Warning: Gore and mind-fuckery. You've been warned, yo ;D

Austin’s P.O.V

“ARGHHHHH!” the scream slipped past my lips before I could truly register the pain that was shooting from my head to every corner of my body. I writhed against the restraints that were in all reality, Oli trying to hold me still. I could vaguely hear others speaking, but everyone’s voices blurred together. I felt bile rise up my throat as another painful wave flooded from my head, this time more hands were holding me down.

“What’s wrong with him?”

“I Don’t know! He just started screaming! What the…”

“OH MY GOD, WHAT THE FUCK !?”

Almost instantly the pain was gone, and I was able to open my eyes slowly, Oli, Tino and Alan were clear across the room, staring at me with their jaws agape. I sat up quickly, propping myself up on my elbows.

“What?!” I demanded, shooting glances between Tino and Alan, they shook their heads. My eyes fell to Oli, his jaw was still slack and his eyes were widened beyond normal, I threw my legs over the side of the bed.

“NO!” Tino roared, throwing a hand forward as if stopping me, I laughed.

“You all are acting like something’s horribly wrong with me! I just had a weird pain, I'm fine!” I bit my lip, studying the drummer as he slowly shook his head.

“Austin…you’re not fine…though.” His voice was broken and panicked, worry pitted in my gut.

“What do you mean?” I roared, standing up from the bed against my friends wishes and walking to the full length mirror. My mouth fell open as I caught a glimpse at myself; my eyes were red, not like a dull red from being tired, no, my irises were red. Blood red too, not a faint tint, but a vivid glowing red, I quickly turned back to face them.

“What the fuck is wrong with my eyes?” I growled, noting how my sight was no different than usual, so it couldn't be something vision related.

“NO STOP! GET OFF OF ME! LET HIM GO! HE’S HURT!” My head whipped around towards the sound of the scream, the voice had been frightened, desperate, and it most certainly was Tom’s. Oli was out the door in a flash, Tino and Alan on his heels, and I on theirs. We sprinted to the living area, when we entered the large room; my blood boiled.

Tom was standing closest to us, he was being held at gun point by a man in a military uniform, another one holding him still as he continued to struggle. Everyone else was on the floor, in a similar state, except Matt who was being held up by his hair, his mouth was oozing with blood that pooled slightly on his shirt, and he was clearly blacked out. I stepped in front of Oli, Tino and Alan before the military persons could point their weapons at them; they would have to go threw me first.

“Ah well if it isn’t Austin. No need to be frightened or upset now, just stay calm and-“

“Fuck you.” I growled, watching as the man from earlier emerged from behind the front door. He frowned,

“Don’t be angry, just stay calm...and no one gets hurt. It's dire that you don't get angry.” He pleaded, clasping his hands in front of him, but as he got closer, his eyes widened. It was then that I realized that his eyes were locked on mine,

“Austin, take a breath, calm down. You’re going to get someone hurt if you keep this up.” He came a little too close for comfort, I hissed.

“Get the fuck away from me! Let them go or you’ll see pissed!” I shouted, taking a step forward and ignoring as the gun man raised their weapons closer to me.

“No need for those boys,” the man in the suit spat. The guards lowered their weapons, the other letting Tom go; Oli rushed to hug him before allowing his little brother to check on Matt.

“Leave us alone.” I warned, but my voice was low, low enough to slightly scare myself. The way it was said…it just didn’t sound like my voice. Everyone in the room’s eyes fell on me,

“My name is Dan, I’m the Commander in Chief of this division, all I need is for you to do is stay calm and come with me.” The well dressed man, Dan, came a bit closer; his hands up in mock surrender.

“I’m not coming with you!” I roared, frankly I wasn't sure what was coming over me, it wasn't like me to be so angry, this wasn't like me at all actually.

“You sure about that?” A gruff voice called from behind me, a short yelp followed it. I turned around quickly, a large black man had a gun pressed against Oli’s temple, his small body was flush against the bigger mans, fear evident on his face.

“Austin, don’t listen to them.” Oli pleaded, though his eyes said otherwise. I watched them cloud over with tears, as Tom screamed for the man to let his brother go. It felt like time stood still, and the only things that existed in my mind was Oli, his eyes, the gun, his head, and the man behind me taunting my actions, urging me to stay calm. My body began to tremor, until I was shaking violently, my eyes felt glued to Oli’s, but they burned. The pain from earlier came back tenfold, I had to quickly close my eyes as the pain became to much. Then it felt like something snapped in my mind, I let out the loudest scream I could muster, before falling to my knees. I heard loud splattering noises around me, but I couldn’t open my eyes. I could only pray that it wasn't the sound of Oli's brains on the wall.

“Austin…” Oli’s voice snapped me into reality, and I sighed in relief as I heard him. But his voice was scared... panicked even, and despite my better judgment, I forcibly opened my eyes. Blood, blood was everywhere, but none of my friends, not even Oli was injured, and instead all the government men were just…gone. Like they had exploded, guts and entrails decorated every corner of the room. I heard several people gag, and a few shuffles, and when I turned the other way, I gasped. Everyone minus Oli, Tom, Matt, and Tino, were backed into a corner, terrified looks on their faces when I looked at them.

“What…are you?” Jona spat, running a hand down his shirt and knocking off a piece of god knows what, I shook my head.

“Austin…everything's okay…” Tino’s voice bellowed behind me, and I felt him lay a hand on my shoulder.

“I'm leaving. Fuck this! You’re a monster!” Alan cried out, it vaguely felt like my heart hit my chest, silently everyone roused, quickly escaping from my sight and out the front door. No one tried to stop them,

“What…did I do…?” I asked, spinning around before sitting on the ground, bringing my knees to my chest.

