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When You Fall Asleep Tonight (Sequel To My Understandings)

Timing Is Everything

I stared at the members of blessthefall.
I felt my anxiety level rising up. The pressure of over a thousand fans and video cameras, Austin on one knee awaiting my answer, and the feel of cold liquid dripping down inside my pants and pooling around my feet.
“I’m in labor.” I say, my words transferring into the microphone. Austin’s eyes widen and he looks at the floor where the water is steady flowing. The crowd gasps and began screaming, since they all knew who the father was. Beau and Jared hurriedly rush over.
“Go sit her down on a crate while I call,”
“Call Tony and Vic.” I say.
“Ya. While I call Tony and Vic.” Beau effortlessly picked me up and carried me to side stage while setting me on one crate and using another for my feet. While Austin is calling the guys, Beau goes on stage to speak to the crowd.
“Do you feel any pain?” Jared asks.
I shake my head, because I honestly didn’t feel a thing. I’m so excited to see this baby. We already had come up with names months ago. If it’s a boy, Matthew Lucker Carlile. If it’s a girl, Amethyst Devin Carlile. He gave me a small smile before helping with untying my combat boots before going to a dressing room. I sighed and jerked forward with a pain. It was if the baby was kicking hard in my lower left abdomen. I cried out a little as I put my hands to the spot.
“Are you okay?” I looked over and saw a fan standing there with an outstretched hand. She looked so familiar.
“Yea I’m-” I felt the same kick to my abdomen again and I grunted while clutching my stomach tighter. “No. I’m not fine,”
“Here,” she walked in front of me and sat on the crate where my feet were. She had long black hair, but her voice sounded so British.
“Sarah?” I asked. She gave me a smile before rubbing my feet.
“Hey Ellie. I came here because I love Blessthefall and when I knew you were opening for them, I had to see you again.” I smile a little. Sarah was the nicest fan I met at Warped 12’ and she became pretty close to me because we’re alike in so many ways.
“You changed your hair and everything. You look good.” Even in the dark I could see the blush creeping on her face.
“Babe, where are-” I turned my attention to the small boy before me. he looks about 18.
“Ellie, this is my boyfriend Justin.” She smiled and laced their fingers together. It was then I noticed the two tattoos on her wrist. Inhale on her right;Exhale on her left in cursive scripture. While he fangirled over the fact that his girlfriend knows the “One and only Ellie Schmitt,” Austin came over and crouched down by me.
“They’re on their way and we’ll drive you to the hospital.” He said while kissing my hand. The hand that should be holding the engagement ring in his pocket.
“Remember that girl I talked about, Sarah? She’s over there. You would really make her the happiest person ever.” I say. He nods and leans in. When I don’t move, he hovers his lips over mine and I lean in until they touch. He returns the kiss, a little sadness mixed in it. I know it. I know how much Austin means to me, and it means a lot to me to know that he never stopped thinking about me when we broke up. And to know he wants to spend forever with me is something I’ve been wanting since I was twenty years old and I be dammed to let it slip between my fingers again. But then again, he was with a bimbo Play Bunny. I always knew he was the type for boobs and I’m never going to compare to them. They’re so much better than I am.
He pulls me in a hug. A hug that seemed to lasted years, and if it did, it wouldn’t have bothered me one bit. He smiles and kisses me again before going over to Sarah. While the three of them talked, I looked backstage and saw Tony and Vic rushing my way.
“Are you okay?” Vic yells. Tony helps me up and walks me over to Vic.
“Yeah, let’s just please get to the hospital.” I say.
“Why are you giving birth so early? At seven months?”
“Stress. I guess I couldn’t take it and the baby said ‘fuck it.’” I say. They all nod.
“Austin! Come on!” Vic yells as we pile into Tony’s car. I get in the backseat next to Austin and he grabs my hand, squeezing it. I’m about to give birth to a family.
At the hospital, they reel me in a wheel chair and take me to Vic’s mother, Vivian, doctor to help with giving birth. I tell Austin to call my mom. Tony follows me into the room and helps me sit on the bed. He rubs my leg.
“Good luck.” He says. Austin walks in after him. He helps me shed the leather pants and the jersey and trades it for a gown that shows my butt.
“Bra or no bra?” he asks.
“No bra.” I say while he removes my wet underwear. His hands reach p behind me and unclasp my bra, hearing the snap, I sigh with relief. “Austin, I’m worried. Do you know he or she may have one or both of our heart conditions?” I asked, swallowing the lump in my throat. Last year’s events kept replaying over and over. I didn’t want the child to have Marfan’s but hell, I didn’t want it to have my condition, the one that almost cost me my life and left me in a coma for two weeks, something I gracefully survived.
“We’ll get them diagnosed as soon as possible. I will do anything for them and you. I mean it, anything.” He says while grabbing my hand.
“I love you.” I whisper. But he was too wrapped in his thoughts to hear me. we may not be together and at the moment, it’s the best choice, but I do love him.
“Do you feel the baby yet?” he asks. I shake my head. He takes my clothes and puts them in a hospital bag before washing his hands.
“I feel it kicking in my abdomen, but I don’t think it’s ready to come out yet.” I say while scooting further back on the bed. “Are you ready for this? To start a family?” I ask nervously.
“Are you?” he asks. I shake my head.
“No. but I am prepared. I’m dropping out of Warped UK and not going to America Warped until the 20th of July. I’m going to Warped AU so I’ll be in Australia around same time you are. Then The Started From the Bottom Now We Here will be my last tour for a while.” I say.
“I’m proud of you. And I’m going to be there for you one hundred percent of the way. We may not be together, but I won’t let this baby not have a family.” He says while rubbing my back. I know what he wants. he wants me to put the past in the past and say yes to be engaged to him, but I can’t. I just can’t as much as I want it, I’m not something you can buy your love for. You have to fucking earn it.
“There’s always hope, you are not alone.” He says. I look at him. “It’s lyrics to a new song I wrote. I wrote it about you which is why I missed your birthday. Your gift wasn’t ready just yet.” I frown and lean my head on his shoulder. “It’s called You Are Not Alone.” He leans his head on top of mine. “Because you’re not.” I hear him sigh. “Has it ever occurred to you that they’re, the fans, going to question why a brown hair baby is coming from a blonde head mother? You know, more hate.” He says with a proponent sigh.
“No. Because it’s none of their business.” I say with a smile. I reach up and touch a finger to one of the wrinkles by his eye. It seems that lately more have been growing.
I cry out as the pain travels from my abdomen to my vagina and I swallow the scream threatening to come out. I snatch my hand back from his eye and clutch my stomach.
“Ellie? what’s wrong?” he asks. I feel the pain again and tears drip down onto the hospital gown.
“Get a doctor.” My breathing becomes ragged as I feel myself dilating. “The baby is coming.”


Idk. I still think Austin is a dick



There's a sequel! Don't worry!!!

NO YOU CAN"T LEAVE IT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! -sobs-

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Pls let them be together

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Austin needs to get his sheit together.....

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