Love Knows No Age.

"Austin I really hope he knows that last week was a one night thing" I sighed sitting on the bed.

Austin came and sat next to me after setting his bag on the floor next to us.

"Babe, he knows that it was a one time thing. Trust me one thing Alan doesn't do is push peoples boundaries. He is a good guy plus I would kill if he ever asked to have sex with you again." I tried to smile but part of me regretted it.

"Yeah but some of me regrets it you know" Austin nodded and kissed my temple.

"Hey, if you are upset about you can talk to him" I nodded and got up from the bed and walked out to the front lounge of the bus.

"Um, Alan can I talk to you for a minute outside" I asked and he nodded

"Yeah, sure" He followed me to the set of chairs that were set out in front of the bus.

"So, whats up?" He asked

"Well about last week i-" He cut me off

"I get it, you regret it. I know. You told me it was a one time thing. But I just wanna say this don't regret something because in that moment it was exactly what you wanted" I smile realizing that he was right.

"You know what, your right. i just needed to get it off my chest you know. It was something that happened. I just didn't want you to think that it could happen all the time you know?" He nodded

"No, if you tell me its a one time thing I'm not going to push it by wanting it to happen again" I am glad that he understands.

"Well, thank you for understanding" He nodded and we disappeared into the bus once again.

~

I was laying in the bed while the boys were doing a signing. I was flipping through some pictures I had in a book. I take this book everywhere I go. I post some memories that mean the most to me in them. Whilst flipping through I came to my favorite picture in the entire world. It was a picture of my mom before she passed when I was 15.

I felt hot tears stream down my face. I got up and ran out of the bus passing the guys in the process. I heard them calling in the distance. I ran until I just collapsed in a field. Soon after I fell I heard footsteps and arms wrap around me.

"Hey shhh its okay. I am here its going to be okay" I knew the person wasn't Austin but my dad. He knew why I was crying. The guys were all there for my dad and I when my mom passed but still to this day it hurts me. 3 years and I still can't believe she is gone.

"Daddy, She is gone. Why did she have to leave?" I asked through my sobs. All he did was rock me back and fourth until I calmed down.


"Hey, it was her time and there was nothing we could do about it. The cancer got too much for her to fight. She is in a better place now. But promise me this don't you ever think that her death was your fault because of what the kids at school said to you" I nodded and wiped tears away.

"I don't think its my fault but dad, She is gone and I can never get her back. I don't know I miss how her and I used to talk and laugh I just miss her!" I yelled through my tears.

"i know you miss her baby I know you do but the best thing for you right now is to take a shower and lay down because its cold and dark out here" I nodded getting up from the cold wet ground.

Dad brought me back to the bus on his back so that I didn't have to walk. I didn't look at anyone I just walked passed the guys and went to the shower.

I rid myself of the cloths I was wearing. My shorts grass stained and my shirt tear stained. I felt like someone had dumped bleach in my eyes. I stepped into the steaming shower and let the hot water fall over my body. Once again I let tears fall.

"Katie, Can I come in?" I heard Austin call over the running water.

"Yeah I guess" I heard the door open and then a body hope in the shower with me. Austin wrapped his arms around me and told me everything was going to be okay.

"I know how you feel. I know what your going through. I just want you to be able to talk to me when you feel like this. It's natural to hurt when a parent passes." I turned and wrapped my arms around him and buried my head in his chest.

"I just I don't know I miss her. I feel like more could have been done to keep her longer" Austin sighed and pulled me up so that I was looking at him.

"Baby, nothing could have been done to help her. I know that you feel this way because I felt the same way but trust me she is in a better place with less pain. She watches over you everyday and thinks that you are a beautiful young women who is doing her best to earn her place int eh world. And you know what? I love that girl that is her daughter. Katie May I love you with every being in my body and I never want you to hurt because it hurts me to see you hurt" I was now smiling because that was he nicest thing that anyone had ever said to me.

"I-I love you to Austin and thank you that was the nicest thing anyone had ever said to me" I kissed him again before turning off the water.

My life, I could see it was only going to get better from here on out.

Notes

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