“Austin…I don’t know how to tell you this…” Oli began, coming over to me and warily sitting down, reaching a hand out for me, I snatched his, holding it firm.

“You just blanked, you were staring at me and the next thing I knew, they just exploded and you screamed and…I don’t know what happened.” He sighed, watching in shock as blood ran off of his hair, I squeezed his hand.

“You did something Austin…I don’t know how, but that’s…wow. You likely saved Oli’s life.” Tino added, coming over and sitting down next to me too. He crinkled his nose as he flicked a piece of what looked like brain matter off of him.

“I…I’m not even mad, if you hadn’t have come in when you did who knows what they would have done. They hit Matt for fucks sake, I tried telling them he was hurt and they only hit him harder…and then Oli…” Tom bit his lip, grabbing Matt’s hand, who looked to be in shock and in intense pain; the duo sat down across from me.

“I’m so sorry…” I cried out, burying my head in my hands as a sob over took me.

“Austin…Sh, don’t cry.” Oli's voice bounded, he snaked his arms around my torso from behind me, and buried his face in my back.

“You think they’re coming back?” I questioned, staring at the door in front of me.

“I don’t know, but…I doubt…oh and Austin?” Tino pursed his lips, I nodded for him to go on.

“We need to get out of here, ASAP. Oh, and your eyes are back to normal…” his voice trailed off, Tom and Matt leaned over and glanced at me, smiling.

“I guess we will try to figure out what happened later, sucks that everyone’s pussies and ran off...but let’s get outta here, and nobody piss off Austin!” Oli released me and clapped his hands together, before offering me one. I took it graciously,

“Wait guys.” I stated as they turned to grab the bags,

“Why aren’t you running from me? Is it just because I saved you?” I inquired, looking around the room. It was horrid, blood pooled in all directions and the once white walls were stained, our belongings were also covered. I felt my stomach churn, what the fuck is wrong with me? What have I done? What am I?

“You’re my best friend, silly. It will take a lot more than a super human power to scare me off! Besides I have a theory, it only happened after you had been provoked, and it went away when the ‘threat’ was eliminated, maybe It's a defensive thing? Don’t get me wrong, I have no idea what it was…or what happened for sure, but that’s my theory. It's defensive towards people you care for and offensive towards anything that strikes you as a threat…like a brutal force field of sorts.” Tino wrapped up his theory and I felt myself feeling a little better. It really could be a defensive thing, I remember seeing Oli in immediate trouble and it just set me off, besides, none of the guys had gotten hurt. But still, how had I attained this?

“I agree. Whatever it is, it saved all of us…It's on our side for sure. I guess I should say, you’re on our side for sure. As for why I didn’t leave…” Oli’s face flushed a bright shade of red, and I felt mine heat up as our eyes met again. I could hear Tino and Tom chuckle, “I guess you lot have grown on me, so I don’t have anywhere else I’d rather be.” I smiled at his accent, which I had never really appreciated. It was quite...cute. I glanced at the blood that stained his skin, and hair, but Oli didn’t seem to mind it or take notice anymore, in fact, he seemed…content the way he was.

“And after all you’ve done, there was no way I was going to bail.” Tom admitted, helping Matt up to his feet, the drummer wiped blood from his mouth. He smiled crookedly,

“And…I lo-ve Ols…and Tom…no…way I-I’d leave…’em beh…behind.” He forced the words out, but grinned proudly as he completed the sentence.

“Holy shit dude!” I wailed, reaching over to slip a back pack full of food on, as Tino laid some on the ground, “I’m so happy to hear you talking!” I cheered, earning smiles from everyone. Tom and Oli hugged their friend, before helping us grab bags and deflate mattresses, in 10 minutes we were completely packed up and ready to leave.

“I’ll drive.” Tino offered, hopping in the driver’s cabin in the RV and starting it up, we slipped in the back.

“Drive by the governments little camp; I want to make sure the others made it there.” I commanded, sitting bags down on the floor as everyone else made their selves comfortable.

“Will do.” Tino replied, pulling the RV out of the garage and onto the abandoned street. Oli sat down beside me, offering me his hand again, I took it.

“Thank you, Austin.” he chided as he laid his head on my shoulder, butterflies came into my stomach at his touch. I eyed Matt and Tom who sat across from us, Tom was holding his hand, and helping him with words, which seemed to be frustrating the drummer.

“I don’t know why your thanking me…” I muttered, casting a glance at him. Oli squeezed my hand tighter as he sighed.

“I know you don’t…so It's for everything. We’re in this together, whether we like it or not, so might as well be grateful for the ones we have left...and I am grateful to have you around...your a...godsend.” He tossed his eyes up so he was glancing at me, I smiled down at him.

“You’re not scared of me?”

I am...

“Not at all. If you were going to hurt me, which I know you wouldn’t, you would have killed me back there.” He said it as if it was the most normal thing in the world, but it was anything but. I was some sort of mutant freak, I could kill people without even laying a finger on them…and that was certainly not normal.

“There they are Austin…their going to be fine. But fuck all of them!” Tino shouted. I glanced out the window in time to spot the group who glared as we drove past them, it kind of stung. To know that even people I had been in a band with for years were so terrified of me that they fled for the lives…

“Don’t worry…you’re not a monster Austin.” Oli squeezed onto my hand tighter, and snuggled his head into my arm for emphasis.

But…if I'm not a monster....why do I feel like one?

Notes

Title Cred: Of Mice & Men- I'm A Monster

Read only the bold words, for a hidden message and clue to what this all could be...
Any who, you may be saying what the fuck just happened...but that's the way you should feel ;-;
Thing's will be explained later on, so stay tuned...

I took a lot of people out at this point, but its for a good reason. and In this fic, Tino is Austin's best friend, not Alan, Alan had another role to fill out. ANY WAYS...

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Siren