The Calm
Chapter 29
-Scarlett’s POV-
Of Mice and Men cancelled the end of their tour.
I made them fall apart and this is my fault.
I needed to get rid of my computer but I just couldn’t. I needed to stay informed. I still cared. So once again here I am with my daily conflict of to open my laptop up and search Austin’s name or not.
And I’ve clicked search…Austin Carlile and Gielle Hellevig Sex Tape
And I read…it’s current. This just happened. What the hell Austin?
This can’t be happening.
I shouldn’t have left.
Time to get rid of my laptop, as much as I want him, he doesn’t want me.
This was the final straw.
-Austin’s POV-
My phone was blowing up. I had my answer to what Gielle’s point was in drugging me. This was a disaster. I had already explained what happened to my agent and we were just waiting for anything else that would come out of it, and this was it. I would sue her ass but I don’t think she’s coming back into America any time soon. What a fucking bitch.
I was barely keeping myself together. I wanted this all to end, but I knew I had to stay strong. I couldn’t end myself even though that’s all I wanted to do right now. Damn it these thoughts had to get out of my head.
Suddenly, I heard someone come upstairs, I was alone, but if they were coming to kill me so be it.
The ginger hair brought me out of that thought.
“You look like hell.” Alan said.
“Geez I wonder why.” I said.
“Aus, I don’t want you to be alone right now. I know you hate me and all, but the guys told me to leave you be and I didn’t listen. I know you’re not in the best state of mind.” He said, as if he was walking on eggshells with me.
“As much as I want to Alan, I couldn’t kill myself not after everything that I’ve survived.” I said and it was true, I’m here and alive for a reason.
“I’m staying with you.” He said.
“Alright.” Was all that I said.
We ended up talking and he helped me unpack and clean up. I felt like he was doing it to prove he wasn’t that much of an asshole and he felt bad. We talked about a huge decision, and both of us felt that it was time to do this, so we called the guys over.
“What’s going on you two?” asked Phil.
“I have an uneasy feeling about this.” Tino said.
“Quit stalling at spit it out please.” Aaron spoke as well.
“Austin and I have decided that it would be in the band’s current and best interest to take a break.” Alan spoke for me, which kind of took me back.
They all looked shocked as to what just came out of Alan’s mouth, hell I hated it but this was for the best.
“How long? Will we ever get back together or is this one of those things where it’s like we are taking a break and we never get back together?” Tino asked.
“A year break, a year in studio possibly if you guys would want that. That means two years until we would tour again. Again that’s if you guys would agree to this. We would have a meeting and sign a contract, just so everything would be on good terms.” I said.
They were in disbelief. Hell I was to that these words were coming out of my mouth.
“I agree to this. It’s for the best right?” Phil said and I nodded yes.
“Amanda and I could plan our wedding finally…so I guess I’m in” Aaron said.
“I know Aaron you just got into this band not that long ago and we are doing this I’m so sorry.” I said.
“No don’t be, all this touring has caught up with me anyway.” He replied with.
We all looked to Tino.
“In the years that I’ve known you Carlile, you’ve never wanted to disappoint your fans. I know that you’re going through shit and you don’t want to bring us down, but this is too far. A couple months off would be fine. You could get over her by then both of you could. Sorry, but some girl shouldn’t be the cause of this.” He said harshly.
I balled my fists; Tino has never been this type of guy, why the hell did he decide to act like this now?
“Why are you being a dick man?” Phil said.
“This is all because of Scarlett, and now because of Gielle again. He wanted to quit the band after his divorce with her Phil don’t you remember? We told him no, that he had to keep going and it worked out in the long run. This is the same thing all over again. We make a good amount of money, but it doesn’t fucking cut it. Don’t you realize how much money we will lose after two years? Will fans even remember us then? Will they even want us back? That’s too many goddamn variables that I don’t wish to live off of. Jen doesn’t have a job that supports her well, and she sure as hell doesn’t need to be helping me when my money runs out. I pay her health insurance, this isn’t just an oh let’s stop my income thing. I don’t just have me to think about like you two assholes do!” Tino said, some of those words stung. I understood where he was coming from, but he doesn’t know my thoughts.
