He laughed. “She’s missing a couple key parts don’t ya think...”

“True.....” I chuckled sending a smirk at him “Plus, she’s not a particular Latino male that makes you moan for days now is she?”

“Shit!” He hides his face behind his hair as his skin flushes “You heard that?”

I laugh loudly “I’m pretty sure all of North America heard it.” My favorite Filipino turned an even darker shade of red if that’s even possible. I bit my lip to keep from laughing. “So, I’m guessing it was good then?”

“AMAZING!” He slapped his hand over his mouth. His eyes flickered to Eliza, who seemed unfazed by his rather loud outburst. He sighed in relief. “Yeah! Sex is amazing!” He looked into my eyes with a cocked eyebrow “How about you and Ms. Beautiful then? I don’t hear her moaning your name so you must not be that good.”

I scoffed “You haven’t heard the words of her moan because I haven’t done the do to make her moan.” He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and I groaned. “We haven’t had sex yet you dumbass.”

“How?” It was my turn to knit my eyebrows in confusion. He just looked at me with wide eyes. “The imprintation caused Tino and I to lust each other like there was know tomorrow. We were literally in bed with each other that day.” I grimaced and he rolled his eyes. “What I’m saying is.....it’s been what, four months since you’ve imprinted on her. How in the hell did you push past that desire to fuck her senseless.”

I looked down at her with a clouded mind. Phil has a point, there was a lust when i imprinted. And it’s true that I wanted to show her just how much i loved her in the act of sex but, why haven’t I done it yet. Even Eliza herself has said that she was ready, she too felt the same desire for me that I felt for her. She had, in her own Bathorian way, connected to me. But why haven’t we done it yet? I was smacked in the face with realization. I know exactly why I haven’t done anything. I know exactly why I put a spell on Eliza so that she didn’t feel any lust towards me. I know why.

“Fear....”

Phil glanced at me sideways “Fear......of what exactly?”

“Of hurting her.” I looked down at Eliza letting my thumb trail across her chin “I have so much power in me and I can’t control most of it. I’m afraid that I’m going to hurt her.” I returned my gaze back to Phil who was giving me a sad smile. “I don’t want to get overwhelmed and not be able to control myself. I don’t want to hurt her Phil. I’d rather never do anything with her than to hurt her you know.”

He sighed lightly “ Austin ......you won’t hurt her. If she is who I think she is, then I promise you, you will not hurt her. Well.....” he nodded his head from side to side with a smug grin on his face “Maybe you will, but in a way that will make her moan so the whole universe would hear.”

I snickered a little. I couldn’t help the small smile that developed on my lips as the thought of doing anything remotely sexual with Eliza. My smiled soon reversed when I thought about the consequences of us making love.

“I’ve thought about you know.....if we can stop time simply by kissing each other....” I looked up at my friend with fear and worry “What can we do when we go all the way?”

Phil nodded his head in agreement “That’s something to think about too. But I don’t think you guys would have imprinted on each other if you weren’t suppose to be together and make love. That just doesn’t make since.”

I sighed sadly “So much shit doesn’t make since Phil. So much is....”

“ Austin !” My father came into my room interrupting my sentence. He smiled when he noticed Phil. “Well hello Phil.”

“Hey Arthur.” He smiled brightly. “How are you doing?”

“Good, could be better, but I’m doing fairly well.” My dad looked at me then back at him “Can you give Austin and I some privacy.....I need to talk to him about some things.”

“Sure thing.” Phil stood up off the bed making his way out my room. He glanced over his shoulder at me. “Catch you later Aus.”

I grinned “Later.” I looked at my father with a frown “What is it?”

“It’s about.....her.” He whispered looking at the sleeping girl.

My muscles immediately went rigid “What about her dad?”

“You can’t.....you can’t be around her.”

I groaned. “Dad! Even if I wanted too I can’t help it.....I fucking love her. Why can’t you understand the feelings that I have for her?”

“I completely understand......that’s why I’m telling you this.” I knitted my eyebrows and he just sighed. “Look, this relationship is going to end in tragedy. I know you can sense it Austin, I know you can feel the chill in the air.” He looked at me knowingly “You can feel the danger that’s coming, you know that blood will spilled”

“Yes, I do feel it.” I heave a sad sigh

I can’t deny the overwhelming feeling that danger is lurking. It chills me down to the core. I can feel the pain, I can smell the blood and I can sense the fear. I may not know what exactly it is but I know that it’s coming.”

I tangled my hands in Eliza’s long hair. I watched as she shifted under my grasp. “Dad, I know that blood will spill.” I looked up at him “But when doesn’t it. Blood spills everyday, this time won’t be any different. It’ll be….”

He interrupted me “I’ll be her blood Austin.”

I whipped my head towards my father “W-what?” I maneuvered Eliza off of me and rose off the bed “What….what are you saying?

He took a deep breath “Austin, her blood will spill…….You guys being together is going to end in complete tragedy. People will die…….she will die.”

“She….” I looked at the love of my life, resting peacefully, unfazed by the news of her suppose demise “She can’t die. I can protect her…..I can save her dad.”

“You can’t protect her from The Prophecies Austin.” My father shook his head. He walked towards the door looking back over his shoulder at me. “Just…..if you really care about her, you’d leave her.”

I sat on the edge of the bed resting my head between my head “I can’t just leave her dad. It doesn’t work like that, my body will go into a withdrawal state.”

“Well make her want to leave you Austin. That way it’s because she wants too……and you just want to please her, so your body will allow it.” He walked out my room and I could hear his footsteps down the hall.

I return quietly to my position beside the person I adore most in the world, Eliza Marie Bathory. She’s the apple of my eyes, the center of my heart and the person who clouds my brain. The thought of making her want to leave me kills me. How can I possibly make someone who I am completely in love with hate me? I don’t think I’m capable of doing such a thing.

I watch her as the early morning light hits her eyelids radiating a weird but beautiful blue hue. She seemed so a peace, all her muscles relaxed. A smile graced across her face and I smiled, knowing she was dreaming sweet dreams If only she knew what I know now, maybe she wouldn’t be so serene right now.

This entire time sitting drowned in my thoughts let me realize something that I should have saw a long time ago. Everyone that I’ve ever loved perished. My big sister Abigail, my little brother Andrew and even my sweet mother, all of there blood are on my hands. And now the one and only true love and my life are following the same path.

I can’t let that happen. I’m gonna push her away. With every word that she says, with everything that she does, I’m gonna push her away. I’m gonna make her hate me, as hard as it gonna be on me. As much as it’s going to hurt me, as much as it’s going to ruin me, I’m going to do it. I couldn’t save my family but I’m going to save her from the monster.

The Monster That Is Me

Notes

I really hope you guys are liking my story. I feel it's not as good as it was at the beguinning. =( Maybe it's just me but I still hope you're enjoying it somewhat ^_^