Innocence is just a lie.

-Emily Rose-

The bubbling feeling however, had a mind of its own and continued to fester in the pit of my stomach- sending a heat throughout my whole being. A craving if you will. I don't know what it was but I needed something. I needed someone. Not just anyone, I needed Kellin. He started this, why won't he finish it? I mean nobody likes a tease.

"Are you alright?" His soft voice disturbed me from my not so innocent thoughts of that same voice- but yet it was so different, it was full of...I can't put my finger on it.

I think it was lust.
God how I longed to hear that sweet voice call out for me, to feel his smooth hands run along my skin; I longer for him. All of him.

"I'm good" No I was far from 'good' I was a shaking mess, refusing to meet his eyes in utter shame if my lustful thoughts.

"You sure?" He asked inching closer, reaching one of those soft hands to touch my forehead. Only making my cheeks redden and my body to tense, but all I could do was nod at his question. Deciding to ignore the way his voice crawled under my skin.
This isn't me at all. It's what he made me.

Kellin leaned foreword to whisper in my ear, an action I loathed him for, "good" was all he murmured before he begun his daily task of marking my neck. Ah, nothing has changed overnight then.

I cannot decide whether or not that's a good thing, and with the way his kisses were timidly trailing lower and his hands snaked up my oversized Metallica shirt- I wasn't going to be deciding anything for a while especially with his smooth hands slowly removing my bra underneath my shirt, his soft touch lingering a moment to long causing my breath to hitch.

Shit. This is beyond wrong.
"Can I?" Kellin feigned innocence as he almost ripped my shirt from my body, thus leaving my torso exposed-fully this time due to him making short work at removing my bra- I was vulnerable.

The glint in his wide, innocent eyes told me it wasn't just me liking the feeling, the smirk on his lips told me of the wonders yet to come. And heaven knows I was looking forward to it.

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