i have missed you

anna’s pov


matt and myself had walked to a coffee shop that was opened and ordered two coffees and sat down. “ you haven’t changed anna” matt said to me “ same with you” i said and took a sip of my coffee. we sat in slince for a bit then matt asked me a question “ so you and that ricky dude are together?” matt asked me and i nodded “ yea” i said back as i put my cup down. “ so how long have you” “ it’s roughly been about 2 to 2 1/2 months now” i said to him. he had nodded. “ wait isn’t that guy that moved away to follow his dreams to be in a band” matt asked me. “ yea thats him” i said and he nodded

as we sat there in silence i asked him the question “ matt why did you leave?” i could see that he really did not want to say. “ err ummm i that things that i had to do” matt said. from the way that he was saying it, it had sounded like that he was hiding something. “ matt i know that your lying so please tell me the truth” i asked him. “ anna i had something that had need to be done” matt said. “ matt stop with the bullshit and tell me the truth.. i know something else is going on and please for love of god just tell me ” i said with almost tears in my eyes.

when matt saw this he come over to my side and hugged me. he took a deep breath in and looked at me “ you know that i have alway love you” matt said “ and i have loved you too” i said back as matt wiped my tears way with his thumb. “ anna do you really want to know the truth?” matt asked me and i nodded. i could tell that this was not easy for him. matt took a deep breath “ the reason reason why that i have left you was because……..” i could see that matt started to form tears in his eyes “was because i had found out that i have cancer.. that why i have left you because i didn’t want you to know.. i wanted to do this on my own” matt said.

when i heard this i just started to cry and matt wrapped his arms around me and hugged me. when he put his arms around me, it felt so familiar and at home “ shhh baby don’t cry…” matt said to me as he was trying to calm me down. “ matt please not tell me not to cry when i hear that the person that i love has cancer” i said through sobs. “ anna look at me” matt said as he held my face and i looked at him. “ anna its fine. thats way that life goes” matt told me. “ but matt your dying” i said as i started to cry again. matt just hugged me even tighter "Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.” matt whispered that in my ear. “ you remembered that” i said as i looked at him “ of course i remembered that. you use to say that all the time to everyone, including me” matt said which made me smile.

“come on lets go back.. i believe that your friends are waiting for you” matt said as he extended his hand which i gladly took and walked back to the others. as we where walking i could not help to think maybe i am still madly in love with matt. sure matt left me. but its now that i understand why matt had done it.

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