When You Fall Asleep Tonight (Sequel To My Understandings)
Yourself As Someone Else
“My arms get cold in February air. Please don't lose hold of me out there. There, there, February air, air. And I know this place like the back of my hand.”
I began walking back towards the blessthefall’s bus. I had an hour before my performance and thirty minutes before their set.
Beau never looked so broken in his life. I don’t know what made Val want to divorce him, but he’s taking it hard. I mean, they just got married in 2012. It’s only half way through 2013.
My chest aches for him because I went through a similar thing. I hate that Austin and I didn’t work out. Part of me is glad. I can finally close another chapter of my life and start a new one.
The other half of me is upset. We’ve come so far since high school and for what? To just throw everything we had away?
This isn’t what I envisioned when I thought about spending the rest of my life with him. This isn’t what I envisioned at all.
But it’s okay. I have a new friend and plenty of opportunities ahead of me.
It’s time I really start my life. I’m only 26.
And life is too short to let it fly by.
I’m ready to drop Austin and for the first time in 10 years; I’m ready.
I’m okay with letting go.
I lay in the bed with Emily cuddled at my side. I just thought about the last eleven years of my life. Since I was 17, my life has mainly consist of Ellie and David and now, both have been ripped from my life to the point of no return.
David and I’s friendship has plummeted down the drain and there is no use trying to recover that. I lost my best friend.
I’ve also lost the love of my life. Elizabeth, she’s gone. Of course, not dead, but she will never be mine again. A part of me is glad. That chapter in my life can be closed and I can start a new one with Emily.
But another part of me doesn’t want to let go of the same chapter I’ve been stuck on for the past eleven years. Since I first laid eyes on her back in Long Beach Bay High School in 2002.
But I guess I’ll never get back to that chapter. And maybe it’s for the better. I’ve only know Ellie and David as my closes friends my whole life and now things are different.
I’m a father, a proud one, and now it’s time to close the Book of Austin & Ellie and open the one called Trying To Maintain A Relationship With Your Current Girlfriend While Keeping A Stable One With Ellie Now That You Two Have A Kid.
And you know what?
I’m okay with that. I’m finally okay with letting go.
I’m ready to move on with my life.
Without Ellie completely in it.
Not the end.
There's a sequel! Don't worry!!!