"ALAN!" I screamed into the phone as they took my daughter away.

"Baby Whats wrong?" He asked it was obvious that he was in the car.

"They are taking her, they are taking her to the hospital" I felt my dad wrap his arms around me to try and get me to stop trying but it wasn't going to work. They took my baby away, I know it was to help but I don't think that I could bear life without her.

"Why are they taking her? What happened. I want you to follow the ambulance to the hospital and I will meet you there" He spoke in a calm voice.

"I went to her crib to feed her and I had noticed that something was strange about her breathing so I called my dad and he said that I should call 911 and so I did and they said that they were taking her" I cried more and Austin held onto me tighter.

"I know that in my heart that she is a fighter and isn't going to give up without a fight but baby I need you to be strong okay? Go to the hospital with your dad and I will meet you there I love you" I said I love you and hung up. I raced to the car and got in the drivers seat.

"Honey I don't want you to drive when you are this upset okay its safer for me to drive" Austin stated and I had no energy in me to even argue with him so I got into the passenger seat.

AT THE HOSPITAL........................

Alan met us in the waiting area and all he did when he found me was hug me and cry. He told me that none of this was my fault. Finally the doctor came out with some news. Whether it was good or bad I couldn't tell.

"Alan Ashby and Katie May Carlile?" He asked and we rose

"I am so sorry to say that your daughter has passed away. We tried everything we could to bring her back but unfortunately it was ineffective" His tone was harsh and his body language told me that he didn't really care about my daughter.

I dropped to the floor and sobbed uncontrollably Alan picked me up and wrapped me in a hug. He looked at me with tears in his eyes and said the most heartfelt thing I ever heard.

"Katie May none of this was your fault. All you did was try and be the best mother that you could for our daughter and you did just that. You had no control over her death and I could scream at the top of my lungs and cry and hope with all my heart that she is going to come back so I can hold her in my arms and rock her to sleep every night but it isn't going to happen. Baby I love you no matter what happens. I loved her as much as you did. I was ready to fight off all of the boys and be her prom date and teach her to play the guitar, but I can't do that now and it breaks my heart to pieces but we have to be strong and keep her alive in our memory, I want to keep her in our hearts and hold tight to her precious little angel"

HALF A YEAR LATER.................

"Alan I love you and I can't thank you enough for being there for me through all of the craziness of the last couple of months" I kissed his nose as I traced the tattoo that he had gotten in memory of the baby on his hand. http://www.outbackjoestattoo.com/tattoos/pictures/2008/baby_hand_prints_on_%20palms.JPG

"I love you too and I promise that I am not going anywhere anytime soon, The fact that you can make me feel better when I am feeling like shit just makes you ten times more beautiful and not to mention that your a freak in the sheets" He giggled

"LEave it to you to always bring sex into a conversation ashby" I jumped at the sound of Tino's voice

"What the hell? When did you get here?" I asked as I sat up


"Oh just a couple seconds ago I wanted to know if you guys were going to be ready for tour next week" My eyes went wide. Tour, My favorite time of year. A time when I can meet lots of new people and bond with the band as a whole family.

"Oh yeah I guess I haven't really stated packing but i will soon" I said and Alan looked at me.

"Its a year long tour so you better be extra packed you know warped tour then we go over sea's to do the uk warped tour and then we come back to the states to do a all over the country tour" I smiled

"I will and it will be great because I can spend it with all of you" I winked at him and he kissed me passionately

"Okay you sex addicts I am still in the room" Tino walked out laughing.


I hate to say this but this year has been hard with the death of Jada but I think it had brought the family closer together ad who knows there is still time to try for another one

Notes

Sorry this is a sad chapter and most of you may hate me for writing this but I hope you liked it. This chapter brought me to tears as I was writing it.

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