“Tino do you not get it? If Austin doesn’t get his shit together soon, the man is thinking about killing himself. I’m sorry Austin, but they deserve to know. If I didn’t come and talk to him today you fuckers might not even have a lead for your band!” Alan yelled at him.
That was when something inside of me snapped, further then it had ever before. I was punching Tino, getting pulled off by Aaron and Phil, and then I just collapsed and started crying. The full breakdown had finally happened.
-Alan’s POV-
I watched Austin lose it. I was just waiting for it to unfold and I hated that my words caused it. He was now crying with Aaron and Phil holding him, as he collapsed in their arms. We were all like brothers so this killed us all to see Austin this way. He just kept crying to the point where he started shaking. Minutes turned to hours and none of us knew what to do.
Anouk and Amanda had come over. Hoping they could do something, but they failed. I saw their hearts break as they just watch their guys try to help him. I was paralyzed. Anouk saw and came to hug me; well she ended up just holding on to me. My best friend from forever, Ashley arrived and she tried to get me to move. Eventually she walked me to a guest room and had me sit as she clung to me.
Gielle got the final blow, she’s the one who broke him and caused these crazy thoughts to swirl his mind.
The guys didn’t know what to do. They knew this wasn’t good for his heart. So Anouk suggested that he needed to be in professional care.
I heard those words escape her lips, and a tear came out of my eye.
He needed help and badly. From the depression, withdrawal, irritability, crying, feeling alone, and just how he wasn’t himself…I knew that he needed help real help.
Soon they were taking him to a hospital. I didn’t give any shits that this would go public fast. Ashley helped me call our agent; Aaron had to end up explaining. We were all so shaken up.
I feared that this would be the end of the band that Austin had worked so hard for.
Was Of Mice and Men over?
Of Mice and Men cancelled the end of their tour.
I made them fall apart and this is my fault.
I needed to get rid of my computer but I just couldn’t. I needed to stay informed. I still cared. So once again here I am with my daily conflict of to open my laptop up and search Austin’s name or not.
And I’ve clicked search…Austin Carlile and Gielle Hellevig Sex Tape
And I read…it’s current. This just happened. What the hell Austin?
This can’t be happening.
I shouldn’t have left.
Time to get rid of my laptop, as much as I want him, he doesn’t want me.
This was the final straw.
-Austin’s POV-
My phone was blowing up. I had my answer to what Gielle’s point was in drugging me. This was a disaster. I had already explained what happened to my agent and we were just waiting for anything else that would come out of it, and this was it. I would sue her ass but I don’t think she’s coming back into America any time soon. What a fucking bitch.
I was barely keeping myself together. I wanted this all to end, but I knew I had to stay strong. I couldn’t end myself even though that’s all I wanted to do right now. Damn it these thoughts had to get out of my head.
Suddenly, I heard someone come upstairs, I was alone, but if they were coming to kill me so be it.
The ginger hair brought me out of that thought.
“You look like hell.” Alan said.
“Geez I wonder why.” I said.
“Aus, I don’t want you to be alone right now. I know you hate me and all, but the guys told me to leave you be and I didn’t listen. I know you’re not in the best state of mind.” He said, as if he was walking on eggshells with me.
“As much as I want to Alan, I couldn’t kill myself not after everything that I’ve survived.” I said and it was true, I’m here and alive for a reason.
“I’m staying with you.” He said.
“Alright.” Was all that I said.
We ended up talking and he helped me unpack and clean up. I felt like he was doing it to prove he wasn’t that much of an asshole and he felt bad. We talked about a huge decision, and both of us felt that it was time to do this, so we called the guys over.
“What’s going on you two?” asked Phil.
“I have an uneasy feeling about this.” Tino said.
