The pregnancy story

after im done doing whatever oli asks of me, I lye on the couch feeling really shitty about myself. hes asleep now so im safe from his mood swings. hes more hormonal then me. I get up and go to the kitchen and pour myself so gin and juice. more gin then juice actually. I sit down at the table contemplating drinking it or not. i look down at my tummy and rub it. I take a sip of the drink cringing at the taste. by the time im finished I immediately regretting it. not because of the baby but because I worked so hard on my sobriety. I walk to the bathroom mirror and look at my tummy again. I began to hit it. harder and harder each time tell my stomach turns bright pink. I began to cry.
"fuck, I cant believe I just did that to you." I whisper to my demon baby. "i love you, believe it or not. no one else with though kid. your daddy wont, your uncle wont. I might even have some regret about you. its a real shitty time to come into this world. but no matter what, youll always have me." tears start running down my face. "you'll ruin my body, make my boobs sag." I smile and laugh at my self. "but i'll always love you." I take off my cloths and take a hot bath.
* next day*

"hey baby." oli kisses my head as he walks past me into the kitchen.
"oli, what do you think about kids?" I ask. he gives me an odd look and thinks about it for a second.
"i don't know. maybe some day. when my band takes off and im making enough money to support him or her and the person im having it with. after were married of course. don't want a baby out of wedlock." he says happily and goes back to making his breakfast. surprised by his answer I smile to myself. but hes right. he loves his band and put to much work into to blow it on a kid that's not even his.
"why?" he asks as he sits down next to me with a bowl in his hands.
"just thinking about my future." I say nonchalantly.
"what about you?" he says paying more attention to his cereal.
"same." I reply. "what about me? where do you see me in your future?" I look at him curiously. he's fast to his answer.
"your the person I see doing all that stuff with." he smiles at me and kisses my lips. maybe vic isint ready to be a dad. oli isn't and he's older than him. at least oli loves me or at least likes me. I have a lot to think about.

Notes

two chapters one day oops. I finally getting back into this story. this is my favorite chapter by far!!! whats your favorite? who do you think she should tell? oli or vic? I miss my active subscribers!!! comment please!!
title credit: in between: beartooth