When You Fall Asleep Tonight (Sequel To My Understandings)
There Could Be Nothing After This
David and Lynzie and her band arrived a few minutes later after their flight from Colorado. The doctor only let David and her mom in after me. my heart was beating irregularly more so than usual. I’m just so excited. In a few minutes,our child will be born.
I walked on one side of the bed, while her mom, Jean, and David take the other side. Ellie automatically grabs on to my hand and entwine our fingers. The nurse who snapped at me early props her legs up and Jean combs back Ellie’s hair. This can’t be real, this is just all too real.
"Okay, on the count of three Ellie, we want you to push, one, two, three,” and Ellie sits up, her face scrunched together tightly as she seems to push the baby out, squeezing my hand tightly in the process. Her face turned paler by the minute.
“Okay, release.” Ellie let out a sigh as her small frame collapsed against the bed. Her face had pain written all over it.
“I swear to God Austin, once I push this baby out, I’m pushing you out that window.” And she was dead serious. The doctors laughed, but I didn’t see what was so funny about a woman planning to kill you.
“Okay, again Ellie, one, two, thr-” Ellie let out a blood curdling scream that shook the room. It phased the doctors and even me. her gripped tighten about 30% on my hand and I heard a pop sound. She began pushing the baby out on her own, without any word from the doctors. Her face began to turn paler by the minute and I knew something was wrong.
“Ellie, Ellie you have to stop pushing.” The nurse warned.
“It hurts,” She spit out. Literally, with her teeth clenched, drops of spit flew from her mouth as she continued to push.
“You’re putting a strain on the baby!” the doctor rushed over with a needle.
“I’m trying! It feels like my stomach is shifting and-” she let out another scream and I felt the bone in my finger crack.
It felt as if the baby was ripping through my abdomen. One minute it was a regular contraction as I was pushing, the next, it felt as if it grew nails and began clawing its way out. I wasn’t even pushing the baby, my stomach just felt off and the baby kept coming out itself.
The pain continued to grow more immense by the second.
“I see blood!” a doctor exclaimed.
“What?!”I screamed. Austin turned pale and I tried to resist the urge to push.
“Ellie, you have to keep pushing.”
“But, all the blood.” The nurse began. The doctor ran and brought Austin over while my mom and David held my legs. I looked at my mother and she already had tears in her eyes.
“What do I do?” Austin asked scared.
“Keep your hands there,” I couldn’t see where the doctor told him to put his hands at, but I could see the terrified look in his eyes. Another contraction spread through me and I pushed again, biting my tongue as hard as I can.
“Your almost there!” I pushed again and then I felt cold. Everything had a slight ring to it and I couldn’t hear anything but that ring. I could see the doctors faces and Austin’s, which had tears in them, but even that was blurry with a blink faint tint to it. I could see the doctors standing over Austin while he cut something with scissors. Austin’s hands were covered in blood as he held an object in his hands. His mouth was moving, but I couldn’t make out words. He held his arms out and his hands came in contact with mine, now occupying my arms with the bloody object.
My hands and wrists instantly soaked with blood.
In that moment, I looked at it, my baby. I used my thumb to wipe away some of the blood as I cradled it in my weak arms, being as gentle as I can. It already had Austin’s infamous pout present.
Although I don’t know for certain if I was, I cried. I let out a small laugh and cried as I held my son in my arms. Austin was by me in a minute, staring at me. this may not be the way I imagined giving birth to a family, it didn’t matter when Matthew was placed in my arms. Suddenly, the only thing keeping me weigh down on this earth wasn’t my band anymore nor was it Daniel.
It was Matthew.
My one and only. He can wrap his fingers around my thumb, hold me tight, and make this family okay. He’ll grown into his skin, with a smile like his and a contagious laugh.
Now that he’s not inside of me, I have to put my future in him. I get to give this baby nothing but truth. Finger nails the size of a half grain of rice, and eyelids closed to be soon open.
And we can lie together, with his tiny little baby feet. When he’s half asleep, I’ll leave him to sleep the night away. Right in front of us, for a couple weeks so I, so we, can keep him safe.
The small bump that made me have morning sickness, the butthole that would kick the shit out of me in the middle of the night, the little fetus that was attracted to Austin’s voice, the little baby that broke my water on stage in front of thousands of Blessthefall fans.
And when he opened his eyes, I was lost in them. His blazing grey eyes with curly light brown hair. The freckles barely noticeable. Although the pout was there, he had my stare, he is going to be a heartbreaker. Just like daddy.
And when he cried, I could hear the world again. I could hear Austin’s soft words. I could finally hear Matthew’s voice. He was the last thing I saw when my eyes fluttered shut and my heart line went flat.
Eh, I feel kinda iffy on this chapter. I have new more per-written chapter before I take a small break to catch up on more per-written chapters. Feel luck, the altered version on Wattpad doesn't get a sequel like this website does.
Feel very lucky.