Oh, Catastrophe...
Small chats.
“How was she? Was—was she happy? Did she asked for me?” Austin asked to Alan as soon as they all arrived the bus. Alan groaned and proceeded to tell his ‘very much’ needed friend about the events from earlier, he told him everything Belle had told them which wasn’t very much, but still Austin wanted to know everything.
It's not joke, he even asked for what she was wearing...
“And no, she didn’t asked for you.” Alan rolled his eyes, he as well as all of his friends were tired of hearing Austin asking ‘Did she asked for me?’ ‘No? Are you sure?’
They were sure, that even if Belle had forgave him, she wouldn’t want to speak to him so soon. There was just too much unsettled and maybe yes, they needed to talk but Belle wouldn’t be so thrilled about it and would try to run from it.
They knew her even better than she knew herself.
The next morning Belle woke up, tangled in sheets, naked, of course, after the events from yesterday. She smiled to herself as she remembered all of what had happened, whenever she was with Shay she felt at peace. She felt…happy? Maybe not yet, but she felt content, she felt better than ever and that was a huge progress.
She couldn’t see anything better than Shay, yet there was this part of her that whenever tried to picture a life with Shay, a long term one… It suddenly turned into memories from Austin, before it all happened. Belle wanted to convince herself that even if the accident never happened she would still have tried to drift apart from Austin, but she knows, deep inside, she would have failed.
Belle shook her head, wanting to believe that everything that had happened in her life was for a reason. She appreciated every breath she had now, she could see life with more meaning now and Shayley was a big part of that. She cared for him, Shay was a treasure for her. Her biggest one.
But did she loved him?
They had been together for a while, she should love him, shouldn’t she? But everything was so messed up inside her and even when she had told Shay he should look for someone better, Shay didn’t wanted someone better, he wanted her.
Her, with all her fucked up life, so she believe she loved Shay, but she didn’t felt the same way she felt when she said to herself in the past she loved Austin. It was different and maybe she was realizing that Austin was a crush, a fixation into someone, and Shay was that… love.
But then why it didn’t felt like that? Why didn’t it feel right?
“Hey, handsome.” Belle said wrapping her arms from behind Shayley as he was washing the dishes, they had just finished breakfast and now they were preparing themselves for their meetings.
Belle had dinner with the boys and Shay had band stuff to do, as usual, after all this was a music festival and of course his boyfriend, who was in a band, was going to be required for some duties, she just wished he didn’t. They left the bus and parted their ways, wishing each other good luck. She was typing a tweet into her phone listening to some Black Eye Peas’ songs.
‘Lunch w/ @alanashby @philipmanansala @youngfuego @aaronpauley….’
Belle stared at her incomplete tweet, through her sunglasses and asked to herself for the first time since yesterday, if he was going to be there? She wasn’t sure, she hadn’t ask, she couldn't dare… And now she was scared he might.
‘Lunch w/ @OMAndM’
Sent.
***
Belle stood outside the building, looking back down to her phone. This was the direction Alan had gave her. But she was confused as to why they would go to what it looked like a gallery. it was brick wall building, with a simple 42 on the outside, Belle was considering going back and play sick, but Alan wouldn’t allow that.
“Gaby!” Alan called out before she could take 2 steps back to the venue “Where were you going?”
“I—I was lost,” she said “I thought you gave me the wrong address.” He chuckled and she took a strand of her hair behind her ear “It wouldn’t be the first time, dumbass.” she laughed.
"THAT WAS JUST ONE TIME! AND THAT CAT WAS HUGE!" Alan shouted in his defense to which Belle just rolled her eyes.
“Bella,” Tino’s voice echoed through her ears and she scrunched up her nose to the nickname.
“Don’t call me that!” she yelled between giggles “I’m not married to a fucking necrophiliac pedophile.”
The boys laughed at the Twilight reference and Tino shook his head at the brunette, “Shall we go in or are we eating on the outside?”
“No, the others are already in. Let’s go.” Alan said opening the door, letting Belle enter first. She took in her surroundings; the slow music playing as a background, the tables, the lighting, every so… peaceful.
“Alan did you brought me--dude, we’re on the inside and you’re wearing sunglasses.” Belle said taking how his ginger friend remained with his dark shades.
“Only cool people do it.”
She shook her head and followed Alan to the table where they were all sitting currently. Yes, all of them. Belle didn’t thought she had been set up, that was not the style of the boys, what she did thought it was that Austin begged day and night to come and the boys refused knowing she would freak out and after he looked extremely desperate they caved in.
She knew them.
After all she knew them for almost two years.
