One Moment

"Stop shaking, Hazel. Fucking stop it," I harshly rubbed my hands over my face, trying to slap some calmness into myself. "Get a grip of yourself," I splashed some water on myself before looking up into the mirror, noticing the dark bags under my eyes that stuck out on my pale face. "Get a grip," I repeated, now standing up straight. I wiped my face off before stepping out of the bathroom without another thought. If I think about it too much I will never let myself leave.

I joined Austin and the rest of the guys who were waiting for me outside, taking his hand with my own shaky one. He noticed and gave it a reassuring squeeze as we started walking off. I was coming with them to watch their set, none of us thinking it was really the best idea for me to be alone. I'd probably go crazy being by myself here.. In Texas.

When we started to get closer to the stage where more people were, I grew increasingly anxious. I was beyond paranoid, afraid that each face was going to be Ian, waiting to get his revenge on me. Waiting to take me.

Each body that surrounded us was another one that could be him and that was freaking me out.
I had a numbing grip on Austin's hand as I now looked straight down at my feet, not daring to look up and possibly see him.

Watching my feet, I shuffled up the stairs to backstage with the rest of the guys. They all went off to get their guitars and stuff ready, but Austin still held me close while he went over to their backstage manager and started chatting about everything being set up. I was having a hard time even trying to pay attention to what they were saying.. All the bad memories from the past few years were playing in my head like a slideshow that I couldn't stop or slow down. It must be because of something in the air.

I snapped myself back into reality when I felt Austin lightly pull me over to the stool where I was going to sit and watch. With my back to it, he stood close in front of me and put his hands on each side of my face. I could already hear the fans cheering.

"Did you take your medicine today?" he asked sweetly while brushing his thumbs gently over my skin. I nodded, knowing if I didn't I would probably have had tons of anxiety attacks already.
"Good. Just try to relax for me, okay?" Again, I nodded, letting myself get lost in his big brown eyes for a moment, feeling better as I did. Austin then made a sudden movement, leaning down and wrapping me up into a tight hug, the kind that squeeze everything bad out from me. The kind that make me feel like I can breathe again. I can only describe it as an Austin hug. I've never been hugged like I have by him and there is something about it that's special, so therefore I call it an Austin hug. "I love you."

And with those words coming out of his mouth I released a big breathe, smiling a little while I let my head bury into his chest. There's no other place I'd rather be than in his embrace. "I love you too, Austin. So much," I sighed out, feeling him squeeze me tighter to him as I spoke.

I never wanted to break the hug, but eventually we had to, and when we did I couldn't help but light up at the sight of Austin's giddy smile because of my words. "I'll be right back," he kissed the top of my forehead and I waved at his backpedalling form before he turned and ran out onto the stage.

The screams of the crowd went crazy as I settled myself onto the stool, only to end up eventually getting lost in my thoughts again and staring blankly off at the rest of the band running out and immediately starting to jump around and play. I've never failed to be amazed at watching them perform, loving their passion and joy. I love their music too, so it wasn't hard for me to lose myself in it.

At least halfway through their set, Austin turned and met my eyes, sending me his heart warming smile and a wink before turning back to the crowd. I smiled, my head being filled with the lyrics of his songs, but then soon someone calling my name from off the side stage. It sounded so far away, but once I made sure it was real, I turned around on my stool.

I spotted Mike standing on the ground below the stage, waving at me to come over with one hand while the other was crossed against his chest. I didn't want to leave the stage, in fact I was terrified to be too far away from Austin, but I really wanted to know what he could possibly want. If he came all the way over here to bug me with his rude words, I'm going to slap him. I still don't know why he doesn't like me.

With a huff, I cautiously started coming to him. "Wh-" I could barely get a word out before Mike started yelling something.

"What are you doing?" I hissed, looking around. I didn't see anything and Mike just looked at me now. "I'm sorry," he mumbled, scratching his head.

"What? What do you mean you're sor-" I was shoved off of side stage. I felt someone grab onto my wrists and yank me down, causing me to fall forward, unable to get up because soon a weight was on my back, holding me down. It wasn't Mike. "AUSTIN!" I screamed bloody murder, feeling my heart rapidly thumping in my throat. Would he even hear me over the crowd? "AUSTIN!! ALAN! TINO! AARON! PH-" I couldn't get out another scream before I my head was shoved against the ground hard, shutting me up.

I felt like I was going to be sick. My head was spinning, the person on my back was making it difficult for me to breathe, and I could barely make out the huffs and grumbled words of Mike and whoever was on top of me. I didn't see who it was, but deep inside, I know...

With that thought, my eyes rolled into the back of my head and I was struggling to fight of the blackness."Been a long time, Hazel... It's great to fucking see you," the voice had my bones set cold, and blackness surround my eyes completely.

Notes

okay, so I know I said i'd be a while from updating, but I realized that I desperately needed something to distract me, and writing seemed perfect for that because I also love to do it! So, I give you this chapter that I randomly wrote and didn't even go over or try to edit. I'm just going to go with it!
It might be a bunch of random updates from here on out, but hopefully I'll be able to go against when I said it would take long, because like I said, I NEED/want some distraction!

So can you guess who the man is on top of Hazel? What will happen? What does Mike have to do with it??

Please, let me know what you think! I would love to talk to you guys right now!