The Monster That Is Me

Night had blanketed the sky when Tino asked if I wanted to go clubbing with him. I declined his offer, I'm not in the mood for going out. Actually to be completely honest, I'm not in the mood for anything.

I feel like utter shit. I hate myself for the way that I've been treating Eliza. My heart breaks every time I see the pain on her face, and the worst part is I can feel her pain as if it was my own. Out emotions are linked together in a way that I can't quite understand. But I understand it enough because every hurtful word I say, every cold shoulder I give, my heart explodes into tiny pieces.

My eyes wonder to the sky above where a million twinkling neon lights hang. I immediately think of my mother. She loved to stargaze.

"And now she's up there with the stars."

And that's when I cracked. The tears that I was doing a wonderful job at keeping in came tumbling down. She would be so upset with me right now. I bet you at this very moment she's rolling around in her grave. I'm a disappointment. I always have been and always will be.

I closed my eyes and let my had drop down. I don't even know why I'm still living right now. I get that I'm part of this so called prophecy buy is it really worth it if i kill everyone that i love.

My eyes open and i look down at the ground and my pupils catch a glimpse of a tiny flower bud popping out the ground. My eyes widen as I watch it grow up and out into a beautiful flower. It's blue pedals spread out wide and it shinned at bright neon. It didn't take me long to realize what type of flower it was. It was a Himalayan Blue Poppy.

"Mom's favorite." I mumbled. I let my finger graze against the soft pedals. "This has to be a coincidence"

I gripped the pedal, about to pull of from the ground when I heard a loud crack. My head shot up and I turned towards the source of the sound " Who's there?"

"Ouch!" I heard a familiar voice shout

"Jaime!" I stared towards the area that I know the voice come from my eyes slowly adjusted to the darkness that surrounded me. Sure enough, I see the spiky hair haired siholutte of a Mexican I grown to know so well. "Jaime.....I know it's you dude."

"See what you did you idiot?" Someone whisper yelled at him. I knew it was Vic. "Now he knows it's us that's going to do it."

"Do what?" I shouted "What are you planning on....."

My question was cut short by someone bombarding me from behind. I went crashing towards the ground landing on my stomach with a groan. I felt sturdy arms wrap around my arms and a linky pair around my legs, Tony and Mike.

I could easily get out of there grasp but they're are my friends. I can read there minds and they aren't out to hurt me. But now I know that Tino truly wanted to get rid of me. I let them pick me up and carry me to the car. They slid me in the back seat and went on their way.


I finally let what just happened sink in. I have been kidnapped, i repeat kidnapped, by four crazy ass Mexicans. Currently I'm sitting on the couch watching the quad run around like idiots. Despite the fact that I am in a terrible mood a small smile began to creep up on my face just at the sit of them.

"Die bitch die!" Jaime screamed as straddled Mike. His hands found their way around his throat and he started to shake him. " I SAID DIE MOTHERFUCKERRR!"

"Alright! Alright!" Mike's hand shot up on defeat "I'm dead Hime! I'm dead okay!"

Vic walked into the room shooting the boys a weird glance "Jaime why did you kill my brother?"

"I duno!" He mumbled. I chuckled a little at his confused face. "But it was a hell of fun!"

"I'm sure it was" the eldest laughed. He handed me a bottle of blood cola before taking a seat next to me. "Now tell me what's on your mind."

I sigh cracking open the can "Eliza and my mom"

"Ahhh!" He mumble taking a sip from his own drink. He starred into my eyes and I could tell that he was filtering through my mind. I guess he had found out all that he needed because he looked away from me and let out a deep breath "Oh Austin.......you don't realize how wrong you are." He chuckled lightly " You're completely wrong. One day you'll realize just how important you are not only to our world but to the mortal world too."

"Yeah right!" I roll my eyes. I crushed the can in my hand and threw it into the trash can "I'll believe it when I see it."

"Austin you are so...." Vic paused. His eyes flicked to a bright orange. He was having a vision of some sort but i couldn't read what he was seeing. His eyes returned to his normal shade of brown and he smiled "Austin you should go home."

"Why?"

His smile got even bigger "It's a surprise...one that will give you peace in mind."

I stood up and made my way to the door. I turned and loomed back at Vic who gave me a reassuring smile. I returned it before shutting the door behind me. I made my way down the stairs and into the nights.

I started off onto a light jog before eventually going into a full sprint. Something felt different about tonight. My skin tingled and my heart felt warm. I don't know exactly why I feel this alive all of a sudden but I know it has something to do with the suprise at home.

I got to the house in no time and didn't hesitate to burst right through the door. I was meet by a mass of people. Two of which I was not familiar with. Although i didn't know them, i could smell their sweet blood from a mile away. It was the same sweet blood that coursed through the veins of the girl I loved. They are relatives of Eliza.

"Eliza!" I yelled. I could feel the anger rising up inside. I told her not to bring her family here. I told her not to for hr own safety and she did it anyway. Eliza walked in and i layed it to her' "What the fuck are they doing her? I thought i told you not to bring them here?"

Her eyes went big "but Austin..."

"Don't but Austin me. I told you not to do something and you did it anyway." I punched the wall causing the a gaping hole to form. "Can you not do anything right, Eliza?"

"Austin stop being a asshole!" Phil stated sternly. I glared at him ans he sent it back " Just let her explain why she did what she did first. You're being unreasonable."

"No what's unreasonable is the fact that she does this behind my back. What's unreasonable is the fact that she didn't think to talk to me first. What's unreasonable is the fact that I fucking imprinted."

"What's that suppose to mean."

I punched the wall again "I WISH I NEVER IMPRINTED THAT'S WHAT IT MEANS!"

As soon as the words left my mouth I immidiatley regreted it. I felt like my heart had been torn to shreds but i knew it wasn't me who felt so heartbroken. It was Eliza. I turned around and looked at her. I watched as tears poured out her eyes like a waterfall. And seeing her made my heart break, but for real this time.

"I didn't know I was such a burden." She whispered. I opened my mouth to speak but she started talking again "I'm sorry."

"Eliza I didn't mean..."

But that's all I got a chance to say before a neon purple orb flashes and she was gone. I starred at the empty space where the love of my life had once occupied.

She really left. I actually managed to make her leave. I thought i would feel happy, she left me. Now she's safe. But instead I felt worthless. I felt like my word had stopped turning, why should keep spinning when the reason for it to rotate had just orbbed out of it's perimeter. She is the blood that runs through my veins. The air that I breathe. The most important person in my life and now she's gone.

"Austin."

My heart stopped at the sound of this voice. This voice laughed at all my jokes. Cheered at all my baseball games. Sung me lullabies when I could't sleep. I hadn't heard this voice in so long because this voice died over ten years ago.

"Mom'"

I turned around and was met by her big brown eyes. Her eyes held so much sadness and something else that I always feared she would have. Disappointment. And something I feared even more, hurt.

I managed to hurt the two people I cared about the most in one day.

I really am a failure

Notes

sorry about the grammar errors, I'm using a tablet to update. I hope you enjoy.