“Quit stalling at spit it out please.” Aaron spoke as well.
“Austin and I have decided that it would be in the band’s current and best interest to take a break.” Alan spoke for me, which kind of took me back.
They all looked shocked as to what just came out of Alan’s mouth, hell I hated it but this was for the best.
“How long? Will we ever get back together or is this one of those things where it’s like we are taking a break and we never get back together?” Tino asked.
“A year break, a year in studio possibly if you guys would want that. That means two years until we would tour again. Again that’s if you guys would agree to this. We would have a meeting and sign a contract, just so everything would be on good terms.” I said.
They were in disbelief. Hell I was to that these words were coming out of my mouth.
“I agree to this. It’s for the best right?” Phil said and I nodded yes.
“Amanda and I could plan our wedding finally…so I guess I’m in” Aaron said.
“I know Aaron you just got into this band not that long ago and we are doing this I’m so sorry.” I said.
“No don’t be, all this touring has caught up with me anyway.” He replied with.
We all looked to Tino.
“In the years that I’ve known you Carlile, you’ve never wanted to disappoint your fans. I know that you’re going through shit and you don’t want to bring us down, but this is too far. A couple months off would be fine. You could get over her by then both of you could. Sorry, but some girl shouldn’t be the cause of this.” He said harshly.
I balled my fists; Tino has never been this type of guy, why the hell did he decide to act like this now?
“Why are you being a dick man?” Phil said.
“This is all because of Scarlett, and now because of Gielle again. He wanted to quit the band after his divorce with her Phil don’t you remember? We told him no, that he had to keep going and it worked out in the long run. This is the same thing all over again. We make a good amount of money, but it doesn’t fucking cut it. Don’t you realize how much money we will lose after two years? Will fans even remember us then? Will they even want us back? That’s too many goddamn variables that I don’t wish to live off of. Jen doesn’t have a job that supports her well, and she sure as hell doesn’t need to be helping me when my money runs out. I pay her health insurance, this isn’t just an oh let’s stop my income thing. I don’t just have me to think about like you two assholes do!” Tino said, some of those words stung. I understood where he was coming from, but he doesn’t know my thoughts.
“Tino do you not get it? If Austin doesn’t get his shit together soon, the man is thinking about killing himself. I’m sorry Austin, but they deserve to know. If I didn’t come and talk to him today you fuckers might not even have a lead for your band!” Alan yelled at him.
That was when something inside of me snapped, further then it had ever before. I was punching Tino, getting pulled off by Aaron and Phil, and then I just collapsed and started crying. The full breakdown had finally happened.
-Alan’s POV-
I watched Austin lose it. I was just waiting for it to unfold and I hated that my words caused it. He was now crying with Aaron and Phil holding him, as he collapsed in their arms. We were all like brothers so this killed us all to see Austin this way. He just kept crying to the point where he started shaking. Minutes turned to hours and none of us knew what to do.
Anouk and Amanda had come over. Hoping they could do something, but they failed. I saw their hearts break as they just watch their guys try to help him. I was paralyzed. Anouk saw and came to hug me; well she ended up just holding on to me. My best friend from forever, Ashley arrived and she tried to get me to move. Eventually she walked me to a guest room and had me sit as she clung to me.
Gielle got the final blow, she’s the one who broke him and caused these crazy thoughts to swirl his mind.
The guys didn’t know what to do. They knew this wasn’t good for his heart. So Anouk suggested that he needed to be in professional care.
I heard those words escape her lips, and a tear came out of my eye.
He needed help and badly. From the depression, withdrawal, irritability, crying, feeling alone, and just how he wasn’t himself…I knew that he needed help real help.
Soon they were taking him to a hospital. I didn’t give any shits that this would go public fast. Ashley helped me call our agent; Aaron had to end up explaining. We were all so shaken up.
I feared that this would be the end of the band that Austin had worked so hard for.
Was Of Mice and Men over?
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