She acted natural, for a short notice like this; she greeted them all as a group not taking a particular greeting into someone, she sat next to Phil who just hugged her above her shoulders and squeezed her to his side. In front of her was Austin, watching her from his menu, more than often, she would caught his stare and it make her nervous because she herself wanted to look at him, his face, his body; she had that chance earlier in the week but now, she had him in front and they were both taking all about each other, obviously if asked they would both deny it, but the rest of the guys were just watching them like some sort of social experiment.
They all snapped from their doing when the waitress approached them and asked if they were ready. They were all ready, asking for their traditional sushi, some drinks and stuff.
“So, how's been treating--I mean how is feeling--Shit! I mean..” Austin rubbed the back of his neck, nervously he had never felt so insecure about talking to a girl before, but this wasn’t any girl, this was his best friend, ex-best friend/the girl he loved/the girl who was currently with his former bassist/ex-best friend; it was a huge mess.
“Tour? I've been fine, thank you for asking.” she replied with a small smile, looking how shy and awkward was he acting, it only reminded her of when they were 18 and were seeing each other for the first time; She remembered how shy was he when he asked her for a pencil and she couldn’t hold the giggle that came from her mouth due to the memory.
“What?” he asked.
“No, nothing. I was just remembering how we met.”
“I still owe you that pencil.” He smirked and she rolled her eyes.
“I’ve been hearing the same excuse for years, by now, I already forgot it.”
“Haha, it will get there when you least expect it.” Austin laughed and suddenly the tension was gone…
At least for now.
The group was chatting away, like they used to, they chatted about the new album, about their lives, their hobbies, what has being going around for these past months, and of course Austin and Belle avoided the subject that had dragged them apart.
They finished their lunch and started to make their way into the venue where several bands included Of Mice & Men and Dayshell had their buses parked. Everyone could see how Belle and Austin, without even knowing it, were chatting like they used to it before. It all felt so familiar and so…
“Gaby!” Shay shouted over at her girlfriend who was hanging out with his old bandmates, Shay approached the group, greeting them and making small talk. “Sorry to take her away, guys but can you help me with the merch boxes, please, babe?” he asked and Belle smiled at him before nodding her head.
“See ya later, boys!”
“You will come and see our set, will you?” Alan asked and she laughed nodding her head.
Austin saw how Belle pulled away from him and the group to help Shayley, his boyfriend. ‘I should be her boyfriend!’ Austin thought, but this was the true. Shayley was his boyfriend and he barely was a person to her.
But she was talking to him, and that was a step. A baby one, but a step anyways.
It's not joke, he even asked for what she was wearing...
“And no, she didn’t asked for you.” Alan rolled his eyes, he as well as all of his friends were tired of hearing Austin asking ‘Did she asked for me?’ ‘No? Are you sure?’
They were sure, that even if Belle had forgave him, she wouldn’t want to speak to him so soon. There was just too much unsettled and maybe yes, they needed to talk but Belle wouldn’t be so thrilled about it and would try to run from it.
They knew her even better than she knew herself.
The next morning Belle woke up, tangled in sheets, naked, of course, after the events from yesterday. She smiled to herself as she remembered all of what had happened, whenever she was with Shay she felt at peace. She felt…happy? Maybe not yet, but she felt content, she felt better than ever and that was a huge progress.
She couldn’t see anything better than Shay, yet there was this part of her that whenever tried to picture a life with Shay, a long term one… It suddenly turned into memories from Austin, before it all happened. Belle wanted to convince herself that even if the accident never happened she would still have tried to drift apart from Austin, but she knows, deep inside, she would have failed.
Belle shook her head, wanting to believe that everything that had happened in her life was for a reason. She appreciated every breath she had now, she could see life with more meaning now and Shayley was a big part of that. She cared for him, Shay was a treasure for her. Her biggest one.
But did she loved him?
They had been together for a while, she should love him, shouldn’t she? But everything was so messed up inside her and even when she had told Shay he should look for someone better, Shay didn’t wanted someone better, he wanted her.
Her, with all her fucked up life, so she believe she loved Shay, but she didn’t felt the same way she felt when she said to herself in the past she loved Austin. It was different and maybe she was realizing that Austin was a crush, a fixation into someone, and Shay was that… love.
But then why it didn’t felt like that? Why didn’t it feel right?
“Hey, handsome.” Belle said wrapping her arms from behind Shayley as he was washing the dishes, they had just finished breakfast and now they were preparing themselves for their meetings.
Belle had dinner with the boys and Shay had band stuff to do, as usual, after all this was a music festival and of course his boyfriend, who was in a band, was going to be required for some duties, she just wished he didn’t. They left the bus and parted their ways, wishing each other good luck. She was typing a tweet into her phone listening to some Black Eye Peas’ songs.
