I decided to go against my parents and I didn’t pack a thing. Not even one little shirt. I didn’t want to go to my cousin and LA. I wanted to stay here. I wanted my life back. I WANTED MY FUCKING HEARING BACK!
But when I got online to write out my anger… Well that is when I changed my mind. I looked through all the comments about me and my heart dropped. People was glad that I was in France. Now maybe they could get some space on the “throne” of Manhattan and maybe get a chance with Charlie. Kayla and Samantha agreed with them AND SAMANTHA WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH CHARLIE! Like seriously? What the fuck was going on? Then i saw that my current “hometown” was Paris. My mother had hacked my side and changed it to Paris… Wow. Classy. I took a deep breath and I changed it back into New York and I wrote “I’m back, but not for long” and I got a comment almost immediately. Please go back.

I packed my bag with everything I thought I needed. My mother looked a bit surprised when I the morning after walked out from my room and I put the bag in the hall. She looked at me, a bit confused but then she smiled.
"I’m happy you’re going" she wrote on a note and gave it to me. I looked at it but I didn’t write anything back. I just prepared a small breakfast and sat down by the table. My hands was actually trembling a little. It had been months since I left my room. And now I was getting away and everything. I was leaving Manhattan.

About an hour later I walked out from the apartment and I actually walked around in Manhattan. Dressed so that no one would recognize me. I didn’t want people to recognize me when I had such ugly hair. But I walked over to a saloon and I handed them a note where I had written everything down. How I wanted my hair done. They looked a bit skeptical at me but they put me in a chair and then they started. I saw that she tried to speak to me but I just looked at her. I gestured towards my ear and shook my head. She didn’t seem to understand. I sighed and picked up my phone and wrote down that I was deaf. She blushed and excused herself. Another person came up and said something. They seemed a bit irritated and I could see that she said something about not being deaf and said my name. I just looked at them and swallowed. Someone had recognized me. But I shrugged it off and closed my eyes. Let the woman finish my haircut and then I payed for it. My hair looked amazing again. Shiny and new. Curly like always. This time I walked like I used to. Like I owned the street. I walked down the street and ordered a coffee, and then I took a deep breath as I continued and looked around. It felt kinda good to breath in the scent of New York. To feel the sun against my now very pale skin. I was usually tanned but since I’ve stayed inside I didn’t get any new pigments. Then I saw Kayla and Samantha. They didn’t see me and I got nervous. Somehow I didn’t want to meet them. I didn’t want to see them. Those bitches. Then they saw me and I could see how shocked they were to see me. Then they put on fake smiles on their lips and Kayla held out her arms to hug me. I stopped just before her and I frowned. I could see her lips moving and she looked so “happy” to see me. then my phone vibrated and I saw a text from my mom.
"Your ride is here, where are you?" she wrote and I looked at Kayla.
"I have to go" I said out loud. I didn’t know if I said it loud or quite, or normal. I just said it and walked away from them. I saw how surprised they looked when I just walked past them and walked away.

- - -

Tino smiled when I got inside the apartment. I couldn’t eve see my bag anywhere and I looked around for it.
"Your bag is in my car" he texted me and I nodded. I gave him a small smile and he looked at me.
"we have to work on communication though" he said and nodded.
He told me that we would take his rented car back to the airport where we would board a plane to LA, and there we would go to my apartment and get me settled. Then in a few days I would leave with him and his band on their tour. And maybe find my way back to the music in a new way. I swallowed and nodded, and somehow got pretty excited.
"But we have to work on your communication" he wrote and looked at me, a bit skeptical. I looked a bit guilty and bit my lip.
"Luckily for you I actually happen to know sign language" he wrote and grinned. I looked at him, a bit surprised.
"I had a friend who’s deaf, and I had to learn it to be able to communicate with him" he told me and I could see a bit of sorrow in his eyes. I nodded.
My mother came over to me and she gave me a new wallet. A big, red, one and when I opened it there was a few new cards inside.
"Your father and I want to help you, so you will never be without money" she wrote on a note and showed me. I swallowed and nodded, gave her a small smile and hugged her.

When I got outside i saw Samantha and Kayla again. They were on their way towards the front door to my apartment building. I looked at Tino and he saw them. He knew who they were and he looked at me.
"You don’t want to meet them?" he asked. I shook my head and he gave me a small smile. Just as we got out they saw him and they both looked a bit surprised. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pointed towards one of the cars. I smiled and I felt their eyes on me as we walked away from them. I got inside the car and they looked at me. Surprised. I looked at them and I sighed a little in relief. It felt good to just shrug them away and show them that I didn’t need them. That "the bitch" could handle herself.