Victoria’s point of view

Instagram is lovely. The amount of hate I have on my photos is amazing, ever since that photo of me and Alan started circulating through the internet I have been told by people who don’t even know me that “I don’t deserve Alan”, “I shouldn’t get my hopes up about Alan because he only wants me for sex cause I’m a whore” and that I’m “a stupid slut who will break his heart” I decided to put my phone away and focus on Pierce The Veil.
Pierce The Veil were amazing on stage, I honestly don’t know how they do it. If I had to jump around and sing I would be out of breath in less than a minute and ask for a short 30 minute break to catch my breath. I was so lost in my own world I didn’t even notice Jeffree standing next to me until he grabbed my face between his hands and made me look at him.
“Jeffree!” I jumped on him. “I haven’t seen you in weeks, how are you?”
“I’m fantastic girly, how are you?” He flashed me one of his dazzling smiles. Today Jeffree had gone with a simple make up look, just some pink contact lenses, silver eyeliner and a bright blue lipstick. Honestly I admire his confidence, I don’t think I could rock blue lipstick as well as he does!
“I’m fine! Just keeping myself busy. Are you going to Pierce The Veils Party tonight?” I was desperate to change the subject from how I was, I was really getting tired of people asking how I was just because Jared was here. Even though it felt like I was dying inside and I was petrified all the time I wasn’t going to tell anyone because of mainly two reasons;

1) I really don’t like dumping my problems on other people
2) If I really admit how I feel, that just makes the situation feel ten thousand times more real
“Don’t lie to me Victoria. How are you really? Alan tells me that Jared is back…” Jeffree replied back to me.

Panic filled my eyes and I suddenly became frantic. I grabbed Jeffree’s arm;
“Please tell me you did not tell Alan what Jared does to me!” I almost squealed in a high pitched voice.
“Oh hush hush, you know I wouldn’t tell a soul about this! It is not my secret to tell” Jeffree looked at me, concern flooded his face. “Has he done anything to you since he has arrived?”
“No. no he hasn’t. Thank you for worrying about me Jeffree.” I smiled at him.
“You’re my best friend and I love you.” Jeffree smiled back at me and hugged me before he proceeded to walk away. “I’ll see you at the party tonight!” he yelled as he walked away, swaying his hips.

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