The Ginger Prince & Princess Leia

Robbie came up behind me squeezing my shoulders as we prepared to go onstage.
“You got this.” I turned to look at him, more nervous than usual today. “No really, you’ve got this, they love you.” Taking a deep breath I nodded and watched as he ran on stage. The crowd roared as usual when the boys came on. Ian was behind him and Cam followed quickly slapping me on the ass as he went.
I made a mental note to slap him later and bounced a few times before taking the stage. “Hello Milwaukee! I’m Kayla and we’re Dancing On Tables!”
The screams got louder and I smiled brightly turning to the guys. Robbie winked at me with a grin.
“Are you excited?” I looked over at Ian and he nodded, so I started the set. “Alright this first one is called ‘Having too much fun.’”
Halfway through the song I turned and noticed Alan, Aaron and Tino standing side stage. I gave them a peace sign and Alan blew me a kiss. It was crazy to think about having three members of Of Mice and Men head banging to my music.
Towards the end of our set I motioned for Ian to meet me at Robbie’s Drum riser, at the end of the song we were doing he headed that way and we left Cammie to deal with the audience,he was always good with fans so I wasn’t worried.
“What’s up?” Ian asked his dark hair plastered to his forehead.
“I want to do Once.” Robbie had bent down to listen to us and shook his head.
“Are you sure?” He looked worried and I nodded swallowing the lump in my throat. “It’s not the smartest decision we all know how you are about that song.”
Once Again was a song I had written about my ex-boyfriend, Jason, who was abusive and had me wrapped around his finger, singing it usually brought back memories of him and caused me to go into panic attacks.
“I want to do it.” My tone must have sounded more confident than I felt because they nodded. Robbie jumped down and wandered over to Cameron. “Alright guys, we’re going to go Acoustic for this last one so everyone give a round of applause for Robbie and Cameron!”
The crowd roared and they both bowed, one of my brothers drumsticks went flying into the audience followed by Cameron’s pick.
Ian had set up his Acoustic and pulled over a stool for both of us. When the crowd had quieted I adjusted my mic stand and sat down.
“This one’s dedicated to my ex and it’s called ‘Once Again.’”
While the intro played I looked over to see John yelling at Robbie while gesturing to me causing my stomach to drop, Alan was standing not too far from them and looked like he was about to pass out.
I cover the bruises and make up excuses.
Knowing this isn’t how it should be, not how love ever is.
They tell me you’re crazy, they tell me to leave.
But I’ve put in too much to just let you go.

We’ve done this before, ran around played these games,
And while I’m on the floor there you go out the door.
You say you hate how this is and you hate how we’ve been
I shouldn’t believe, I shouldn’t give in but
I’m falling for you Once Again.
As the first chorus ended I swallowed back tears and looked out across the completely silent audience. Drawing in a shaky breath I turned to Ian and shook my head before fleeing from the stage in the opposite direction of the others.
Ian was apologizing and I could barely make out what he was saying as my head spun. There we’re a few screams as I curled into a ball near one of the monitors back stage and suddenly there was a mop of bright orange hair in front of me.
“Go away.” I gasped as Alan pulled me into his arms. “Please, I don’t want you to see me like this.”
“Shush.” He brushed the hair back from my face as Robbie, Cameron and John joined us.
“I really thought I could do it.” I sobbed to John, he shook his head and frowned.
“It’s okay, you’ll get there.” His blue eyes showed complete understanding and my breathing started to return to normal. Alan stood up and helped me to my feet quickly wrapping me in his arms. “could you guys give us a second?” I asked quietly looking to the others.
When they were out of earshot Alan placed a finger under my chin and pushed upward until I was looking at him.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” He whispered wiping away the remaining tears that lingered on my cheekbones.
“I’m sorry, I should have, I’ve been trying so hard to get him out of my life and it’s almost like I won’t be able to do that until I sing that song.” Alan nodded.
“By the end of the tour.” I looked up at him and he smiled. “You’ll be able to do it by the end of the tour, I promise I’ll help you through it.”
For a second I just stared at him in awe, his green eyes staring back at me. He smiled shyly and leaned back slightly. Reaching out he grabbed my shoulders, “You okay?” He whispered.
“Where did you come from and what did I do to deserve you?” His eyes widened and he smiled. “I’m serious, every other guy I’ve ever been with has ran when he found out my problems, but you didn’t even falter, you really do like me.”
Letting out a chuckle he wrapped an arm around me, “Yeah I do, and we all have problems.”

Notes

He's so cute. :3