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A Small Affection For You

Chapter 6

I was sitting and listening to We Came As Romans as they played their show here in San Diego. A few girls harassed me for my cleavage and some for my sunburn, because during the day my sunburn had gotten worse and my cheeks was red and my chest as well. And my forearms and my thighs. I just glared at them and asked if they wanted something, that made them walk away. But I had to say that I got a little bit irritated when I heard a few girls talking about Austin.
“I’ve heard he’s kinda easy to get with” they said and giggled. Yes, Austin liked flirting around with girls and I had seen him with a few here on tour. I had even heard him. Two times, I think.
“Do you think he’ll like us?” one of them asked the other. I laughed a little and they looked at me.
“What’s so funny? I bet you’ve slept with them all” she snapped. I laughed some more and Jack looked at me. Even Anthony looked at me. They wondered if I laughed at the girls, or if I laughed at my phone. But they could almost bet their lives on that I laughed at the girls.
“You ugly whore, they only have you as their merchgirl because of your tits” she said and glared at me. I looked at them and smiled.
“Is there anything you need?” I asked and smiled. The girl looked really irritated and hissed a little, like a cat and I just stared at her before I bursted out laughing. They walked away and I looked at Jack.
“Girls really hate you” he said and looked at me.
“I guess they do” I said and sighed. To be honest I was really tired of this. Being on tour was worse then being home and hearing about it.

I had packed down the merch and Jack had told me he would take the boxes for me. I smiled and walked out to get some fresh air. I picked up my phone and it was around 10.30 and I got a little bit surprised. The show had ended quite early this time. I sighed and stretched my tired back when I felt someone pushing me. I fell over and my knees stung when I felt the ground tear them up. My phone crashed onto the ground and the glass broke. I turned around and there was no one standing behind me. I looked around but I couldn’t see anyone. I sighed. Maybe it was just my imagination.
I stood up and picked up my phone, and I looked at my knees. The right one was bleeding and the other one was just red. I sighed and whined a little, and I was just about to turn around and go back inside when the girl that had hissed at me before stood there. I looked at her and raised an eyebrow. She hissed again and I tried not to laugh. But it was hard because well… She hissed like a freaking cat.
“Are you for real?” I asked and tried to keep a serious face. That made her hiss again and I bursted out laughing. It was so funny and I could barely stand up.

SMACK

She slapped me in the face and I landed on my back because of the sudden punch. Really shocked I just stared at her and tried to get up, but she pushed me down again and kicked me in the side. I lost my breath and started coughing. I feared when I saw her foot move again and I curled up to a small ball. but the next kick didn’t come and when I opened my eyes the girl was gone. I coughed and coughed, and I stood up. It was really hard to breath and I got tears in my eyes.
“Hey Chris, where are you?” someone called and I looked up. It was Jack and Anthony. They saw me and looked a little bit surprised to see me leaning at me knees and trying to breath.
“Are you having an asthma attack or something?” Anthony asked and I shook my head.
“I tripped and choked a little” I said and tried to smile. They just looked at me and I knew they didn’t believe me, but they accepted it. With a swollen cheek, bleeding knees and tears in my eyes they knew that I had not just “tripped”.

They helped me backstage and Jack gave me a glass of water. Alan saw us and came over. He looked really surprised when he saw me.
“What happened?” he asked.
“I tripped” I said and tried to smile. I drank up the whole glass and tried to take a deep breath, but it was hard. Alan saw me struggle and he crouched and took my hands.
“You okay?” he asked and I looked him in the eye. I didn’t have to say anything, he already knew. He dragged me up on my feet and said he would take me back to the bus. Anthony and Jack nodded.

“So are you going to tell me what really happened?” he asked and looked at me.
“There was this girl that hissed like a cat when she got angry, and when I laughed she hit me” I said and Alan stared at me.
“Hissed like a cat?” he said and tried not to laugh, I forced a smile and tried to take a breath again. It hurt and I frowned and Alan looked a little bit worried. He unlocked the door to the bus and I hurried inside, sat down on the floor and tried to take another deep breath. Alan just looked at me and the others entered the bus as well.
“Shit, what happened to your face?” Austin asked and looked shocked. Phil and Aaron looked at me, and Tino shook his head.
“Chris here laughed at a girl that hissed like a cat, and the girl slapped her” Alan said and sounded a bit amused. They all looked surprised to hear that and then they started laughing.
“She hissed like a cat?” Austin asked and looked at me. I nodded.
“So you laughed at her, and she what… slapped you?” Phil said and sat down in the sofa. I nodded again and forced a small smile.
“What else did she do? Because you look to be in pain” Austin said when he saw me frown a little.
“Your bleeding” Phil said when he saw my knees.
“Did she push you?” Alan asked when he saw my knees as well.
“Maybe” I said and nodded.
“Okay, can you tell us what really happened?” Austin asked. I looked at him and he waited for me to say something. I sighed and looked at my hands.
“There was these two girls that said that they wanted to hook up with you, and I laughed a little… and then this girl hissed like a cat, and laughed some more. Then after the show she came up to me, slapped me, pushed me so I fell to my knees and kicked me in my ribs” I said and swallowed.
“She kicked you?” Phil said and looked a bit surprised. I nodded and pulled up Alan’s tee and showed them the big red mark. It would be a bruise by tomorrow.
“Ouch” Aaron said and frowned.
“So that is the reason why is sounds like you’re having an asthma attack” Alan said.
“I’m going to sleep” I said and walked over to the bunkers. I jumped out from Phil’s shorts, unbuttoned my bra and crawled inside my bunker. I stared into the wall and dried my tears, because I wanted to cry.

