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When You Fall Asleep Tonight (Sequel To My Understandings)

Dead End Dreams

Crying was what I hear. And thanks to my motherly instincts, I could distinguish one of them as my brother. My stomach was killing me. it felt as if someone had lit it on fire.

Besides the pain, I wanted as to badly see one thing.

My son.

He was the one thing that made any sense in this darkness. If anything.

I don’t even know what happened really. It’s all just a panicked blur of crying and blood.

My head feels like cement just trying to remember.

I groaned, well, I think it was a groan, in frustration. Why the hell can’t I move my arms or my eyes for goddamn sake.

Do you think she’ll wake up?” someone asked.

Of course. I told you all that spicy food wasn’t good for her stomach.”

Hey, I wasn’t cooking all the Mexican food, Vic.

Don’t blame me.” I heard a snort and then it was quiet.

Where the hell is Austin?” my heart spiked through the roof at the mention of his name.

Is her heart supposed to be beating that radically?”

Get a doctor.” I heard the door open and close.

Hey,” hands clasped my hands and squeezed them. Calloused, giant hands. “Everything is going to be okay.” Vic. I heard the door open again and a woman’s voice.

“Maybe it’s a sign that she can hear you. It’s her response to something you said.” She starts to explain. “At this rate, she should be awake soon.”

“Man, go home. Shower. You’re here more than Austin is.” Tony says. I shrug my shoulders.

Although that may be true, I can’t help it if one of the few people who mean the world to me are lying unresponsive in the hospital bed. “Did you get to see Matthew?” I nod. He’s the perfect combination of Austin and Ellie. “Vic, do…do you still have feelings for Ellie?” I stare back at her pale frame that’s sleeping so soundly.

“Of course I do. But I won’t do anything about it. She just had a child. She just got proposed to and she just turned it down. Adding my feelings to the pot would let it boil over.” He nodded.

“That’s why you guys lasted so long.”

“If someone tries to hurt me, promise you say this ‘Stay away from her she’s mine, it’s not her time.’ It would mean a lot.” She whispers.

“You want me to say it to Austin?” I asked.

“Yeah.” She squeaked.

“Hey Tony, I’ll be back. I gotta make a call.” It was time to get some things straightened out to Austin.


We lay on the beach, it’s well past midnight. The guys had checked on us earlier, dropped off extra clothes, and went to bed. The buses don’t leave until morning since the next stop in California isn’t but a couple hours’ drive. The moon has a beautiful light reflecting off the ocean.We’ve been dating for a month. Touring is stressful, but somehow we make it through. I don’t want to say I’m in love with him. It wouldn’t quite be an under estimate.

I find it cute how his blue long sleeved sweater and black pants are stuck to his soaked body. I wouldn’t mind getting under those clothes, but as usual, Vic probably wouldn’t feel that way. Its two weeks before we can be together again, but even then my band has to get ready to release our first album since so many people loved our EP. Then a week later, our off week, we have to fly out to L.A for our record deal and possible music video, and then when we come back, we’re off to another city for the tour. After that, it’s our headline tour. So basically, this our only night together. I groan and turn to Vic who’s looking at me.

“What?” I ask. Barley a whisper. I want to take in his beauty before it disappears from me for a while. His brown eyes pool into mine, the moon just a tiny dot in his eyes.

“Just admiring your beauty.” I swear if it was bright enough, he could’ve seen the blush in my cheeks.

“How am I beautiful? My face is bruised beneath the makeup. I’m hopping place to place from my ankle. Even my own ex-boyfriend left me without any reason.” I say referring to Austin. “If anything I’m far from beautiful.”

“You’re right.” He says. I knew it! I’m always the one to drive people away. God, why do I even try? “You’re far from beautiful because beautiful is an underestimate. There is no word to describe how pretty you are.” I sigh and turn my attention to Vic. I hate to say it, but our relationship is strained. There’s too much work to be done and on top of that, I have ex-boyfriend problems and argh! I want to pull my hair out of my head and scream to the top of my lungs.

“Vic, we-”

“I know. But let’s enjoy this last few minutes together.” He kisses the top of my head and we snuggled there on the beach. The tide comes up to our necks, but we didn’t move. When we bid our goodbyes, we hugged for a long time.

“This is harder than I thought.” I say.

“Yeah. I’ve never been broken up before. Cheated, yeah.”

“I’ve never broken up with someone. Dumped, yeah.”

“It’s not goodbye though. Only as a couple.”

“Duh.” I punch his arm. He took my arm and kissed the scars on my skin.

“I kissed the scars on her skin. I still think you’re beautiful and I don’t wanna ever lose my best friend.” He whispers in my ear.

“This is it, when it’s done we can say that, oh my god we’re not gonna make it.” He chuckled.

“Why are we quoting A Match Into Water?” he asks.

“Because believe it or not, we were literally a match into water.” I say referring to the beach. “But promise me one thing.” I say.


“If someone tries to hurt me, promise you say this “Stay away from her she’s mine, it’s not her time.” It would mean a lot.”

You want me to say it to Austin?” he asked.

“Yeah.” I squeaked. “But mainly Alan.” He nodded before kissing my cheek.

“See you around.”

“See you around!” I called after him. I walked on the bus and flopped on the couch. I didn’t care if I’m soaking wet. I think I just lost the one thing that meant the world to me. That meant something to me.


OMG Lights had her baby; Rocket Wild Bokan. So adorbs.

Whoa, was this update late as hell or what? And what the heck is going on with Vic and his feelings, whoa there buddy.



There's a sequel! Don't worry!!!

NO YOU CAN"T LEAVE IT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! -sobs-

Cassie Cassie


niamh niamh

Pls let them be together

niamh niamh

Austin needs to get his sheit together.....

Cassie Cassie