One Moment

*Austin p.o.v*

I laid with Hazel for the rest of the day, just talking. And I seemed to be getting somewhat of a response out of her.
She still hadn't taken her eyes off of the wall, and I could tell her mind was at a far away place, but she had moved towards me more, nearly laying on her back against my chest now.

I still couldn't get her to eat and that was seriously troubling me. This isn't healthy, but I'm doing everything I can.

"I'm gona go get some dinner," I brushed my fingers over her pink cheeks. "I think Tino just wants to get some shitty takeout, but it'd make me feel better if you ate at least some fries or something... I know how much you like the ones from McDonalds.." I tried, but my assumptions were proven correct when she gave no response, eyes lost in the pattern of the top of the bunk. "I'll get you some anyways, just in case you change your mind, okay?" I kissed the top of her forehead before gently sliding out of the bunk, sighing as I turned to head to the front of the bus.

"McDonalds sounding any good to her?" Alan asked when I came out. I shook my head no, sitting on the arm rest of the couch, pinching the bridge of my nose. "I just don't know what else to do... I've given her time and I've tried everything I can think of, but I just get nothing. And she can't just not ear or sleep.. It's not healthy for her or the baby."

"I know, man. You just gotta hang in there with her. Baby steps," Alan reassured me.

"Baby steps," I repeated, nodding, trying to reassure myself as well. I can be as strong as I need to for Hazel, because that's what I need to do, but I can't help but let the doubts slip in when I'm away from her.

"Do you wana come with me to pick up the food? For a change of scenery or whatever?" Tino asked me and I hesitated to answer yes. I'd feel bad for leaving Hazel here.
"Go ahead, Aust, I'll stay by her, she won't be alone," Alan told me, knowing it was best that I stop driving myself crazy inside this bus.
"Okay... yeah," I nodded in agreement. "Some fresh air would be nice."

------*Alan's p.o.v*-----

Once Austin and Tino left I willed myself to get off of the couch and stop being completely lazy. I decided to go check on Hazel, see how she was doing, even though I'm sure it's much of the same.

The poor girl is freaked, you can see it in her eyes. And obviously the fact that she's been curled up in a bed the fast few days, in a coma-like state from what went down.

And Austin's not doing too hot either. He's trying, he really is, but he blames himself. He's beating himself up knowing that Ian took Hazel... Knowing that she was hurt.
I've tried to convince him that it's anything but his fault, but especially now that Hazel's pregnant, he's having a hard time convincing himself I'm right.

I smiled at the thought of her pregnant as I hiked myself up onto Tino's bunk, sitting with my legs dangling as I faced Hazel in Austin's bunk. I'm super excited for Hazel and Austin's kid, actually. I've never thought of having one for myself, but the idea of being an 'uncle' to that little rugrat makes me so excited.

And Austin was stoked. He has always constantly talked about how he wanted thirty kids and a wife and all that soap opera stuff. Even if it isn't my kind of gig, I'm happy for him. And Hazel's perfect to be the one for him to start a family with, they're obviously perfect for each other. I mean it's kind of annoying.

With a sigh, I looked around the room, the silence awkward. I wish Hazel would talk, I'd pay to hear her calling me a dickwad or whatever silly, playful insult she came up with at the time. "Man, isn't it crazy how close we've all become in like a couple months?" I asked Hazel aloud, snorting a laugh. "I mean like you're my sister... who's madly in love with my brother... Wait.. not like incest or whatever but like... ug," I laughed, rubbing at my forehead as I thought. "What I'm trying to say is you're part of our family now... You and the little rugrat." I laughed nervously, playing with my fingers. I'd never be telling Hazel this if she was actually responsive. I'm too awkward to just spill my feelings like this on a normal basis. But right now, maybe it'd help her?

"I don't know whats going on inside that head of yours right now, but you just gotta know we all love ya, alright? We're all rooting for you and trying to help you get better, especially Austin," after a little bit of lingering silence, I slid off the bunk, searching for eye contact that I never found. "But you've got to root for yourself to get better too," I spoke quieter this time, noticing her fist clench after.

I waited, hoping she may respond, but after realizing she wasn't going to, I headed back to the front of the bus, going to grab a beer from the fridge. Hazel seemed like her mind was either working a mile a minute or not at all. I just hope it levels out back to Normal soon.

After drinking at least half my beer, the bus door creaking open caught my attention, so I turned to see the guys coming back in with bags of food. I could already catch a whiff of the greasy food, but damn, it smelled good.
They all pooled back into the bus and onto the couch with the food, besides Austin who caught my eyes, looking questioningly at me. I knew he was just mentally asking if anything new happened with Hazel, hoping she was up and talking, but I shook my head no at him.

----*Austin p.o.v*-----

I nodded towards Alan, sighing in disappointment.
I guess I got my hopes up that Hazel may actually get up and eat. Maybe it was because we seemed to make progress today, or because I thought maybe she'd just really want some fries..

Either way, my main concern is her not eating. I mean, at least I know she's getting lots of rest, not pushing herself too hard with the pregnancy, but that doesn't mean anything going on with her is healthy. Just because she's laying down doesn't mean she's sleeping.

I started to get myself worked up thinking about her, angry that this is happening. I'm in no way angry at her, but more of at the situation, or at myself, or at Ian, or at Kush, or at Mike... It just is all an amount of unnecessary pain that she definitely did not deserve to get. And I was angry that it was causing her to become unhealthy.

Before eating my food I decided to go back to see one more time if she'd want to eat. Angrily hoping that she'd be up.

But when I got there I noticed she was curled up on her side again, close to the wall. And that set me off, feeling my heart fall at the fact that she had went back to wrapping her arms around herself. She had made so much progress, but now... I should have never left.

Bowing my head sadly, I shuffled over to in front of her bunk. "I don't know what else to do..." I spoke in a broken voice. "It's been days..." I breathed. Something inside me either clicked or snapped because I couldn't help myself from slamming my hand down against the wooden edge of Tino's bunk. "I don't know what to do!" I repeated loudly, worked up. "Just tell me what to do! Tell me something!" Silence answered my begging, not helping. "You've got to eat! You've got to sleep! You've got to get better! I just want you to get better!" I cried out, wondering if she was even hearing me.

I realized that I probably shouldn't be yelling. There is no reason to take out my own feelings on Hazel. She didn't need that.

I sighed, sadness lacing my breath as I stepped back towards her bunk, reaching out to place my hand on her arm for some type of comfort. But I was taken by surprise when she jerked harshly away from it. I held my hand out hovering above her arm, staring at it like it was poisonous.

Dammit, Austin! What have you done? I cursed myself mentally, retreating away from her. I should have never came in here and yelled, dammit! I'm not going to help her get any better! Fuck!

Backing up towards the front of the bus, I suddenly felt the need for more fresh air, huffing a little bit. I felt like she wanted me gone and that panicked me. I don't know why I thought that, but it's obvious I'm just doing shit wrong.
Why can't I just do stuff right and get her to feel better? Why can't I stop doubting myself?

All the guys were looking up at me, but I paid them no mind as I started to rush to the door of the bus. I was about to run out when suddenly a light bulb in my mind popped up, telling my feet to skid to a sudden halt. Thoughts instantly flooded my mind on how to help Hazel..

I have an idea...

Notes

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