I woke up in the middle of the night because I found it hard to breath again. I crawled outside the bunker and jumped into Phil’s shorts and walked over to the small kitchen and poured me something to drink. With shaky hands I walked outside the bus and sat down on the ground. I took a sip of the juice and then the tears came. I sobbed and tried not to cry but it was hard, and soon I bursted out in tears and my whole body was shaking. I hated this. I hated being on tour and feeling like shit. Hearing almost every damn day about my body. Being called a whore, being called ugly and accused of sleeping with people because I happened to be their friend. I picked up the glass and I threw it away. I slammed into the wall a few meters away and broke into thousands of pieces. But it didn’t help. I looked up into the starry sky and cried.
“Why the fuck did you give me big boobs, and wide hips and… a big fat ass” I cried. I was not the one to believe in God. I wasn’t religious but right now I blamed him for making me look like this.
“You shouldn’t blame him for your looks, he isn’t responsible for your genes” Austin said behind me. I almost screamed and jumped up in the air, but Austin sat down beside me. He looked at me with a small smile and he sighed.
“then who the fuck should I blame?” I said and looked at my hands.
“Well… Blame your parents, they are the one that gave you your genes” he said with a grin.
“My mom is flat, my grandma is flat… even my dads ma is flat” I said and shook my head.
“Then blame.. Fuck I don’t know, you shouldn’t blame anyone… You happened to have big boobs, wide hips and what… Your ass is not fat, it’s round yes… But fat, no” he said and shrugged.
“So you admit you’ve looked at my ass?” I sobbed and looked at him. He looked a little bit surprised, then he looked embarrassed but nodded.
“Guilty” he said and pulled his fingers through his hair. I shook my head and laughed a little.
“I really hate the way I look… Because people always assume things because of my boobs and my bum, they never get to know the real me” I sobbed and pulled my legs towards me. I curled up and leaned my back against the bus. Austin looked at me.
“You shouldn’t hate the way you look” he said.
“Why not? Girls assume that I sleep with you just because of these” I said and gestured towards my chest. Austin laughed a little and shook his head.
“Then let them believe that, you know that it isn’t true… Don’t let them get to you” he said.
“And I can’t find a guy that likes me for my personality, and not just because… Fuck I hate this” I cried and hid my face in my knees. Austin sighed and looked at me.
“Guy’s like boobs, we don’t have them ourselves” he said and shrugged.
“So it’s okay to force yourself onto you because you have boobs?” I said and looked at him.
“I never said that… but… Did that happen to you?” he asked and looked at me.
“That is the reason why Alan asked you guys if I could come… I was with this guy that tried to and I just wanted to get away, get away from all the people assuming things and harassing me for my boobs.. But being on tour is even worse then being back home” I sobbed and looked at my hands.
“I’m glad you came on tour though” he said and looked up into the sky. I looked at him. He closed his eyes and sighed, and then he looked at me.
“Why?” I asked and he looked me in the eyes.
“Well… I’ve taken a liking to you” he said and gave me a small smile. I looked at him and he looked up into the sky again.
“To be honest… First I only saw you boobs and your very nice ass… But slowly getting to know you I kinda took a liking to your personality” he whispered and swallowed. He looked nervous.
“are you… saying…” I asked but couldn’t say it. He looked at me and he looked serious. Then he leaned towards me and he laid his hand over my neck, and his lips touched mine. Really surprised I just stared at him when he let go. He looked at me and then he smiled a little.
“Let’s go back to sleep, we’re getting up early tomorrow” he said and dragged me up.

Comments

I'm gonna reread this story tonight when I get off of work and I'm so excited
I haven't read it in years but it was one of my favorite fics.

Kylie Koma Kylie Koma
6/9/16

This story was adorable.
I've read every single story that you've written.
I'm in the process of reading Fragile Love at the moment.
You're ideas are great!
I cannot wait to see more from you.

Luna Moon Luna Moon
12/12/13
This story was so good I'm so sad it's over but that was the cutest ending ever
jessilovex3 jessilovex3
10/23/13
Ohmyfuck, this was the cutest thing I have ever read!! Awwwwhhhsdjongsdfcgvbn.
maybeabbey maybeabbey
10/23/13
Awwwwwwww soooooo cuteee