"do you love me?" I asked as I laid my head on Austins lap. He looked down at me and smiled

"You know I love you Katie May, you are my whole world I would give up anything if it meant making you happy. If you wanted me to stop touring and making music to stay home with you I would" I smiled and then sighed. He spoke again

"Why do you ask?" It was just him and I in the bus tonight while all the other guys went to the bar and I asked dad to stay with me on the bus tonight.

"Well today this girl came up to me and said some pretty mean things and it just got me in a mood."

"What ever she may have said to you I want you to forget about it because it isn't true, you are a beautiful and talented young lady" I wiped a tear away.

"That means so much and you don't even understand"

"What do you mean I don't understand?" he asked and I frowned.

"Its now or never" I mumbled

"Dad, I want to be completely honest with you because sooner or later something is going to trigger me and you won't know what is going on." I sat up and took his hand in mine.

"okay? Please tell me you aren't dying>?" He said and I chuckled.

"No I'm not dying though I do have this disease and it fucks with my heart and they said that you get it because it is genetic but mom doesn't have it"


"Thats because I have it Katie May, I can't believe your mother didn't tell me. You could have died if this got serious" He stated and I again looked at him.

"I have been to the hospital many times because of it and they said that at some point in my life I am going to need to have heart surgery but no I want to tell you something different"

"Okay spill"

"I have been battling depression since I was eleven, I have been in a lot of fights at school, I used to get beat up and left bleeding in the halls at school everyday, I have been raped or taken advantage of what ever you want to call it at a part, and I have been battling self harm but I have been self harm free for about a year" He smiled and let a tear fall.

"You are so strong. you are just like my mom in that aspect, no matter what life threw at her she always found the light at the end of the tunnel. She had her good days and bad days but she always found a way to smile and I am proud of you that you are getting through this"

"I love you" I hugged him and told him that I was going to head to bed. he said that he was doing the same as it was nearing 1 AM and he had an interview in the morning.


"Katie May Carlile, Will you be my girlfriend?" Alan asked while handing me a box that I opened to reveal an necklace.

"Yes I will" He smiled and kissed me. We were out to dinner with the rest of the band and everyone smiled and cheered.

"treat her right Ashby" Phil said

"Yeah or I will kick your ass" Aaron and Tino chimed in

"Guys I think if anyone will be doing any ass kicking it would be my dad" I looked over to see Austin smiling and nodding his head like an idiot.

2 days later......

I just barely rolled out of bed and went to the kitchen. I saw my dad sitting at the table on the phone arguing with someone.

"No, I will not allow that!" He yelled

I sat down and waited patiently for him to get done with the call.

"So whats wrong who was that?" He looked at me with tears in his eyes

"Katie, your mom wants you to move back with her because she claims that she is a better parent" I started to let tears fall

"No I don't want to go back her, she was so mean and I love you more than her please don't make me go" I got up and ran into the bunk and woke alan.

"Whats wrong baby are you - why are you crying?" He asked wiping my tears with his thumbs

"My mother wants me to move back with her and she says that she is a better parent and I will be better taken care of there" I cried and sobbed into alans chest

"Hey hey hey your dad isn't going to let that happen I promise" I hugged him tighter and he started to sing when you can't sleep at night.

I finally fell asleep in his arms with hope that my dad will find a way to keep me with him.

Days had passed and dad continued to argue with my mom and Alan and I continued to be happy together. I loved how he care so much about me that at any waking moment he would ask me of I was okay.

"Alan I have to tell you something" i spoke as I turned to face him in the bunk.

"Are you breaking up with me?" He looked worried

"No I am not breaking up with you, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I wanted to tell you that I love you" He smiled and kissed me

"I love you too" I climbed on top of him and well you can guess what happened

"I ah fuck mhm I am close" I couldn't even finish a sentence I was in pure bliss that is until the curtain flung open

"Oh shit that is fucking nasty" i looked to see my dad fling the curtain shut

"Ashby stop fucking my daughter when I am here that is the third time this week" He shout and I laughed as my orgasm hit me like bricks . Alan and I finished and walked into the front lounge.

"Um hey dad" I spoke with rosey red cheeks

"Oh hey, I wanted to let you know that your mother said that you could stay because ultimatley it was your choice in where you want to live" I smiled and jumped on his lap.

"EEEEW get off me you have sex all over your body!" Alan burst out laughing and i just got red.

What would I do without my family?

Notes

Hey sorry it was such a short and sucky chapter but i hope you enjoy!