Alan POV

I woke up with Austin's hand and leg over me. Shit, my head hurt because of the hangover. I slowly got out of bed, changed into shorts, then took a painkiller and drank a gallon of water because I was fucking dehydrated. I heard noises and moans from the bedroom so I returned to bed and saw Austin talking in his sleep. His cheeks were wet... is he crying? Omg!

''Austin, wake up.'' I said to him, trying to wake him up. He was sweating and kept mumbling something about his mom.

''Austin.'' I said a bit louder and grabbed his arm. He finally woke up.
''NO!'' He yelled out and buried his face into his palms. He was crying and it took him a while to snap out of it.

''Austin, look at me.'' I said and cupped his face with my palms. His puffy red eyes looked up into mine.

''I didn't even say goodbye to her.'' He whispered and I pulled him into a hug. His face was pressed against my chest and I felt his tears running down his cheeks.

''It's okay sweety. I'm here.'' I said while rubbing his back. He kept repeating I didn't even say goodbye. I felt so fucking bad for him. I don't know how it feels losing a parent (thank god), but I know how it feels being so sad it hurts more than any physical pain.

''Austin it's okay. I'm sure your mom knew how much you love her. She's watching over you everyday. Don't cry.'' My eyes teared up a little. Seeing Austin this hurt was killing me. He was such a happy person most of the time. But everyone carries sadness in them, at least a little bit.

''Alan?'' He said, still sobbing.
''Yes?'' I answered. My arms were wrapped around him, holding him tight.
''T-thank you.'' He said and wrapped his arms around me too.
''Let's get you in the shower. Come on.'' I said and got off the bed, pulling him up gently and leading him into the bathroom. He was all sweaty from the nightmares and I just pulled of his sweatpants, leaving his boxers on. I stepped into the shower, it was quite big. I helped Austin get in too and I let the water running. He closed his eyes as the water was dripping all over his face and body. I took my shower gel and put some into my palm, then I rubbed it all over his chest, arms and back. He didn't say a word. His eyes were still closed and he calmed down.

It always calms me when I have my anxiety. A shower and breathing excercises.
''I'm just gonna get a towel, be right back.'' I said and stepped out to get a fresh towel. A few seconds later he was already wrapped up in my big towel and when he dried himself, he changed into shorts and we went to the beach. I got all the necessary stuff like sun lotion, bottles of water straight from the fridge, towels and some money.

Austin didn't say anything untill we sat down under a sun umbrella. Then he got some water from the bag and lay down, then he looked at me.
''Come here.'' He said and pulled my arm, so I lay next to him.
''Thanks Alan, you're a great friend. And about last night...'' He started out.
''About that, we might've been drunk, but I meant what I said.'' I blurted out. And this time I wasn't sorry.

''I know, you'd never lie to anyone. And I just wanted to say thank you for being so understanding and patient and... t-that I love you too.'' He replied.
''I just never bonded with anyone like I did with you and spending almost everyday together really brought us closer. I consider you my best friend, you know what.''
''I know princess.'' He said and kissed my cheek. ''And thanks for before, getting me into the shower and stuff...''

''No problem, it helps me with my anxiety too. Anytime. Now wanna go for a swim?''
''Sure princess, race you to the water!'' He got up and sprinted to the water with me following him and quickly catching up.

We had a great time on the beach, just having fun, no heavy conversations. After spending a few hours there, we returned to the apartament and chilled out, had a drink and decided to go out a bit tonight.

Austin was always playing with my hair, either we'd lay on the sand next to the patio or in bed. We slept cuddling each other and pressing small kisses one to another, but we didn't really kiss kiss. We were both too shy.

But we were going out tonight to relax, get a drink, have a good time. I was wondering how long I will be able to control myself with him around. Sometimes I just wanted to ask him if he wants to be my boyfriend.

But even after everything that has already happened, I don't think he'd say yes. Would he?

Notes

Here it is, a new chapter, enjoy and I once again apologize for taking so long.

Let me know what you think and thanks for reading :)

Much luv! :*