‘Lunch w/ @alanashby @philipmanansala @youngfuego @aaronpauley….’
Belle stared at her incomplete tweet, through her sunglasses and asked to herself for the first time since yesterday, if he was going to be there? She wasn’t sure, she hadn’t ask, she couldn't dare… And now she was scared he might.
‘Lunch w/ @OMAndM’
Sent.
***
Belle stood outside the building, looking back down to her phone. This was the direction Alan had gave her. But she was confused as to why they would go to what it looked like a gallery. it was brick wall building, with a simple 42 on the outside, Belle was considering going back and play sick, but Alan wouldn’t allow that.
“Gaby!” Alan called out before she could take 2 steps back to the venue “Where were you going?”
“I—I was lost,” she said “I thought you gave me the wrong address.” He chuckled and she took a strand of her hair behind her ear “It wouldn’t be the first time, dumbass.” she laughed.
"THAT WAS JUST ONE TIME! AND THAT CAT WAS HUGE!" Alan shouted in his defense to which Belle just rolled her eyes.
“Bella,” Tino’s voice echoed through her ears and she scrunched up her nose to the nickname.
“Don’t call me that!” she yelled between giggles “I’m not married to a fucking necrophiliac pedophile.”
The boys laughed at the Twilight reference and Tino shook his head at the brunette, “Shall we go in or are we eating on the outside?”
“No, the others are already in. Let’s go.” Alan said opening the door, letting Belle enter first. She took in her surroundings; the slow music playing as a background, the tables, the lighting, every so… peaceful.
“Alan did you brought me--dude, we’re on the inside and you’re wearing sunglasses.” Belle said taking how his ginger friend remained with his dark shades.
“Only cool people do it.”
She shook her head and followed Alan to the table where they were all sitting currently. Yes, all of them. Belle didn’t thought she had been set up, that was not the style of the boys, what she did thought it was that Austin begged day and night to come and the boys refused knowing she would freak out and after he looked extremely desperate they caved in.
She knew them.
After all she knew them for almost two years.
She acted natural, for a short notice like this; she greeted them all as a group not taking a particular greeting into someone, she sat next to Phil who just hugged her above her shoulders and squeezed her to his side. In front of her was Austin, watching her from his menu, more than often, she would caught his stare and it make her nervous because she herself wanted to look at him, his face, his body; she had that chance earlier in the week but now, she had him in front and they were both taking all about each other, obviously if asked they would both deny it, but the rest of the guys were just watching them like some sort of social experiment.
They all snapped from their doing when the waitress approached them and asked if they were ready. They were all ready, asking for their traditional sushi, some drinks and stuff.
“So, how's been treating--I mean how is feeling--Shit! I mean..” Austin rubbed the back of his neck, nervously he had never felt so insecure about talking to a girl before, but this wasn’t any girl, this was his best friend, ex-best friend/the girl he loved/the girl who was currently with his former bassist/ex-best friend; it was a huge mess.
“Tour? I've been fine, thank you for asking.” she replied with a small smile, looking how shy and awkward was he acting, it only reminded her of when they were 18 and were seeing each other for the first time; She remembered how shy was he when he asked her for a pencil and she couldn’t hold the giggle that came from her mouth due to the memory.
“What?” he asked.
“No, nothing. I was just remembering how we met.”
“I still owe you that pencil.” He smirked and she rolled her eyes.
“I’ve been hearing the same excuse for years, by now, I already forgot it.”
“Haha, it will get there when you least expect it.” Austin laughed and suddenly the tension was gone…
At least for now.
The group was chatting away, like they used to, they chatted about the new album, about their lives, their hobbies, what has being going around for these past months, and of course Austin and Belle avoided the subject that had dragged them apart.
They finished their lunch and started to make their way into the venue where several bands included Of Mice & Men and Dayshell had their buses parked. Everyone could see how Belle and Austin, without even knowing it, were chatting like they used to it before. It all felt so familiar and so…
“Gaby!” Shay shouted over at her girlfriend who was hanging out with his old bandmates, Shay approached the group, greeting them and making small talk. “Sorry to take her away, guys but can you help me with the merch boxes, please, babe?” he asked and Belle smiled at him before nodding her head.
“See ya later, boys!”
“You will come and see our set, will you?” Alan asked and she laughed nodding her head.
Austin saw how Belle pulled away from him and the group to help Shayley, his boyfriend. ‘I should be her boyfriend!’ Austin thought, but this was the true. Shayley was his boyfriend and he barely was a person to her.
But she was talking to him, and that was a step. A baby one, but a step anyways.
Notes
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11/30/13